Unsent messages to SARAH

Sometimes I can still feel your face in my hands like it was that night.. I should have kissed you. Now I’ll never get the chance.

please stop hurting me when all I’m trying to do is love you. I didn’t expect there to be this many bad days and I’m holding on to you by a thread that you’re pulling loose.

I hope you're still alive. I unadded you because you gave up on me. Quite frankly, I gave up on you as well.

whenever u blocked me, after everything. it felt like everything i did was wrong. like, it was all my fault.

I hate myself for ignoring you every time I walk past you. We were so close Sarah. We could talk about everything and anything. You never judged me and I’m so sorry for not being there for you like you were for me

sarah i know u fight every day to keep ur feelings buried, but when u finally decide to let them out just know i am here for u. he loved u so much and would only want u to be happy.

I wish you would be able to open up to someone one day because clearly it's not me and I can't handle the pain and the feeling you always give me, you weren't there when I needed you the most and leave me on read. While I always say it's okay and take your time I'm always here but it's not true, because you don't do the same for me and I just can't anymore. I thought you would care, thought you will be the reason to live on, but I just can't anymore. I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself.

i love you so much, i know you’re having a hard time right now but i love you so so much you’re so gorgeous and funny i wish i could hug you rn

even though i’m not ready to say it, i honestly think i’m in love with you. i’ve never been in love with someone before, and i’m glad ur my first :)

I know you miss who you used to be back then, but maybe you’re holding onto that version of you a little too tightly. You’re letting 2019 define you and nothing else. You’re picking apart the past and replaying it over and over again. You’re being really hard on yourself. And I just wanted to let you know that it’s okay if things are different. It okay if you’re different. I think we can both agree that change is good. It allows room for growth. It’s okay to not be as good as you think you should be. It’s okay to grow apart from friends who used to be your everything. It’s okay to be sad. I love you even if you don’t love yourself.

i never thought i would meet someone as amazing as you. i'll always love your unapologetic honesty and your never ending loyalty. i love you.

Why didnt u fight harder to help me, u were my best-friend and got a bf and just gave up on me..I wouldn’t give up on u, ever and even tho u r still my bestfriend in my heart I will never rely on u like I used to ever.

Everytime I see you i feel happy but yet your out of my league but I can't help want to be with you it hurts me so much that I can't be with you

i miss you. i just want to be in 1st period science, pretending like we knew what we were doing and laughing about some stupid meme.

Maybe in another life I would have had told you how I felt and we could have been so happy together. But it’s too late now.

I can’t live without you in my life. I just want things to be back to normal. I haven’t been happy since we split

Thank you for loving me when i can’t love myself, you bring so much happiness into my life, i’m glad i get to wait up to your face for the rest of my life, you’re my yellow?

I mainly fell hard because I wanted to love myself the way you loved yourself. Now I do. Thanks for showing me.

sarah you are an amazing person
I know that things in your life are not going well, that you are probably going badly at certain times but despite that you continue again and again to make others smile and to make them happy
I love you with all my heart and even if you don't feel the same love, it doesn't matter? as long as I manage to make you happy or that you just are

I dont know why everyone hates me so much. It's so tiring being the one who everyone makes shit up about.

This isn't even going to you but I've typed this and deleted it so many times. I really wish things had worked out between us. I honestly have no intention of telling you but I don't think you'll ever know how much you meant to me. I feel like no matter what you'll always be someone special to me, and I honestly just wish I didn't have to feel that alone.

You were my best friends, I'm sorry I let you go. Truth is, I want our friendship back. I miss having a best friend. I miss having someone to tell absolutely everything to. I'm sorry.

hey, i hope your having a goodnight. I know well never be what I hope we could be cuz your scared of losing me. but I still love you

the only thing keeping me from texting u is just me reading our old texts over n over again, treating them as if it were in the moment.

You dont realize how much I need you to stay here with me. I dont know what I would do if you decided to leave us all. I would come with you.

this is a love letter to myself. you finally cut out all the shitty things in ur life !! make sure it stays that way ! you finally found your people and your past self really hopes you don't screw it up.

i went to a party where seven people were sitting around and when asked to raise their hand if u had hurt them, they all did

I don't understand why you did that. Everything was fine. I know we probably wont keep in touch. And thats fine with me.

I wish I could still see you running into my room with your arms wide, so that you could fall asleep in mine.

it’s been two months since we stopped being friends but i still cry about u and how great a friend u were i cry bc i miss u and i know i won’t ever find anyone as good as u i read ur letter and it makes me cry i miss u still and i’m sorry

I wish you would call your own shots. Settling for less is not compromise. Things could be so different.

i miss you so much, just know that if i ever dont make it, you've kept me here longer than i planned to stay

I like you so much that I look for you in everyone. Ik it's unhealthy but what can I do I'm so into u. Hope u find the happiness u deserve ilysm. bb.

I'm not sorry for not talking to you. You emberassed me and lied to me. I'm so sick of you betraying me over and over again.

we don't need to use fake names anymore. i want the whole world to know. nothing matters, but you do. i am in love with you.

You are literally one of the most beautiful girls in the world. I haven't seen you in awhile but I saw a recent picture of you today. You are so beautiful. I feel like I've ruined a lot of things. I wish we would've stayed friends but I also don't think I could've because I was in love with you. I say that I'm in love with people alot but I think I was genuinely in love with you and I fucked it up. I'm sorry.

We were bestfriend's but I thought of us as more until you admitted you had feelings for someone else. I was immediately heartbroken and never thought of us as anything more.

you broke my heart just like it said you would, but in a way where you broke my trust. i want to talk to you more and help you but ur so lost and just keep hurting me.

I know we're best friends but I caught feelings for u and I'm not going to tell you I don't want to ruin our relation

I need you to let me go. I want nothing more than to be your gf but if you can't even give up a little bit of your time to me then there is no way this can work. You know exactly how I feel about things and I have never been dishonest, I'm not sure I can say the same for you. I hate the way you've stolen my favorite songs and how I can't look into blue eyes without thinking of you. please make up your mind and be 100% with me or not. I can't keep doing this anymore.

Your the most amazing and beautiful person I’ve ever met. I just cant love you like you love me. I’m sorry. I’m so so sorry

i knew i cared for you at carowinds when i woke up with my head in your lap and your hands in my hair

i don’t think you’ll ever understand the feelings i have for you. but i’m happy just being friends, if that’s what you want.

i don’t think you’ll ever understand the feelings i have for you. but i’m happy just being friends, if that’s what you want.

Do you ever think about all the things you did to me? All the ways you hurt me? After all these years...do you feel bad?

Do you ever think about all the things you did to me? All the ways you hurt me? After all these years...do you feel bad?

Do you ever think about all the things you did to me? All the ways you hurt me? After all these years...do you feel bad?

why did u leave me? i trusted u, i cared about u... i still do. just please come back to me i miss u...so much

I was supposed to be getting over you, but you keep getting in the way. idk how to love anyone but you. I want all of you or none of you.

I met you in fall of last year and fell in love and it felt like all the stars in my universe had aligned and then unfortunately unaligned for reasons that i was never told. I still think of you every time the crisp air hits my face. this is all irrelevant because you’ll never see this but yea i still think about you.