Unsent messages to ABBY

you don’t understand how much u hurt me and everything u say gets to me and how insecure i am because of you

are you having fun and enjoying it with her or are you just stable
i know with me it’s unstable but at least we have fun right ?

your so wrong for shit talking everyone so heavily and then not being able to say anything to peoples faces. also posting passive aggressive shit on your private all the time isn't immature at all !!! it just irritates me all the things you say behind peoples back but don't have the balls enough to do anything about it

I still love you with everything in me but part of me hates you for what you did. I genuinely do not understand why you did it. Makes me feel shitty, like I wasn’t enough.

I miss you. I wish we met earlier or we stayed friends. I will never forget about you. I hope you are happy now.

I still don’t understand why you did what you did. Or why you would put me through this much pain if you “loved” me.

i miss you. so much. i wanted to leave that town so badly but i didn't think we'd drift like this. i know we still talk, but it's not like how it used to be. i hope we can see each other soon. i know we always joke about you visiting me every year, but i really want it to happen. i guess i'm scared that it will be awkward. i don't want it to be. i love you and i miss you

you’re the only person who loved me in a room full of people who did. thank you for keeping me alive.

i love the way ur mind works even (**especially) when you’re unhinged. plus u made me like the color green. you’re the most annoying person i know

I'm sorry that I don't like you anymore. I feel like the timing was wrong. I wish all of this would've came to light before I figured we were a lost cause. I can't bring myself to think about it too deeply. Just know I always wanted it to be you.

I’m sorry that it never worked out. It was too off and on yes, but it still hurts that it never went anywhere

I hate the way you manipulated me and my friends. You deserve nothing but guilt for what you and your friends did to her.

It is killing me that you don't care anymore. Come to me please. Let's talk. Let's make out. I don't care. I want to do everything and nothing with you.

i hope you know how much i love and care about you, youve genuinely been the only person whos kept me going when ive been in my darkest moments. im just really so thankful and happy that i can call you my bestfriend. weve grown so close over the past 6 years that youre literally family to me at this point. i hope you know im proud of you even for the little things i hope you can lean on me a bit more tho because no matter WHAT ill always be here for you even if i dont know what to say and i wont think what youre going through is stupid. i know you think being serious is uncomfy but IM SERIOUS!!! anyways i love you i hope you find this

i still hope i’m not gonna end up like your dad. your daily fits were always wonderful, and your nose is perfect, despite whatever you say otherwise. i hope school gets easier for you and you can accomplish all your dreams.don’t let physics kick your ass too hard. also, you’re beautiful.

ABBEH ITS ME KIKI. FAM ILY SO MUCH, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING ?? you are one of the most amazing person ever. ily and STAY HAPPY AND FUNNY LMFAOOO

The fact that we went from being as close as can be to as far apart as can be hurts me. does it hurt you?

I am so confused if you want to be my friend... what happened to the past three years do they mean. nothing to you...

Abby you're like my best friend and walking buddy. We've done the most together I think, and if it weren't for you I would not have any of my friends, since you brought us all together by just being AMAZING. I really admire your responsibility and kindness, and the way you're just a good person without trying. Thank you for being my friend :)

I was confused and not in the right state of mind but that doesn’t excuse the way i decided to leave. i’m sorry.

Resist the urge to give up on healing just because it isn't the straight line you thought it would be. Messy healing is still progress.

I fucking love hanging out with you, you're so fucking cool and I wish I had the courage to tell you how I really feel. Every time we hangout with the group I get all giddy inside knowing that you're going to be there, even though we're only friends you mean so much to me and I want nothing but to be with you for the rest of my life I love you so much

We just started dating but I love you so much. You make me happy and it’s lowkey weird but I love it.

You were the first girl I actually LIKED and the only person I think I fell in love with so this kinda hurts to know that you aren’t mine and probably don’t want to be I just ugh I love you Abby king with all my heart and I always will. Like I THOUGHT OF HOW WE WOULD GET MARRIED THATS NOT NORMAL FOR ME. Anyway I hope you fine the one and yeah ◡̈

It’s going to suck not having you here with me anymore, my hoodies still smell like you and I miss you

I love you more. The only people who deserve us is each other. I love you my lesbean lover. Also, I'm literally texting you rn hoe

Fuck you for bullying me and harassing me to the point where i thought i could no longer live, fuck you

hi miss mary!! it's been ages since we spoke. i hope you're doing well!! how's school and everything? take care of yourself
snap me if you find this
ur g o r g e o u s
ok bye xx

Not an unsent text but rather a text I wish I had received. To Abby, from Abby.

You are more than enough.

why did u have to ruin everything I had going for myself. u threw me into a spiraling depression and took everything away from me. if I ever kms it is because of u. i hate u.

fuck you i was there for you and you left me. you hurt me so badly i wish we were never friends. i dont even know why i still miss you but i do..

when I said I wanted to marry you, they told me that little girls didn’t grow up to marry other little girls. now, I think that little girls grow up to marry other little girls, but maybe I don’t grow up to marry you.

You were my first kiss. You started a three year spiral of stressing if I liked girls (spoiler alert, I do, I'm gay as fuck...well actually bi, or at least confused idk but I definetly like women). It took until this year to figure out I had a crush on you. But when you said it was only a dare that meant nothing to you at my birthday party, for some reason a part of me inside broke. That entire year was a mess. I remember sneaking out of school with you, you dared me to kiss you multiple times, I think you even said if I didn't jump the fence I'd have to kiss you. Did I imagine that? Why did you do that? Why did you get me to kiss you so many times? If it meant nothing? I think about it a lot. I can't listen to perfect by ed sheeran anymore, it makes me think of you, then I spiral and end up stressing for hours on end. Do you remember that song? Or why it reminds me of you? You probably don't. I'll tell you. I was listening to that song and a line made me think of you, I told you the next day at school, we said it was our song, we even got "married" XD. The line was 'we were still kids when we fell in love' little 10 year old me was in love? And that weird alien cult thing we started? That was weird as fuck. I wish I had the balls to really send you this but I'm way too scared to ever do it. Maybe I'll tell you to look up your name on this website. Maybe you'll do it yourself. Part of me hopes you'll never find out or see this, the other part is fighting me to not copy and paste it and send it to you right now. I hate how much that year meant to me. We were kids, it should've meant nothing, but I still think about it every day.

you are my best friend and I love you so much, but it hurts so badly to always be second to you. I don’t know how much longer I can do this

I'm sorry. I was drunk and I didn't mean any of it. I hope you realize eventually that everything I have said today I mean. I wouldn't trade you for the world but I understand that things may not go back to the way they were and I'm so sorry for ruining it.

I have been in love with you since the 7th grade. I was afraid to tell you because I didn’t want to ruin our friendship but since I’m leaving it doesn’t matter anymore. I love you.

You broke me for a while, kept telling me lies and I believed them. I believed that things would be different the next time and they weren't. You didn't try and you pushed me away. I think I will always hate you for that and how you put my walls back up.

I just want you to be happy, even if it isn't with me. I know I could make u the happiest girl in the world if you just gave me a chance but I know you dont feel that way towards me

I would never try to change you. I've been with you when your heart has been broken and I would never do that to you.

why wasn’t i enough? all i wanted to do was make you happy. but you knew you’d leave me. you ruined me.

why does it feel like every song is about me, every word. every detail. i don’t know why i bother listening when i know its going to hurt.

I’m sorry i wasn’t good enough. i was really trying. i just wished you looked at me the same way i looked at you.

my abby. my sweet, loving abby. i wish i could be holding you right now. i promise that we will soon see each other. i miss you bubba?

You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I don’t want you to ever let go of yourself because you’re strong, beautiful and so sweet. I love you.

hey abs, i doubt you'll ever see this but i wanted to say i'm sorry for being so distant i just don't even know what i'm feeling yet and i don't want to put a burden on you. i love you and thank you for being so patient

i don’t know why but i actually miss you even though you were such a horrible person to me for years i miss you

hello. sometimes i do not know how to feel about you, well about us really. some days it is great. other days, you find yourself relapsing and heartbroken. it was two years, you had made it two years without doing it again. i want you to stop. i need you to stop. for me. please take a break. you don't have to go back to that dark place. you are okay. you look amazing and you were finally starting to love yourself again. please do not let a boy that you are still in love with stop you from that. -with a heavy heart, yourself

I think you were my lesbian awakening. But I knew from the first time I saw you that I liked you. I was way too shy to talk to you first. I hoped that one day we’d have a simple conversation. At times we did and it made me so nervous . I was always so awkward around you. I wondering if you liked girls and I wonder if you liked me maybe. Towards the end of the school year we got to know each other a little bit. I thought it might be going somewhere but when I found out you had a boyfriend it kinda shattered something in me. I’m not sure what it was but it hurt like hell. I’m not mad at all it’s just that every time I see you I smile to myself because you helped me find out something about myself that I never realized until the day I met you. Thank you for being my friend, even if it wasn’t for a long time.

Why did you have to play with my best friends feelings like that you have a bunch of other guys to ruin why him?