Unsent messages to PATRICK

actions speak louder than words... you thought i was gay turned out to be the damn opposite lol n e ways ur a king get it with eric

dude i love you so much it hurts why did you text me again all you want is sex, i want a relationship man :(

I think you're my first love but Im not yours. All those years have passed and we never got together. Now we never will. Eu te amo man

I can't believe you gave me the lousiest goodbye hug in the world. I love you and now i might never see you again.

I knew you were going through too much but I can't help but wish you stuck around. I'm getting that tattoo for you really soon man. I love you.

i know how scared you are of love and commitment. if you just gave us another try, i’ll do my all to show you how you make me feel. i miss you so much.

i have so much to say to you but i can never put the words together to make it make sense. i'm sorry i wasn't everything you've ever wanted.

lamento no haberte sabido cuidar, pero te juro que desde que nos conocimos he querido cuidarte y llenarte de amor. sé feliz solecito ♡

I really wish that for once you would chose me over getting high. But i was never that important for you.

it’s been almost a year since you left. never thought it would end the way it did. i miss you everyday and night. i’m just like you now, get people attached and leave them. idk how to love anymore. wtf happened to you, who hurt you? i’ve had my fair share of shit but cmon man that fucking hurt. you completely destroyed me and my perception of love. but i’d still take a bullet you, i pray for you every night cuz even if you won’t talk to me, i still care about you and your family. i want you happy even if it’s not with me. i’d still wait for you, just a second chance would mean the world to me. i miss you so fucking much, please just give me something.

I really need to stop writing these but there’s always the smallest chance that you read them and think it could possibly be from me. It’s been just over a year and I still love you just as much as the day you broke my heart.

it’s been five months and i have never been happier. i’m sorry for not taking you seriously for that short period of time but i hope you know i want to be the best for you now.

I will always love you. You are my other half, my soul mate, my bestfriend. I wish we could have saved us

There’s this one submission on my name and i kid myself that it’s from you. It says you love and miss me, I couldn’t feel more the same.

We have always been so close, and so have our families, but the second you got a girlfriend I backed off. Nearly two years later you were still dating the same girl. What you didn't know was that she was cheating on you and always telling me about it. When I told you what she had told me, you called me a liar and told me to stay away from you, so I did. You guys dated for 2 more months after that and broke up. When you broke up you came to me. The hardest thing I have ever done was stay away from you, but that's what you wanted. You hurt me and I can't forget about that. I have always loved you and I always will but I will never go back. Thanks for all the memories...

Part of me thinks we'll always love each other a little bit. God, I wish you'd speak to me in the hallways again. I hope she makes you so so happy.

I love you so much more than you know and I cant tell you because I dont know if you trust me and im scared of getting rejected because you mean to much to me

I love you so much more than you know and I cant tell you because I dont know if you trust me and im scared of getting rejected because you mean to much to me

I love you so much more than you know and I cant tell you because I dont know if you trust me and im scared of getting rejected because you mean to much to me

throw calls of guilty out to the tree branches that graze my bloodied knees. dig your fingers into plaster cast to dance them over bruised skin. pack the dirt over my grave and wail in agony, for you can still hear me screaming. shovel snow down my throat and curse the forecast.

throw calls of guilty out to the tree branches that graze my bloodied knees. dig your fingers into plaster cast to dance them over bruised skin. pack the dirt over my grave and wail in agony, for you can still hear me screaming. shovel snow down my throat and curse the forecast.

You hurt me! You seem to think that it's okay to come in and out of my life whenever it's convenient for you and fuck me up all over again. I'm cutting you off because you are no longer entitled to me and my peace. Fuck you.

I wish I never let you into my life. I let my guard down and you broke me. You lied and took me for granted. Leave me alone.

You lied to me so many times and made me feel so unworthy and I was still there when you needed me.. Now you're happy with another and I'm so fucking lonely.

you pretended I didn't exist around our friends and suddenly text me almost a year later like nothing happened

Maybe I really do like u or I liked the feeling of being liked idk exactly but yeah it hurts to hear you speaking of another girl, it hurts to know that all the time u asked be about my opinion u just wanted to be good enough for your crush ..I hate it to be maya I never gonna be ur riley and that's ok. She is heather, she deserve it.. u r a great guy ..really but apparently u r not my guy and I really want to be ur friend, I want to be there for u but the thought of u thinking about her hurts ..everything just hurts and I am feeling like a fool, all the time I thought u wanted something from me ..guess what I really thought u meant me when u said u like a girl but no u didnt and u never did ..I cant be near u anymore and I hope u understand that ..I am never gonna send u this paragraph but I want u to know that u are the first guy I liked or I guess I like u at least i am crying rn

I hope life gets the way u want it and I hope u get everything u desire

Have a good life
I wish u the best

You mean a lot to me, I just wish you felt the same. You probably don't even think about me as much as I think about you

you made me so happy, feel so special and i was finally coming out of a dark place that took a long time to recover from until you said that

I have wanted you since the day we met. And I have lied to myself every day since. I wonder if you ever noticed.

I'm confused about my feelings for you, I don't know what you want. I don't even know what I want but I don't wanna ever lose you, I think about it daily and it scares me so much.

i just wanted to be good enough for you. please get out of my head. i wish i never met you because it hurts.

I know were 'just friends' but the 1 am facetime calls and the smiles you give me, tell me different.

Fuck you. Wish I never met you. Just because your mom left you, you just had to give every girl all the reasons to leave you. You were the biggest waste of time and a total deadbeat. Instead of making girls wanna kill themselves, you should just do them a favor and kill yourself instead. Or at least see a psychiatrist you fucking sociopath. Also wished I had put you in jail when I had my chance.

I hate you. You used me as a rebound. You knew you were still in love with your ex the whole time. You're horrible.

Thank you so much for showing me what true love is. Before you I thought it was pain, arguments, and hard to love. Now I know that love is easy when it is true. It feels like the missing piece of my puzzle. You make me happier than anyone has ever done so in their life.

why did it have to be like this. i tried to be good, i tried to make stuff work out, i swear. i’m still trying, you just won’t let me. i wish i knew the secret to you, man. let me in. pls.

why don't you talk to or even look at me anymore? i thought you said we would be best friends no matter what happened.

even though we never met i truly did love you and believed you when you said we were soulmates. i miss you but i don’t want you back. I want to move on. m

you called me strong for getting over all the stuff i was put through. then, just when i thought i could rest i had to get over you.

every day I wish that I could've built up enough courage to tell you the truth, I wish you didn't act completely different when you were with your friends and I wish that you would've held my hand a little longer sometimes

It’s crazy how I always used to moan about you waking me up in the middle of the night with cuddles and now I’d give anything to have that back

Sometimes I get mad at fate for giving us that many reasons not to be together. Because 3 years later and I still choose you.

I keep finding reasons to hate you. you hurt me, but it was my fault because i wasnt ready. its horrible when your with the right person at the wrong time. but I ask myself if it was a forever thing or were we just 2 puzzle pieces from different puzzles.

Thx sm for ghosting me. Since u wanna be treated like the dead so bad, maybe it’s time for me to let u rest.

sometimes I think I wasn't enough other times I think I didn't do enough but really it was you who wasn't enough

You bet that you could get me to fall in love with you and I told you it would never happen. Now I'm in hooked on the memory of you and you're in love with someone else.