I am only writing this to get the closure you won't give me yourself. Why couldn't you have just waited a little bit before leaving me out to die by myself? I had so little then physically and emotionally and you didn't care. I was the most broken I had ever been but you didn't care. You say you love me when you text me but I don't believe you. You wouldn't have done the things you did if you loved me. I didn't deserve any of it and you made me think I did. I understand what made you the way you are but I still can't forgive you. Every day is a struggle in my head to cut you off completely, but the little voice of fear stops me every time. I have such unresolved trauma from you it'll take lifetimes to overcome. I truly can say I hate you now.