Unsent messages to OLLIE
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: August 10, 2023, 4:21 am UTC
hi i’m four days sober off of everything!!!
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: August 6, 2023, 4:01 pm UTC
you feel like a hug from earth. did you know that?
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: July 19, 2023, 4:56 pm UTC
yk i still do love u, dont think i could ever stop
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: July 16, 2023, 9:45 pm UTC
i just wish you could feel what you say
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: July 16, 2023, 4:48 am UTC
i will never regret the look i gave you on prom night.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: July 16, 2023, 2:22 am UTC
i will never love anyone like i loved you
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: July 14, 2023, 8:06 pm UTC
It's been a year and I still feel the same.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 18, 2021, 8:59 pm UTC
god i hate that i still think about you, i don't want to because i know you won't be thinking about me but, i want you to be
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 18, 2021, 8:54 pm UTC
to say i don't miss you would be a lie. i see you playing csgo and i think, hmmm, get off fucking csgo and talk to me.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 16, 2021, 5:31 am UTC
Feels good seeing you with new people, kinda wish it was me thought. I wonder if any song reminds you of me, i sometimes listen to the songs u dedicated me, it feels good, fuzzy inside. I will forever be grateful for falling in love with you, i have never felt like that for someone else since, although thats not because of you or trauma, I've just never been into people like that
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 16, 2021, 5:19 am UTC
I sometimes think about what could've been of us if we hadn't been separated. It's nice to see your birthday messages. I wish i could know how you felt and how you feel now
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 9, 2021, 7:09 pm UTC
I’ve not felt anything for anyone since you. All I want is for you to be happy. I keep thinking how things could’ve been different for us.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 8, 2021, 2:12 pm UTC
my handsome boy. that night, it was easier to sleep knowing you were gone, than all the restless nights trying to keep you from leaving. i'll love you forever and ever and ever.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 7, 2021, 6:29 am UTC
I know I got annoying at the end and I’m sorry about that. I hope you’re doing well right now and wish you the best. Thank you for everything. You were a great friend
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 7, 2021, 3:11 am UTC
you were the first i ever loved, but i know you didn’t love me back through any of it, and it’s okay now. I’m not hurt anymore, you can’t hurt me anymore
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 7, 2021, 1:26 am UTC
the best 2 months of my life were spent with you and you just left me.i hate what you did to me but i miss you
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 6, 2021, 12:09 am UTC
Absolutely no one compares to you. At this stage I can't even remember why I liked you so much but I did and I can't ignore it. Hopefully I'll see you again, and not just in passing. Hopefully you feel the same way.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 4, 2021, 11:51 pm UTC
I would be ok, but I can’t help thinking about how you never knew who I really was. That’s on me and my own demons. I wanted to pull you out but I guess I’m not the one to do that for you. I really hope you find it.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 3, 2021, 12:25 am UTC
How could you kiss me multiple times and then say you want to take things slower...I just wish you wanted me the way I wanted you
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 2, 2021, 9:23 pm UTC
i wish we could talk about how much we hurt each other, how toxic we were for each other. you nearly killed me and i was too focused on keeping myself together that i didn't realise how to keep you together too. i will never forgive you for what you did to me but i loved you, more than i knew how to. im sorry
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 2, 2021, 11:30 am UTC
It’s been so long and it didn’t even matter but I can’t help but smile whenever you come across my mind.
been that way since
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 2, 2021, 6:50 am UTC
I miss the old you. The guy that would pull my hair and hide my pencils because you liked me, not the guy that ignores the word “no”.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 1, 2021, 4:30 pm UTC
Hi Ollie,
I doubt you'll ever see this, but it I wanted to say this when I was too afraid to tell you. I'm sorry I pushed you away, I push everyone away. I don't know how to reconsile good people with myself. You are such a beacon of light and goodness. You where always so caring and kind, i don't want to darken that. I'm scared that just knowing me will hold you back. I still care for you, so much. I kept those boots.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 1, 2021, 4:29 pm UTC
hey u will never see this but ur the first person i ever loved and yes u did fuck up my mental state but i do this think that i love u even if i say that i'm over u
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: January 1, 2021, 1:54 pm UTC
i love you. i really do. i know you probably don’t feel the same way. but you truly are my favorite person. you have no idea what kind of impact you’ve had on my life. you’re always there for me,, and you make me feel wanted. i’m so glad i was able to meet you all those months ago. thank you for everything, man.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 25, 2020, 11:31 pm UTC
dear sweetie
I hope you are happy and safe right now... I don't want to lose you, I'm always there for you! ALWAYS!
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 23, 2020, 7:17 pm UTC
even though im dating someone else my heart shattered when you said you were texting your fave person because i always thought it was me. Guess i was wrong
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 23, 2020, 6:52 pm UTC
I loved you so much that it hurt, but it hurt even more that you were fine being strangers once again.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 22, 2020, 6:49 am UTC
I’m so sorry I wasn’t mature enough to realise you could’ve been the best thing for me. I wish I had’ve handled things differently.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 22, 2020, 3:04 am UTC
you’ve made me feel something that i’ve never felt before, both good and bad. it was hard at first- none of us knew what we got ourselves into, how to act or what to look out for but i’m glad that we’ve over come out problems and are stronger now, the love is real and i cant thank you enough for everything you’ve done for me recently. i love you oliver
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 21, 2020, 10:54 pm UTC
I was so madly in love with you, and you used it to your advantage. I still think of the days in the forest.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 17, 2020, 3:39 am UTC
please dont leave me. i still want you. i still need you. i know im a liability but that doesnt change im in love with you
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 17, 2020, 3:38 am UTC
i would do anything to be able to love you openly. to hold your hand, and kiss you, and rub your back when youre sad
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 17, 2020, 3:37 am UTC
im still in love with you. crazy right ? but i sit across from you every day and wonder how i let you go so easy.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 15, 2020, 11:13 pm UTC
do you believe in the universe? i'm constantly seeing things that remind me of you, whether i want to or not. i know it's been a few years and we've both changed, but i still want you. i want to be the girl you facetime, call, text, play video games with - whatever it may be. i just want to be yours. i never got any closure with knowing if you liked me back, but i felt like you did. you used to compliment me and laugh with me, was i just a person you sat next to in class? who you only spoke to because you were stuck there? you made me look forward to every day. i messaged you last year, you could not have had drier responses. do you just want to forget about me? we saw each other in august, briefly across the street. i heard a loud sigh and we locked eyes for barely even a second. i don't think you looked back. was i not worth a wave? or a hi?
i'm sorry for still not being over you, i don't know if i ever will be. every time i check my story you're always the first or second viewer; it gives me a glimmer of hope that you still remember me. you don't follow many of the people we went to school with, even some of the ones you're friends with now - why? you still follow me despite us going our separate ways. i don't know if i ever want you to see what i've written. i just wish you'd either message me again or just block me altogether. i just wanna know if this feeling goes both ways. i doubt you'll see this and i highly doubt you'll know it's me. i can't get you out of my mind.
i can't move on, not until i know for sure what you feel.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 14, 2020, 10:34 pm UTC
i like you, i know youve been through bad reltionships, but i want to be the girl who shows you that this is what a real, loving relationship is. where im here to support, comfort, and make you heppy. you mean so much to me, and i dont think i will ever tell you. i want to tell you how beautiful you are and how amazing you are, and how you push me to be a better person. i think of you all the time.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 14, 2020, 8:56 pm UTC
Why did you have to do it? I trusted you, how am I suppose to move on and accept it when I can’t remember what happened?
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 14, 2020, 1:36 pm UTC
That 3 second text from you is all it takes to make me smile even though I barely get one conversation a day.
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 13, 2020, 3:05 am UTC
was i ever enough? did you ever really love me? sometimes i feel like im wasting my time on a fantasy that will never be..
From: ABC
To: ollie
Date: December 12, 2020, 7:37 pm UTC
I don't think I will ever be able to rationalise how much I liked you
. . . you never felt the same :(
