i know you're not my first love, but i just need to say this. you're such a bitch. spreading lies about me? fine. but you made me hate myself. you made me hate my body. you made me count calories. you made me forget who i was. you made my internalized homophobia. you hurt me so bad. we weren't even fucking friends for that long. fuck you. it took such a long time to recover from you.
