Unsent Messages

ik everything was my fault but fuck i miss you. and right now you could care less i feel like or maybe you do care but you make it seem like you dont and in the beginning it killed me. broke me in ways i never knew. it was pain for days and days. and you came back gave a glimpse of what we used to be for a day and then left me again but this time it seems like you hate me worse. 1 word answers. delivered for 2 days. opened. telling me you dont even wanna be friends anymore. i remember every time we fought you came back the pain only lasted for a few hours or maybe a day. but this pain has gone on for 3 weeks now. its gotten better ive fianlly gotten to where i dont cry and i feel like i dont need you anymore. i guess content with you leaving me. i wish more than anything youd come back. i miss your face. your goofy text. your laugh. our little jokes. i miss you. fuck writing this is making me tear up. i miss texting you on every possible app having 5 diffrent convos going. i miss it. i fucked it all up bc ive never really known how to love until i met you. i changed so much for the better for you and i still fucked it up. this sucks more than life. ive been waiting for this day coming up since we were talking the day i got to see you. but that part of you is gone. i turned you cold. i miss you please come back.