you... you. you make me feel. like. pure bliss. the feeling of butterfly’s not in my stomach but in my throat. i love you so FUCKING much. and i have no idea how to tell you. i tell you i love you and you ignore it. you’re my friend. my best friend. you make my sleepiness nights worth it, i cant breathe without you. you make me want to live. you are my reason for living this long. and i, i just don’t know how to tell you. i know you don’t feel the same. it’s platonic. i wanna love you more like this. i wanna hug you. i wanna kiss you. i want to love you. but, it’s not your fault.

i promise to love you just as much in another life. i hope we meet again then. and in better circumstances.

I’m sad. I smile all the time laugh at everything and joke around all the time. I come home and cry and feel nothing. I need help from them but I can’t ask for it. I’m scared. I have no motivation and see no future. I keep going deeper in the black whole and I’m aware of it but I can’t stop my self from going deeper into the whole. I need motivation I need reasons and I need somebody to help me. There is no one and I have accepted that. I think I’m about to give up because there is no more hope.

I’m happy again. After all the pain you caused me. I’m finally happy again. I won. You can’t hurt me now.

Come with me to Ibiza, where can live all alone, just us two, we can build a family, and live life the bests way, away from the anxiety and judgement of the real world x

i miss them so freaking much man it hurts so so much, it's breaking me. i never ever thought i would be this distraught over someone ever...but here we are. hurt. again. they dragged me out of a place i wanted out of and made me so happy. but they left and found someone else so i've gotta be happy right? otherwise i'll look selfish. our love was made for movie screens i just do not understand that they said the loved me but left so easily and for what? what did i do wrong? what did i not give you that she has? i miss you so much, i wish you would come back, for me. our story does nit end like this i know it doesn't it can't. the things i would do to be still stargazing with you and talking about the moon. i didn't think i would fall for you until that laugh. your laugh. that stupid laugh, and your stupid smile bro. i knew i loved you from the second we stayed up on call till early hours of the morning talking and laughing about nothing, and when when you fell asleep on call and you told me it was because you felt safe. if i could go back in time and change things i would but i can't, sadly.
please come back i miss you,nothing will change but i love you,today, tomorrow and forever. you know when you have children and they ask you who your first love was? it's you. this is goodbye my love. in another lifetime maybe we're supposed to be, just not this one.

I wish I could remember why I loved you, and why there’s a part of me that will continue to even though everyone told me that you were a terrible person.

Telling me that you would date me if things were different gave me hope that they might be one day. Why is she the exception?

im so scared of losing you again please can you notice my pain and work hard for me since I'm working hard for you

i never told you how much you broke me. on the outside you probably saw me acting like a bitch saying i didnt care and that im fine without you which is the truth but it still would have been nice if you had ever actually cared about me. i know u said u did but the small things still stick with me because of what u said because im "not worth it "

Thank you for teaching me some people come into ur life to teach u who not to be

Thank you for teaching me when to walk away.

I LOVE YOU. I’ve always loved you since elementary. I’ve denied it as I didn’t want to hurt our friendship and didn’t think you’d ever be in to me. I wish I kissed you in that game! I wish I didn’t feel hurt from you being a jerk. Why of all people you !? You weren’t always the best you were damaged but you showed you cared for me and in those moments I wish I grabbed your face and kissed you even if I knew if we tried it wouldn’t work but I want to try! I want you to come back for some reason I don’t know why but I do . Even if you came back for friendship and I never confessed my feelings for you I’d be happy.

i wish you knew how much i care about you, even if you don’t feel the same back. it’s hard getting over you but i know it’s for the best. i’ll be okay.

i trusted you , i told you things no one had ever heard before. i allowed my walls to fall for you , i allowed you to hug me, to see me when i was vulnerable, i showed you how i felt despite how scary it was to be so open. and you made sure ill never do it again. because the way i felt in your arms the way i felt safe despite the cruel treatment i endured before. ill never feel again. ill never be able to lay in someones arms and feel like im at home. ill question their motives . ill question their intentions. ill question every word , every act , every smile , every laugh , every tear , every kiss , everything. because you showed me i was right. that people are evil and that they dont mean what they say and those tears are part of the show i didnt ask to see , instead i mistakenly stepped in the theatre when i just wanted the truth. i didnt want a show. that people can kiss you and tell you they love you whilst not caring for you. that words mean nothing , neither do actions. you broke me in so many ways and ill never forgive you for doing so. ill never forgive you because i was damaged i told u i was you knew i was. but you still proceeded to hurt me more. just for attention. so i hope you get that attention. i hope you get put in your place. i dont want you to go through the pain i went. i could never wish that upon you because no matter how many ways you broke me in the end i still love you. like the dumb b i am. i hope you never break someone like the way you broke me again

To be honest, I haven’t met you yet. But when I do, I hope your both everything and nothing I was looking for

I wish I could tell you how I feel, every night i think about you. You wouldnt understand how much I I love you.

I don't know if I love you or not right now because I don't think I believe in love at the moment ... I don't know what ever went wrong with us and we may not speak like we did ever again but when I think about you or I hear your name ... I will always get butterflies.

im slowly getting over you but its been months since and i dont think i will find another like you but it hurts to see you have moved on and dont love me now

There’s never gonna be another you. I try to act like im okay with you not being here but I’m not. It’s you. And always has been.

why are you so nice when people aren't around and then turn around and be a dick when people are around. its real fucked up man.

i’m sorry it ended the way it did. i was tired of being responsible for your happiness. i love you no matter what.

I’m so in love with you I don’t know what to think sometimes- I claim I’m not but I really really am..

It’s funny because my heart ached when I left. I felt guilty for leaving you. Loving you was all I ever knew how to do

I know I shouldn't be jealous I never even liked you but I wish I was her nonetheless the irresistible girl

You kept saying yes instead of no. Now you’re the reason why I had to force my my purple hands to let go.

its been years since we've talked. sometimes i wonder if we'd all still want to be friends if we met again.

Ur my favorite person and i rlly wouldn’t b alive without u but i don’t think i can ever tell u that because it would ruin everything❤️

i really loved the way your laugh echoed through the phone when talked for each other for hours, you were like my second home.

It’s ok to grow out of a relationship that served a different version of you but why did you have to end it like that.

you made me feel- special. i've never felt anything so deep in my entire life, but you don't seem to care. you've moved onto another person, forgetting everything we ever had. and we will never ever have it the same way.

i wish i was picking the colour of our kid’s clothes. i would have chosen red, because you loved red.

Love doesn’t come in halves it comes in waves and meteor showers. Love isn’t slow and faulty it’s forever

i hate that you were right. it does make you feel better. i'm so mad that you were right

it hurts because I know I can’t have you.

lowkey want to just be alone with you again

You promised to stay But now I only see you in my dreams..

i know u care but the intractable question remains: will i always need you more than you’ll need me?

youre everywhere. i hope we never cross paths again. i miss you. i love you.

I seem to mess up everything, I'm sorry.

im not asking for your comfort, i just want to talk to you and feel less insane.

I wish I'd never fallen in love. That really hurts.

i so miserably just wish it all back. i want you back.

i loved you but i’m so glad we broke up

Am i over you or am i j distracting myself from how i rly feel

im so sorry for what i said i shouldve waited

you don't know that I cry for you every night

I think ill always miss you. you will forever be my favorite. im sorry we dont talk.

i lose a piece of me every time I'm with you.

i bet you think about me when you’re with her.

i want everything to be the same as before

Im sorry I cant love you. Im sorry I was born like this. I swear I tried, but it only hurts.