Unsent Messages

i trusted you , i told you things no one had ever heard before. i allowed my walls to fall for you , i allowed you to hug me, to see me when i was vulnerable, i showed you how i felt despite how scary it was to be so open. and you made sure ill never do it again. because the way i felt in your arms the way i felt safe despite the cruel treatment i endured before. ill never feel again. ill never be able to lay in someones arms and feel like im at home. ill question their motives . ill question their intentions. ill question every word , every act , every smile , every laugh , every tear , every kiss , everything. because you showed me i was right. that people are evil and that they dont mean what they say and those tears are part of the show i didnt ask to see , instead i mistakenly stepped in the theatre when i just wanted the truth. i didnt want a show. that people can kiss you and tell you they love you whilst not caring for you. that words mean nothing , neither do actions. you broke me in so many ways and ill never forgive you for doing so. ill never forgive you because i was damaged i told u i was you knew i was. but you still proceeded to hurt me more. just for attention. so i hope you get that attention. i hope you get put in your place. i dont want you to go through the pain i went. i could never wish that upon you because no matter how many ways you broke me in the end i still love you. like the dumb b i am. i hope you never break someone like the way you broke me again