Unsent messages to STEPHEN

Hey I hope you’re doing well and are happy. I’m sorry things didn’t work out but you’re just honestly too good for me. I would’ve held you down and it would’ve been unfair for me to stop you from meeting your best match. Even if we would’ve dated it wouldn’t have lasted because like I said, you’re too good for me. You’re a great guy but I’m just not the one and you can say whatever you want about me but just know I did what I did because I only wanted what was best for you. I know you probably don’t and won’t understand why I never really pursued anything more than just friends with you but I mean look where that led you. You finally found “the one” I’m happy for you. I hope you don’t hate me and have moved passed this. I know we both never got the closure we needed but that’s life and sometimes the only closure we need was the one you and I went through. Thankful for everything with you.

I don't understand why you chose me out of everyone. I'm not the prettiest or the smartest, yet you want me. Letting you go is gonna hurt so bad....

You remind me of this lame loser I once knew. So bland, lacking any personality. Just being there. He didn’t fit in anywhere. He was just there with no traits to show.

Stephen I used to watch you skating and the park. We started talking and you gosted before I got to know you.

You taught me how not to be treated. You taught me that I shouldn’t tolerate the same shit you put me through. I hate you.

Hey, I doubt you'll see this but it's me, Nicole. Remember? From the pokemon servers lol. I miss you and our friendship.

I really like you. You’re a very honest and kind person, I admire you a lot. Your intelligence amazes me everyday. Your mind as well.

I cherish our friendship with everything I have.
( I also think about you when I’m uhm. Having alone time. You’re very attractive. And tall.)

I forgave you a long time ago. Tell me exactly what you want. Directly. I won't push you away, I promise.

i didn’t know you existed till i was 10. you’re a coward and i’m glad you abandoned me ,i wouldn’t want a boy like you as my father

hey bruh this is gonna sound cliche but like i’ve never felt like this with someone before. it’s liek if u weren’t in my life a part of me would feel empty. ik it’s cheesy right? u are very special to me and i’m not good at talking out loud about it so i’m typing it here by the chance u actually find this website and read this one lmao. u probably never will but ig that’s kinda the point. but anyways ur really funny. and ur very respectful when ur being serious and that’s hot. and i love joking with you and talking with you. i find myself thinking about you a lot and wanting to spend time with you a lot. i don’t really feel that with people usually because i can get annoyed with people really easily but never really you? unless ur just being a little bitch and pushing my buttons. and it really pisses me off that we’ve been talking for what like 3 ish months and u already know how to piss me off. u and ur stubborness. also ur really attractive :0. yah i thought i would let you know but don’t let that boost ur ego too much. easy to say i’m really glad that i know you stephen. ur an idiot.

i miss everything about you. i want you back more than ever but i know we are better off this way. i’ll always care forever after all

I don’t hate you, I never have and I never will, quite the opposite really. I’m sorry for the mess I made- I just needed your attention, it’s the only thing that gave me a reason to stay alive.

I hate you so much... but I keep going back to you... your like a drug to me, I quit and then when the next wave hits its stronger then the last. And in time it i know this will drive me to do things I will regret.

You showed me what it was like to be loved properly but you went and hurt me and that I will never get over but I will never stop caring for you no matter how much you broke me

look. I know that people have hurt you in your past. People have hurt me too, and you need time to get over it before you jump into something else. I don't want you to think that I am like that girl. When I love someone I love them with my whole heart and nothing less. That is what you deserve. If it's from me or another girl, I wish that you would see that I am not here to hurt you. I am here to love you unconditionally.

Life is crazy. You moved when we were young and now you're back to visit. I still find myself wishing I was yours. I always admired you and I still do. I wonder if you ever felt the same way about me. Hopefully see you soon.

you taught me what love shouldn’t be like, and i’m thankful for our experiences. you’ll always have a soft spot in my heart

you did exactly what you said you wouldn’t do... you hurt me so bad and you don’t even care. the worst part is, i still want to be your friend...

i loved you so much, i still do but i wish i didnt. it hurts without you. you told me you loved me then 2 days later ended it with me for the 2nd time, i miss you so much i know i deserve better, and you told me youre not the one for me but you are for me, i love you please come back.

why wasn’t i enough. i wish you would have just broken up with me the first time you started thinking about doing it instead of leading me on. i love you so much stephen.

you've really been testing me lately but u have been there since the beginning and our signs r compatible so i cant do anything abt it and idk how to tell u that ur jokes might be going a bit too far and u know im vvvv sensitive, maybe be a tiny bit nicer or mayb joke abt thing im not insecure abt rather than things i am....

you still pass through my mind sometimes. part of me wishes it worked but we both know it never could. hope life is good

I'm sorry I can't save you. I tried so hard. please save yourself so you can come back and be my home again.

things would’ve never worked between us and i’m happy you are with her, but damn i miss you sometimes

Hi Stephen I feel like you'll never see this so why not. I'm honestly so in love with you and it hurts how much you've changed over the past 2 years. I feel like when we first started talking it was this feeling I never felt before with any other guy and I really miss the old you. I'm still in love with you as much as before but it's so different now. After what happened w de girl I don't wanna say the name of in case of the rare occasion that she'll see this but, how could you do that to me? How could you hurt me like that after being together for so long. I know we weren't dating but a YEAR. 365+ days of being each other's first choice and only choice and you just kissed someone else after over 2 years of me being the only lips you've ever touched. you're perfect still in my eyes:/ i am so sorry we didn't end up being perfect for each other i hope you know how much i wish it worked. I love you bubs maybe later in life

You betrayed me, but what hurts the most is that I still love you. You took a piece of me when you left and I hope it stays with you forever.

i really do blame you for everything. Why did you have to make my world go so dark, i was just a child.

I really meant it when I said I love you, my Adonis. I know I’m with him now, but I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving you...

hii,
i loved the holiday with u a few years ago, last year i ruined it. and im so sorry for that. it was so fucking stupid and im sorry and that u know i still love u.

2 years. two years you led me on saying you loved me and making excuses for why you'd be in a bad mood constantly. i didnt care though because i loved you. i wish i had known that you didnt but instead you used my love for your own gain because you knew i would forgive you and i did every single time.eventhough you left without saying goodbye i still do love you for some reason and i wish you gave me a proper goodbye that i deserved. fuck you.

sometimes i catch myself thinking about you & i hate it. i know you’re not thinking about me. so many things were left in a weird place, i’m unsure about a lot. i know you said someday we would pick back up where we left off but i don’t believe you as much as i want to.

Im still in love with you but when did everything go wrong we were happy together but Im jealous that you'll find someone else special. But Im happy that we're still best friends. I love you forever...

thank you for letting me go. i would have never left you and you knew it. as much as it didn’t seem like it i know this was you showing how much you cared about me. instead of using me like you had been you finally released me. thank you. i will always love you.

I wish I could take back what I said about how I felt. Now things aren’t a gonna be the same. U are my soulmate though.

i wish you cheated. i wish i hated you. bc anything is easier than loving you while continuing to be hurt by you.

I thought we were going to be together for a long time. I can't beg for you to love me anymore. There's no more hate in my heart anymore.

I thought confessing to you about my feelings would help me move on, but I’m just more confused.

I wish we could’ve stayed friends. I’m sorry I hurt you. I’m glad you were my first.

I didn’t deserve how you treated me.

I’m already in love with you, I wish you felt the same way

i’ve forgiven you for what you never apologized for. now you have to live with yourself.

Almost ur birthday. I miss and love you so much. I wish we could celebrate together. Maybe one day.

I wish you had liked me for more than my body.

I still love you. Even after all these years apart, there isn't a day that I don't think about you

I wish I had never fallen for you...you broke me

Is she that much better?

I love you more than anything. Please don't forget me

I’m sorry… I’m just so sorry…. And here I am again speaking in notes you will not see

what did i do for you to not like me? I loved you so much, and your blue eyes like the ocean. imysm

i know it was only a month but i miss you and wish we could try again