Unsent messages to MICHELLE

give me a sign

does he make you happier than i ever did?

talk to me please, you know we’re meant to be

You're hurting me and you don't even care. Leave me alone.

To this day I regret what I did, I’ll always love you dearly.

i miss you and everything we used to do together

I'll be back soon, wait for me.

do u ever think of me and how much u hurt me?

you make me want to live again, thank you

I just want to be good friends.

I love you Michelle my belle, I’ll wait forever for you. <3

we have to meet more wtf

i miss my sweet michelle

I took you for granted. Thank you for everything you did for me. Maybe if things were a little different we could still be happy together.

I wish you knew how I felt about you but I’m worried you’d never feel the same. I’ll always be there for you though.

heyy, do you remember me? i lent you my hair-tie at the gym and i can't stop thinking about you, so it would be great if we could hang out sometime..

Me enamore de muchos antes, pero tú fuiste especial, no te amé, tu me amaste a mí, lamento si te lastime, pero tú me lastimaste primero. Vive una vida feliz

To my best friend and love of my life, I love you and always will but I'm afraid that our friendship together is slowly dying and we are simply moving on in life. Whatever may happen I will always think of you.

I’M SO FUCKING ANGRY AT YOUR LACK OF CARE- YOU REALLY JUST LEFT ME LIKE THAT AFTER USING ME? FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU, I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU I HATE YOU, YOUR THE REASON I'M SO FUCKING MENTAL BECAUSE YOU POKED ME AND POKED ME UNTIL I BROKE DOWN

i gave you so many chances. you left me when i befriended you, you came back to me when you were going through something, so i helped. then you left me again and got everyone to hate me. i just want to know why.

Emm, no sé que decir, ya lo deberías de saber ¿No? Sinceramente no creo que sientas lo mismo que yo y si alguna vez lo llegaste a sentir pues creo que llegó el momento al que más miedo le tenía, el día en el que dejaras de sentir algo por mi, si es que lo llegaste a sentir, ahora estoy aquí escribiendo esto porque no tengo el valor suficiente para decírtelo en nuestro chat, sinceramente quisiera y deseo que sientas lo que yo siento por ti, no quiero que solo me veas como un amigo más, quiero que me veas como la persona que te escribe poemas a las media noche, la persona que te dedico hasta una playlist quiero ser más que tu amigo, y lo sabes, llevo 5 años sintiendo lo mismo, 5 años desde el día en el que te conocí, enamorándome de ti día a día, espero y esto nunca lo veas o leas porque la verdad que vergüenza que leas eso :(

We're not over but I know it's inevitable, after all we're just 15. I don't know how we'll end but I really hope I don't fuck this one up. I really do love you. And I miss you.

you hurt me so deeply and walking away from you will be the most freeing thing I've ever done but I think ill always love you

i think a part of me will always be in love with you. right now, i can't tell if i'm okay with it or if it's completely shattering me.

mom, i think im moving on from wishing you were there for me and and asking why you left and never called. im 18 now, i wish you could see how im turning out. i dont want you to come back anymore. i forgive you, for everything, and i dont need your explanations. i am content, and i feel free. i hope youre okay, and my brother is too. love, evan

I wish we had the friendship we used to have growing up. I miss your presence. You moved on. I didn't.

i feel like ud def go on this website so im not including ur full name. also i chose this color bc its close to black and black is the end of our friendship. get it? anyways, lets start this. yesterday, i went thru my photos and found this video of us from around summer. it was when we first started hanging out w virag. remember that? u were wearing ur moms pants and i was wearing those camo pants that i cut up for...some reason. i ripped them doing the wap dance and we both started laughing. that day, we also played basketball w our shoes, and my shoes got creased. we prolly went to the market that day, but idk what we ordered. when i found that vid, i edited a bunch of photos from it. u looked rly happy, and so did i. my point is, i miss when we were like that. i hate how we r moving further and further apart. i dont wanna write a whole essay, bc words couldn't even describe how i feel about u. no im not gay, i dont like u like that, but i mean it when i say that i love you. dont ever forget about me. i hope we can always be best friends.

Siempre estarás en mi mente y corazón, eres una de las mejores personas qué alguien puede tener en sus vidas, créeme, cualquier persona que esté en ella es la más afortunada y me siento agradecida con la vida por al menos haber formado parte de ella en su momento, eres un ángel, una persona grandiosa y personas como tú ya casi no hay, te quiero mucho, sé que podrás llegar muy lejos y hacer cosas grandiosas y maravillosas

i wanna give u another chance and have what it was like before but i can’t bring myself to text i back

one of my favorites. you keep me grounded, and no matter your weirdness and my embarrassment, i'm truly lucky to have someone like you.

Hi. I know you don't care about me. But I care. I still keep asking about how you feel. I still like you.
I still care about you. You are like my sister. You remind me of rainbow, warm, summer night, some candles, smell after raining. You are my hope. You were amazing person. You really cared. Now you don't even ask how I feel. You just using me for grades or something else. I think about you all the time. I want to hug you. All I want to met you. Go for a long walk when it's dark I want to tell you about myself about how I was struggling as a child. I want to know YOU. I love you like my family. But you don't care...

I don't know if I ever loved you. I love the feeling and being wanted but these days I just don't feel anything anymore. I'm sorry I'm lying to you, but I can't quit us I don't know if you were able to handle it. You don't deserve the pain

I have decided ... thank you for always being with me ... but today I will kill myself ... I love you and I always did

you’re my best friend and i don’t have the guts to actually say this to you yet, but i’m pretty sure i’m in love with you.

i picked this color for you because at a quick glance it looks good but when you start seeing it for a while you see how fake it is. it's no longer "hey that's a cool color" it is kinda like "eek i don't like it." that was you. we used to be besties. why did you have to turn on me for no reason? even when we were no longer friends i still stood up for you and you lied and said i spread shit about you when i was the only one who had your back and defended you. idek about you, you're just so fake. go have incest babies with your cousin or something.

I miss you, so much. It's so disappointing to see how far we've grown apart. I've been looking back at our text messages from last year. I adored you a lot, and it was disappointing that you only saw me as someone to vent to, but not as a friend. You never really cared for me, didn't you? I don't blame you, I understand. I think I'm going to repress these thoughts because I still miss talking to you. I know you will never like me back, I know you don't give a single fuck about me, but being the dummy I am, I know I will always come running back to you.

hey :) i miss all the late night talks and im so sorry for not being there. i miss telling you every second of my day. i just miss telling you everything at anytime. i know that times aren't easy right now but i'm here :) you just have to let me in.

you hurt me, you ignored me, you made me feel like i was never enough for anyone but now i'm doing better and i'm glad you found a suitable replacement for me.

hi, so, black is your fav color, that's why the note is like this, anyway, even if I try to forget u, I can't, I still loving you and maybe it's stupid bc we weren't a lot of time together, but I miss u, and hope u can come back bc I need u here, hugging me, telling me how cute and hot I'm at the same time, teaching me skateboarding, but the time's gonna decide that, I want u to be okay, so we can be together, I love you so much, maybe u won't see this. And if we're not meant to be, i'll understand, we can't force things to happen the way we want to, ily.

why did you have to leave. even after u promised me you wouldn’t, i hate you for everything you’ve caused

my heart did beat for you only, but you sucked out all the happiness that was left in me. You didn't know who you are and what you wanted, and I had to take the blame. You don't got any love for yourself, that's why you feel the need to break other people so you can feel better about yourself.
I was a fool for being so blind all the time, I ignored the signs all the time. you can't pour from an empty cup, so I hope you learn to fill your cup soon, and start loving yourself.

you truly are like my child. and it has been a pleasure to be able to help you. thank you for reading me the three little pigs and your attempts to make me feel better. you are so adorable and i wish i could hold you forever and protect you from the world. but i cant wait till we can crash weddings with astrid and go mess up the city. you might not see it but you are v prefect to me. i love bubs.

You were my best friend at one point, and I still don't even know if you liked me at all. I don't know if I knew it back then, but I really think I might have been in love with you. Then I left and we never spoke. I've still only talked to K like twice since leaving, but I think about you all the time.
Is that weird? That's probably weird. I hope you don't search your name on here.

No te voy a mentir, sigo esperando un mensaje tuyo, ¿realmente te importe? Te extraño mucho, pero se que merezco alguien mejor, y ya sé cumplira 1 año de nuestra separación

I hate you. I really really do. You strung me along for four years. Even after you got with him you still did.

I am only writing this to get the closure you won't give me yourself. Why couldn't you have just waited a little bit before leaving me out to die by myself? I had so little then physically and emotionally and you didn't care. I was the most broken I had ever been but you didn't care. You say you love me when you text me but I don't believe you. You wouldn't have done the things you did if you loved me. I didn't deserve any of it and you made me think I did. I understand what made you the way you are but I still can't forgive you. Every day is a struggle in my head to cut you off completely, but the little voice of fear stops me every time. I have such unresolved trauma from you it'll take lifetimes to overcome. I truly can say I hate you now.

i really cannot handle your mental health on top of mine. its genuinely so exhausting. i love you but i cant do it