Unsent Messages

I think you were my lesbian awakening. But I knew from the first time I saw you that I liked you. I was way too shy to talk to you first. I hoped that one day we’d have a simple conversation. At times we did and it made me so nervous . I was always so awkward around you. I wondering if you liked girls and I wonder if you liked me maybe. Towards the end of the school year we got to know each other a little bit. I thought it might be going somewhere but when I found out you had a boyfriend it kinda shattered something in me. I’m not sure what it was but it hurt like hell. I’m not mad at all it’s just that every time I see you I smile to myself because you helped me find out something about myself that I never realized until the day I met you. Thank you for being my friend, even if it wasn’t for a long time.