Unsent messages to MICAH

I loved you and I still do, you loved me but now you don’t

i wish i could take back all the times i hurt you

i do hope we come back around to each other. sooner than later

Knowing you is unforgettable <3

why do things have to be like this? it’s all so conflicting

i really miss how we used to be.

I will always have a soft spot for you. Always.

how could you do this if you really meant anything you told me

I'd be yours if you asked. All you have to do is ask

I think I miss you a little bit

I’m not sure whether to consider you an ex or not

if you called i’d answer in a heartbeat. i miss you always bub

i just wish we could be together.

I'm sorry for what I did I regret it.

hey, Mics.
i'm still into you.

i hate you but if you called i’d come in a heartbeat

i want to be urs for the summer

i want to feel needed. i need passion and intensity but i dont feel like im getting that. i need to feel wanted and i need to know your feelings. somedays i still feel like just a friend.

It's hard to let anyone in now because I'm scared there just gonna leave like you did. I'm scared no one will accept me after what I went through in July.

I wish I could get closure and understand why you weren't there for me. I hate you, but I also care about you. I hope your happy and never let this happen again.

I'm finally moving on from you and what happened this summer. I do still get sad and wonder what you went through or if you even cared.

You've done enough damage, so nothing will ever be happening between us.
But tell me when you're ready to come out.

If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here no matter what. I moved away from the uk so there’s a smaller time difference

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I'm not going to respond. Unless I get wasted I'm not opening that message. Did you start talking to me less because you realized what you'd been doing with me was wrong? Or is it that classic post-sex thing we do even though we were "so close before"? You've hurt me and that was the last time I'll see you, fucker.

sorry for the repeated words and bad grammar, I just need to get this stuff off my chest so I didn’t think much of it.

also
ikdiy

uhh hello again, I bet you’ve seen the cringe yellow texts I sent already but I still have other things to say.

Micah. You’re so pretty. You’re stunning, out of this world, beautiful, every word that describes beauty.
I just want you to know that.

I’ve been thinking about you way more than usual, even though it’s been like 2 months. I’m sorry for hurting you like I did. I didn’t mean for a little ‘dylmt’ to get to us so bad. I really liked you actually. I think that I first started to love you that first day we started talking and putting out names in our bios and user names. You made me feel so special. I know it might be cheesy but I really do love you. I wish I could just move back in time and tell you that myself. I wish I was there with you for Christmas. So much has happened in such little time with family and friends, you were the only thing keeping me together honestly. Family life has gone hectic and I hate it here sm. I got good grades and all but my parents and one of my older sisters still hate me for some reason. Anyway, I don’t wanna vent to you so I’ll just tell you the things about you that made me happy. your cute little doodles and drawings, your voice, you giving me flowers in Minecraft , the fact that you eat almost 12 apples each day, the obsession with bucket hats, the sarcastic emojis, the way you talked to me day and night, when you asked to match pfps, when you called me dumb, and you in general.

I really want you to see this but at the same time I don’t at all, and I’m scared you might.

If we do end up meeting up again, don’t bring this up because I’ll be really embarrassed.

I wish that day never happened.
We could’ve had so much more memories together if it hadn’t. I hope you’re doing well though. Remember to drink water, eat, and love yourself as much as I love you.

Until we meet again in the next life
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Hi. If you see this at all, please don’t bring it up because I‘lol be super embarrassed.?? uhh anyway. At first when we split I didn’t think much of it, of course I was sad and maybe she’d a few years but I moved on. Recently I’ve been thinking about you way more and I honestly miss everything that we had. Whether that was playing Minecraft or just talking back and forth :) I just wanna add that I did love you back then and I still do, I was just too shy to express myself. I love you micah. I hope we can become friends again like I said.

i love you, i dont know if you love me back, but layla told me you said that you think im your soulmate. i want to beleive it, i really do. but part of me thinks that if that were true you wouldnt have left me in the first place. i broke down crying in a parking lot as soon as you told me you just wanted to be friends. i couldnt be around for over 3 months because just seeing you hurt me so bad. but even after all of that i still love you. i still get butterflies when you text me. your smile lights up the entire room. when im with you your the only person i see. i am undeniably, completely in love with you.

I’m in love with you. I told you I like you and you said that the feeling was mutual but we couldn’t be together. You give me mixed signals and it confuses me. I haven’t felt so happy to talk to someone in a really long time. I just want to fall in love with you.

I’m sorry, you deserved better. You deserved someone with an open heart. You still inspire me to this day and you will change the world. I’m honored to have been a part of your life.

i didn’t wanna say goodbye like this, i wanted to hug you me one last time and tell me that’s it’s going to be alright. that we’ll be alright. i love you bud:/

hey, i miss you. i hope you figure things out with yourself. i just wish things could’ve ended another way. i really thought it would be us. i’m willing to wait. you are just so confusing so i’m not sure u will wait for me. you took away my first i love you. i meant it. you did too. your love for me just went away too quickly. there isn’t a day where you aren’t in my thoughts. i miss you and being friends with you. i miss sitting at the wall and talking until i had to go home. i miss talking til 2am with the thought that i could get grounded. you still haven’t asked for your sweatshirt back, i take it as a sign a hopeful one. meaning that maybe it’s not really over. and maybe i’m overthinking again. i’m really sorry. i love you bud.

I really do miss you, I promise. I remember everything about you. The way you spoke, the jokes you told, your smile, your laugh, and I am scared for you. Please come back. I can hug you and make the pain go away. I promise, I'm here whenever and whatever you need I am here.

fuck you. you knew you were my first. my first everything. everything i took seriously. fuck you for taking advantage of that. i wish i never met you. i was perfectly fine before i fucking met you and then you ruined my mental stability and made my depression and anxiety 10 times worse. fuck you till the very end.

I loved you, a lot, but on the last day of school u were actually so fucking mean to me. That's why i said i liked jayden. i never really liked him, i just wanted to make u jealous. even though i moved we could still be friends. i still love u tho and i will forever think about if u have a new gf or summ bcuz we dont talk

I’m falling deeply in love with you. All i can do is hope that this isn’t just a game to you. I love the way it feels with your hand across my neck.

(read in jfk from clone high’s voice) screw you, you bastard. i thought you loved me, i was wrong. you were just a horny biotch. i never thought that you could swim.

you told me you finally found somebody else. I said “she’ll never be me”. you said “that’s the point”...
that shit hurt

I was there for you everyday. every breakdown you had. every problem. but the second I needed you, you ran away. fuck you. I'm happy now and with no help to you.

i wish that this would’ve turned out differently. i hope you know how much i love you and want to help you get through this rough patch in your life.

I've never met two people as right for each other as us, text me when u figure that out. I miss ur eyes. I miss ur smile. I miss u.

i wish that it wasn’t all games to you, that maybe, just maybe, you didn’t take me as a joke. i loved you, but that never meant a thing to you. lol.

u taught me to not love so hard. every night we would talk to the moon. now bruno mars hits different

You drove me crazy and made me feel like I was the problem. Your lack of communication made me dwell on the silent happy. moments we had

i really loved you but you decided to cheat instead more than once. i still think about how we could be right now if you didn’t cheat, i wonder if you still love me or went on to someone else. i love you still but i know you probably don’t love me anymore

I knew from the beginning that I would always love you no matter what. In order to heal I knew I had to choose to love you from afar. It’s goodbye, for now ...

i get hurt a lot. and i feel angry a lot. im sorry. theres just something not right about this. everytime i think about it i feel sick to my stomach.

I miss you so much. Your laugh, your touch, your everything, I didn’t realize how much I loved you before it was too late.

i miss you. i wish that things had happened different, that you wanted to at least talk to me. but im glad youre happy with her, call me anytime

You were the first guy that ever liked me. Idk as more than friends. That meant a lot. We never talk anymore and I sometimes don't know what happened, thanks for being my friend.