Unsent messages to SARAH

you are so fucking two faced. you will give anything to be in that one group of friends and it makes all your other friendships miserable. all you do when we hang out is talk about how you never get invited to their group hang outs when i want the same thing just as bad as you. i know you keep mentioning me joining a group of girls bc your scared that if any more girls join that group you loose control over the boys. stop being a bitch. i cant take it anymore and i’m watching you complain about how your so lonely and the boys always like your friends and not you. you have life better than all the ppl your complaining to and it’s making all of us slowly start hating you more and more. wake up and realize how much your letting this take over your life and hurt everyone around you

i miss u I hope things get better for you and you find a space to feel comfortable and safe in. please take care of yourself.

i deserve more. i need more support. i know you mean well, but you’re not ready in the way i need you to be.

i miss you so much it physically hurts me. one of the only things keeping me from falling apart completely is knowing that once this is all over we will finally get to see each other. fuck covid

do you still think about me? do you imagine what things would have been like if we were still together? i do. every day.

i don't want this to be "right person, wrong time" because i know i'll never find someone like you again.

It hurts to know our relationship ended, but it was for the best. Hope you found the help you needed. Also dont contact me again.

you are so beautiful and i love you with all my heart (even though i'm bad at showing it sometimes), you're one of the best friends i could ask for.

lets make a frog cake some time soon

You’re cool. I wish I could’ve gotten to know you better before I left. Maybe not getting to know you will be my life’s greatest regret...

hey :) maybe youll see this someday. i havent know you for long, but these past months have been so fun. im so thankful that we can just sit in calls and have a great time. i love you so much and thank you for talking to me and keeping me company all the time. i hope we can hang some day. love you

i hope you love yourself as much as i loved you. i hope you found your happiness again. you deserve it

I want to be better for you. I want to learn more. I want to be stronger. I want to be a better me. You deserve the very best.

I love you, I am glad we are friends, but I wish I could treat you right instead of you letting everyone else break your heart.

You were the happiest person I have ever know, you shall have the most wonderful life and will bring joy to so many others

I hope u can forgive me someday. I hope this didt hurt u as much as i fear it did. I was scared and depressed

We were best of friends for such a short period of time, and it originally felt weird to be apart form you, but you were selfish. You hurt me and others around me with your unkindness, and I see your negative outlook on life and others reflected so clearly through your actions. When you asked me what went wrong I have no response truly. No big thing occurred, you just slowly but surely became the person we wouldn’t like. A mean one. I hope you are happy. I enjoy catching up with you, but you need to do some MAJOR inner self work before going into any more relationships. Friend or romantic. You are beautiful, you are smart, and I know when you are being yourself; you are kind. Please be that person again. I want to see you succeed, not be held back by you. So I’m done talking abt the situation. It’s draining. It’s over. Be yourself.

Ur everyone’s first choice. I hope you don’t take that for granted cuz it hurts everyone who is second

wish we could go back to the way things were. i feel like we're just holding on to something just cause its been so long. and i do love you. and i know you love me, its just that i wish we could love each other at the same level.

you have destroyed the person i was but i love you so much id do it ten times over just for you to call me yours again

I never told you about my feelings for you cos I was too scared to lose my best friend. But now you’re dating my friend and I have to pretend to be happy for you.

I mean like I wish I could say that I loved you but I actually actually have a hatred towards you bean

I said everything wrong but I think even if I said everything right you still would’ve found a reason to leave.

Why all the lies at the end, why all the coldness, why all the deception. All you needed to be was honest and you turned all good memories sour with how it was in the end.

I regret not taking the chance to be with you. You know what they say “you never know you love her till you let her go”

You helped me learn things about myself that i never could have imagined. you did so much for me and i am appreciative of that. Sometimes i still miss you...

I love you and it was you who made me into I am. It hurt me that you don’t like me anymore. I thought 4 years would be long enough to heal wounds from when we were 13. I miss you and wish you the best maybe one day we’ll reconnect

i literally think im in love with you but it would never work bc we're best friends and id end up ruining the friendship lol

Hey dumbass, you beautiful. You got 2 pretty galaxies. You got a contagious laugh, and you're actually really funny. but you know, at the end of the day, you're stupid, and a dumbass.

I’m honestly surprised you managed to conceive with the amount of fucking crack you smoke. Tyson huh? Pity the thing looks a like a rat

my soulmate, the iwa to my oi, the one unconsciously i said “i love you” to, yet i married daniela. i still love you, i hope you forgive me

I can’t express how much you mean to me even if where drifting apart. It’s really hurt me how we went from besties to just friend. Your probly not hurt by it because you have Chloe and Sha Sha. But I really don’t have anyone except you and I don’t want to be friends I want to be besties like we used to be . I love you so much and your the only friend I have known the longest . You know literally everything about me and I just want things to go back to the way they where like before quarantine because we where soooooo close and I miss that. I know you will never see this but that’s ok .

Don’t be too hard on yourself despite your mom’s expectations! Please always stay here. Forever. With me.

ik this is supposed to be for first loves but i wnna just let u know that i appreciate u a lot and u make me really happy. ur my best friend and i love you. platonically, of course. i shld probably get straight to the point though. i havent messaged you for a few days bc im scared. my mental state hasnt been the best these past few days and im so sorry. i know we had plans and we were going to ft together but im just scared. im sorry. im trying my hardest

we were supposed to be best friends. we were family so why did you do that? i guess family doesn't mean much to you anymore.

i loved you when you were free. now you’re a mime and you try to escape yourself. if you ever find the little girl, we can love each other again.

i wish i didnt loose you, but i did. we were bestfriends since kindergarden, but then it all happened. i miss you so much. i wish i belived you, but i know you did it. i will never forgive you, but ill always have a place in my heart for you. it was nice knowing you ig.

im sorry about how things ended, i miss everything from your dumbass snaps and i never knew how strong of a friendship could happen just because we both played roblox, im sorry for how much i hurt you and i hope you're happy now - m/jesus almighty :)

You are my first real love. you also made me realize i do like girl you made me question myself so bad. but we just aren’t right for eachother, and i should know that but yet i’m still in love with you. we fight every week and i’m on your blocked list every week. but yet i always come back you, cause you just have something special about it. i wish i could tell you this to your face but i’m scared. So Sarah, I love you, and goodnight.

you were my first crush on a girl. I was so scared and didn’t want to ruin anything between us so I kept it hidden. Maybe I regret that now because we barely even talk anymore. I get that you have other friends, friends who are probably way better than me, but just a text would be nice. I love you and I hope you’re happier now.

you don't have to lie to keep me happy. if you know you can't keep a promise just tell me. i'll appreciate it more

hi. i want to reach out. things are hard at home for me but i know they can be for you too. anyway, everything comes back to you. this is my favorite color and it also somehow reminds me of you. i know we're not really talking, but please know that forever and always i want the best for you. i hope you are in a good place. you are such a good person and you deserve the whole world. don't let anyone convince you otherwise. if they do get to you, i will be here for you -- in your corner -- anytime. you will always be the person that got to me how no one else did and i was foolish to even let you believe you could ever be too much. i was scared to put in effort because i felt so much for you. still do. all in all, you called me your best friend in a letter and that's all i ever want to be now even though it's gone. i miss you.

Realmente odio no haberte dicho cuanto te quería a tiempo, solo te dejé ir por mi estupido coraje, te extraño y todavía te espero aunque ya sea tarde.

I can't believe what you've done to me. You destroyed me completely. I hate you for what you have done to me.

you were the first girl I ever loved and I didn't even know it atm - looking back I know what I felt for you wasn't just friendship

Idk if we can really stay friends after this summer. I don’t think I ever saw you as just a friend but more a potential love, and that fact is making it impossible for me to be your friend after what happened between us. The situation with our mutual friends however is keeping me from blocking you from my life entirely.

i really hope we can catch up some time as long as my feelings have faded. so much has happened that i want to tell you about

I know it ended messy and not how it should have. we were young and messy. I wasn't too sure about anything mostly myself. In a way I wish it never happened and we were still friends. But it also changed who I am I'm grateful for that. I hope someday we can dance together again and nothings gets weird between us. Theres always something unsaid between us or maybe thats just on my part but you still mean so much to me. When I roam the city streets I still look out for you hoping we will accidentally bump into each other. Maybe we will in a few years go for a walk along the hillside with a broken bottle of wine gaze at the stars and I'll tell you how much you mean to me.

it was the first time i felt happy in a long time, but i was scared. though there are many forms of first love i found innocent love with you, wanting to hold you in my arms while we talked away our problems and found happiness. though we aren't close anymore, i genuinely wish you'll find the very happiness you and i searched for so many years ago. i love you.

It was cool while it lasted, but it’s over now and I have come to accept that. It’s going to take some time for me to act normal around you again because it’s hard for me to not dislike the situation which registers as disliking you in my mind right now

I constantly wonder if things would’ve been different if I’d taken my chance. Now you’re his, but you never leave my mind.