I’m sad. I smile all the time laugh at everything and joke around all the time. I come home and cry and feel nothing. I need help from them but I can’t ask for it. I’m scared. I have no motivation and see no future. I keep going deeper in the black whole and I’m aware of it but I can’t stop my self from going deeper into the whole. I need motivation I need reasons and I need somebody to help me. There is no one and I have accepted that. I think I’m about to give up because there is no more hope.