Unsent messages to PATRICK

u were amazing and sweet.i thought u were the one but i guess i was wrong. u hurt me like no boy has ever hurted me before. u ask me to forgive u and i will. but i will never forget u calling me a bitch even though u say it was an accident it's your mouth.be more careful with it. the amount of times i wanted to yell at ur face and slap u was a lot of times especially when talking about other girls in general and sexually. yk how much i hated that. in conclusion, you hurt me, you broke me, so you lost me. I sincerely hope you find the one in the future, and hope you have a good life. just be careful with your mouth and what you say. just learn from ur mistakes. xoxo

Everything that I do reminds me of you. I cannot eat, sleep, or enjoy things that I once did. I loved you so much that I stopped loving myself.

I wish I had let us happen instead of running away. Now you’re with her, and you look happy. I’m happy for you... But somewhere in my heart I wish it was me.

I really saw the best in you. I know at first we didn’t get along well, but now all i can wish for is us to be a thing.

our love was so intense & so fast. I think I’ll always love you even if it ended the way it did. I think this is cringe btw.

this doesn’t make sense because in my mind when u truly love someone u don’t put urself in a position to lose them. but that’s exactly what u did.

I have loved you for all my teenage years and I might forever. I wish you’d see me the way I’ve always seen you

You only used me for nudes then told me it wasn’t working out with us because I started to refuse to send you any, the thing is I liked you and you took advantage of that I trusted you

i told you about how everyone eventually has left me, and you said that you would stay.
where did you go?

For 8 years you've haunted my mind, always coming back in my dreams. Even though we were never officially anything, I still continue to have a lot of love for you.

I hope you had a good Christmas, I know your sister couldn’t be there and that must’ve sucked but I hope you spent the day with your mum. I was actually looking forward to seeing your sisters annual family Christmas selfie, I wish that you posted more

You’ll never see this. I debated putting your last initial... I didn’t. I love you so much. It hurts. You’ll never feel the same, nor will you ever know I do love you. That’s okay. If being friends with you means not having you, I’m okay with that. I love you.

You're one of the first online friends that I ever had. Thank you for being there. I did like you for a short time but it wasn't real love. Thanks for teaching me the lessons you did. Hope you have a great life :)

Is it fucked up that I’m literally not over you in the slightest? Like I’m fully out here thinking we’re soulmates man

I wish i could have been better for you so you wouldn’t have left me alone. I can’t stop thinking about you.

Your words alone didn't break me. The fact that they were coming from you did. I lost myself for a second there but I'm so glad I found myself again with out you. Screw you, genuinely.

If you stayed with me, you wouldn't have ended up homeless, but your stubbornness got the best of you.

You can't break up with me and then turn around and tell people you miss me.. I was the one trying to keep us together. Hope you're okay.

You’re my “right person, wrong time” love. I just wish you didn’t let distance keep us apart, I wish you would give us a chance

You liked me first and when I started to feel the same u played me ..I hate u for that ..I hate u for being my first love.

How could you be so fucking rude and hurt me after you were the one who wanted me in the first place?

i’m not sure what i did wrong, but i hope you're happy and i’ll always hope you’re happy. the thought of you still comforts me when i can’t sleep, even though it seems you don’t care anymore. i miss you.

I wish things had a different outcome between us, i gave u my everything and it’s gonna be hard replacing the feeling i got with you.

It’s been almost 2 months, and I know that night meant nothing to you but it meant a great deal to me and you know it did. I just can’t seem to let it go, it was only a kiss but it meant so much because I like you and you know that, but you don’t like me like that and that hurts more than anything. I haven’t felt this way for anyone before. You put me in the friendzone, and there isn’t anything I can do to change that, I can’t change the way you feel. I just wanted to let you know you were the first person I’ve ever felt genuine love for, I’ll never forget that night.
Izzy

your the best thing that happen to me. i will never give up on us. your like my best friend and more. i always have a amazing time with you

As much as I loved you I couldn't hold on to someone who picks and chooses when they want to be in my life. I wish nothing but the best for ya

hey baby. i miss you. all i can do is think about you. bc i cant talk to you i made a google doc and have been pretending i’m saying everything to you. it’s really hard. i don’t want to move on. i miss you.

It’s nearly your birthday, I still have the present I got you last year. I bought it months early, I didn’t realise you were going to break my heart

Im falling in love with you and it isn't elegant or beautiful like the movies. its a messy swirling scary shit storm. but I don't want to lose you in it

Just thinking about you makes my heart happy. You are so cute and amazing. I love everything about you. Especially your smile and your laugh. I could listen to you talk forever.

i wasn’t heartless when we met but i am now. i wish to see you but i know i would be the cruel one this time.

i will always care for you. i wish your car would break down again. i wish i could see you. i’m sorry.

I’m in a 3 year relationship now but I still think of you often. We never dated but I was so emotionally connected to your soul. I wonder what could have been.

I love you so much and there’s no way you will ever know or ever love me back. I wish you knew how I felt.

I hope you regret it. I hope she makes you miserable. Guess I’m never hearing from you again, that’s completely okay with me. I deserved better.

I wish you had found another way. You deserved to live and be happy. I'm sorry you could never find that.

you’re such a supportive friend but sometimes you go way too far to the point i break down. idk how to tell you i wish you gave me more space and weren’t so mad about the person i’m talking to

i loved you with everything i had. you were my home, and i don't know how to exist without you. did you ever feel like that about me? or was i always just a burden? i know this is going to hurt me for a very long time, but i think i'll be ok. i hope you will be too. i still love you. i hope that will fade.

I really like you. I keep getting signs to express my feelings, but I can't text you about how I feel, because you are so fucking confusing. you tell my friends you like me and it seems like you're putting in effort, but then the next second its back to being on delivered and half ass stuff. I just need to know if this is going anywhere so I can know to not give up, because I'm really close to it. part of me is hoping you don't see this because of how open I'm being, but at the same time I need you to know how I feel. Please, just let me know.

i hate that i don’t love him as much as i loved you. you’re a shitty person who didn’t deserve the love i so badly wanted to give to you.

i’m over you but every now and the i come on here and search my name in hope that there would be a message from you.i doubt you even know this exists.

you aren't my first love but i honestly feel like we were in a "right person, wrong time" situation. we liked each other but our timing was so off. and now we both moved on with our feelings but i still have so much love and care for you and i hope you are happy with whatever you have and i'll be happy in mine.

your the first person I could make eye contact with and not feel uncomfortable. the things I said to you drunk I meant, I meant everything. Im sorry im not it.

i havent talked to u in ages but i just wanted to say, i hope ur doing well and damn i was such a creep back then when i liked u

i’m in love with you. i’ve been in love with you.. for years and years. i always will be. but you don’t see me.

i’m in love with you. i’ve been in love with you.. for years and years. i always will be. but you don’t see me.

Bruh. She cared about you so much. She’s the sweetest/most angelic person I know and you let her go? I’m sorry, but you’re going to regret that. She’s the type of girl you’ll think back on when you’re alone, wondering what could’ve happened if you didn’t take her for granted. Text her dude smh.

Sometimes I wonder if I was truly in love with you, or if I was in love with the familiarity you brought me.

I think I’m in love with you. Even though I can’t admit it to myself, I’m in love with you. I don’t know if you feel the same way, but I don’t care.

i have never wanted to kiss a human being so badly. you've taken over my life, from the way you say my name to the way your head rests in your hands. i love u i love u i love u