Unsent messages to MEGAN

i feel like anything we do you’ve already done with him, anything we have you’ve already had with him. idk that sounds so stupid but like it’s just like will everything make you think of him? i hate talking ab him but i want to know it all you know? that’s so horrible but i’m nosey and jealous lolzz

i love you so much but like as a friend but then you know i also like you so i can’t say i love you bc then it’s like i love you as in that way but i don’t but i just think you’re so great and i appreciate you lots
soz none of this made sense but we move

You were horrible to me. I hate how you used your fucking flattery and compliments and guilt tripping to get people to stay with you. You lied and lied and lied to me and you stole from me and hurt my friends. I hope that you're happy with yourself. And I hope that for your sake you don't fucking try and come back to me.

i really like you but i'm scared you don't actually like me, you just miss being w him and want someone to have that with again
or i've jus read the whole situation wrong and you haven't even said you like me lolz
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i haven't made you a playlist, but i have a playlist full of songs. that remind me of you lol. is that the same?

remember when you said you’d never not love me? it took a few months for you to realize you could do so much better, but i hope you’re happier now and that he makes you happy

you made me realize all the things that are beautiful in life and could be in a person, and now no matter how much time has passed i see you in everyday.

I wish I could tell you how I still feel. I miss the way you felt in my arms. And it’s weird to say, but I miss the time we had together even though it was only twice. I’ve felt this way since we met each other when we were young. I only realized how much I miss you when your gone. I just hope your doing well because in all seriousness I’m not. Life has been pretty hard not knowing your here for me anymore. During this time I figured out I love you, but now Love is becoming nonexistent.

fuck you. fuck you and your perfect houses, your perfect nails, your perfect fucking everything. you always made me feel small, and i hated you. but i hope it makes you so fucking mad that i never think about you. you are just some bitch who is stuck in high school and living off of daddy’s money and male approval. i don’t need that shit in my life. have fun with my ex, you two deserve each other.

My shining star.
I know you struggle but I'm always here for you.
I can't tell you how much I love you, but always know it's a lot more than I might make it out to be, I struggle to show it sometimes. You're always going to be my other half, my widdle Meg Meg

i don’t even have anything to say this time i just really like leaving this. i hope you’re enjoying doing whatever you’re doing right now. love you lots lolz

I really like you but you have a boyfriend and it hurts a lot. I wish you could just love me back I need you

they were about you. you know it and i know it.
(i think, if those were the ones you were on about)
but any megan could be reading this and thinking i'm talking ab them, you'll never know.

you will. you do
lolz

I always thought that you loved me more, but, really, I loved you more and didn’t articulate it well. I’m sorry.

i am pretty good at recognizing people’s intentions and energy. you had this warm light radiating off of you, your energy was pure.

i knew it wouldn't work out and you left. i thought you'd come back so we could at least talk, but you never did.

Hey, just remember I'm always here for you. No matter what. Your such a kind, caring person. I love you.

I still like you since 8th grade but sadly ik u dont like me back, and our conversations are starting to get a bit dry and the fact ur doing online the whole year is the worst.Cause ik i wont be able to hug u or wave u goodbye when i move to a different state. So now i hope when we get older we can meet each other again and hang out

Fuck you Megs. Fuck you. I love you and you know it. I wish I never met you or some shit. You've ruined my life and you continue to do so. Stop leading people on.

I hate you. but it's weird not talking to you anymore even though you always knew the right ways to make me feel shitty. You're a terrible person, always have been. it just took me until now to figure it out.

i miss you. i want you to come back. but i know you don’t want to and i know that’s not gonna happen this time. so goodbye dickhead

You will always be loved. Wednesday.
I’m sorry I was so so so dumb.
You feel like I don’t understand you.
I was so bad at communicating.
I should have done more.
You gave me such a gift when you gave me that pain.
I will always love you but I never want anything to do with you again.
I was so close to killing myself.
You acted like I never mattered.
I felt like it was true.
Thank you for everything. ?

Isn’t it crazy how we used to talk about getting tattoos in each other’s handwriting but now I can’t even bring myself to ask how you’re doing

You knew we wasn’t good together but you tried to make it work because you didn’t want to leave me and my mind alone.

I don't understand how our relationship went so downhill so fast I wish I understood why you hate me and won't talk to me

i’m sorry for every thing dude. i’ll always love you but i’m gonna leave you alone now. i hope everything ends up good for you cause you deserve it. i love you

i know we are not friends at all anymore but ur really sweet and i know we dont see each other that much but if i do i would make sure to smile

I will never forgive you. I know you reached out after my grandpa died, but what you did was horrible. We had some really great memories and you let me go because if rumors. I don’t care if you think this is childish. If being childish means I have better mental health, then I’m childish

im coming to you as a friend, girl, and i know you feel a bit funny around him. it's ok. none of us know what'll come of it- whether you tell him now or make a move or let it be... you're gonna find happiness and love. you already have, girl! keep up the good work :)

you don’t know how much i’m in love with you, even though you’re straight-i get butterflies every time you look my direction

I wish you were different. I wish you would listen, not panic, reason. I wish I didn’t have to give reasons as to why i should put up with all the lying.

i’m okay with just being friends as long as it means i don’t have to lose you. but i’ll never stop loving you.

i still love you. after all this time. u left and destroyed me, but i still would be here for you. txt me sometime. i'm so proud of you. live it up kid

I hate how he loves you. I wanted nothing but for him to love me. I cried every night for months. Now i feel awful because of all the horrible things i said about you.... im sorry megan. you deserve a better friend than me.

the way that you treated me during our friendship was the worst thing i have gone through. you always think that you never do anything wrong but in reality you are the problem. ALL THE TIME. fuck you

how could you hate me so much for no reason. i’ll never forget the love you showed me when we were kids

I want to move on because you don’t deserve my tears but I would rather hold on to the tiny bit of hope then forget about you

you destroyed everything about me. I tried to end the friendship, why didn't you accept it. you ruined me,
i hope it was worth it.

I really liked u. u liked me back, everything was perfect. I just kinda wish I didnt fuck up. -hope :) btw if u find this don't tell me u did lol

The more i need you the more my trust issues are telling me to run away. I know you wont hurt me but im just so scared to love

I didn't realize how much I cared until you weren't there and I found myself missing the way you smell.

i will never give up on us, i want you to be apart of my life, i know that this is not how it will end. i love you

do you still think about me? because i remember you lending me your top and picking blackberries together. its only been 2 years but i really miss you.

although we're no longer friends, i love u! please stay on this planet, there a people who care about you.

I wish you didn't hurt me the way you did. I thought what you was doing was right. But it wasn't and you destroyed me. I feel like I can't be loved now because I have nothing to love as you ruined it all...

i want u to know, that long message was not me. no matter how much a hated a person i wouldn’t go so far to say something like that. but i don’t understand. i don’t understand why i just got dropped. your only explanation was “i cbf w u saying i love u and checking up on me”. i don’t understand. did you only start talking to me because leah has a new “yellow”? and you knew you were mine? i was sick of you thinking i was pathetic and couldn’t stand my ground. i was only “cocky” because i didn’t know how else to not seem like a little girl because i’m not and i did stand my ground and i’m proud i did. i’m sorry if i was “cocky” but i’m not sorry for anything else. i’m not sorry for checking up on you, that’s just what decent human beings do. i couldn’t even think, what could i do different? like what was i supposed to do different. and how do i know that i can trust it when you said you love me because u said you never meant anything you said, that might’ve just been you saying that in the moment idk. but i don’t hate you, i cant hate someone i love that much. but i don’t understand

you weren’t my first love, you were just my best friend. whoever has her next, always pick up her facetime calls, always.

u were my first love. but then u lied to me. why couldn't u just tell me that u didn't feel the same way. its been a year and i still cry over u.

words can't describe how much i hate you. all the time i put into our stupid friendship, that was a waste. you make me sick. the idea of you makes me sick. i hate being connected to you. i wish you were never in my life. i could have saved myself and my relationships with so many people. you never wanted me to be happy. you wanted to hurt me. you fucked me up so bad. i will never forgive you for that. I know that usually we come back to each other. but im not coming back this time. you were horrible. you were not a friend. you competed with me. it felt like a competition being freinds with you. and I will never forgive you for that. i will never forgive you for all of the pain and suffering that you have put me through. you are the worst type of person. i hope you know who this is. i hate you. with all of my heart. you ruined my life. completely. i lost myself when i was friends with you. i'm doing good now. i hope you and your stupid friend overdose or something. or your "depression" takes over. you don't deserve anything. no compassion, nothing. i hate you so much. go to hell.

I know you have a hard time opening up about things and the fact that you’ve spoken to me a lot more about things recently means more than you know, you’ve changed my life. I’m so glad we met, please come back after Christmas. I miss you. I’m so proud of everything you’ve achieved this year. Thank you for always picking me up when I need it. I’ll always be here to listen and make you laugh. always my lil onion