Unsent messages to MASON

I'm sorry you had to be embarrassed of me. I'm sorry I'm not pretty enough to be around. Was Hannah that much better than me? Even if you're an asshole now, I still want to be your friend.

You were my first love. But you’ll never know that. I have moved on but I still have so much to say to you.

You were so important to me that I let you take a piece of me that I promised myself I wouldn’t let go.

you took so much from me then left like i meant nothing. the sad thing is i would still take you back in a heartbeat

i never wanted to just be friends with benefits, i just said that cause i thought its what you wanted, i wanted so much more

you really messed me up. i really liked you a lot. you fucked with my feelings. sometimes i look back at memories and just think to myself how did i lose someone like you. i could even tell when you moved on and you lied to me saying you didn't. this is when i realized i wasn't going to find the one ever.

im in love with you and ive always been in love with you. you play with me and toy with me. why do you hurt me so much. i just want you to love me back

i just wanna see your name pop up on my phone i wanna hear your voice i wanna feel you hug me, i miss you

I've liked you since the day we met and still do to this day I can even say that I'm in love with you.. I know you'll never feel the same way but I will forever love you and always have these feelings for you deep beneath...thank you for everything mase..

i used to listen to “someone new” by banks while i was crying about you. i really did love you. i had to realize that you can’t love someone into loving you. the song that reminds me of you now is “gone forever” by tdg. i hate you.

i still think about you, i don’t regret blocking you at all. you’re a shitty person and i wish i would have realized that sooner. you fucked everything up. i will always hate you.

I miss you and I really hope u miss me too we have our whole future planned out I don’t know what I would be able to do without you and miss you miss you I’m sorry if I did anything to hurt your feelings I just want us to be OK please come back to me

To my love, I’m sorry for the way that I am and the person I am I’m better off dead u don’t need me just go be happy without me make sure u tell ur future wife about me Ily endlessly

I love you a lot I really do and I hope you know that but I cant help to notice ever single change in your vibe and energy and the way you talk and it's just makes me overthink to the worse and I start isolating myself from you because I'm overthinking if you want to talk to me , if I'm bothering, I regret every text for no reason and I cant stop unless your energy seems right to me and to me it's getting worse so I'm getting worse and i know uts hard for you right now but you're angry just seems why different I've been with you while you were, sad, panicking,mad, and its never been like this .

I love you like sp muhc I'm almost in love with you and I wish I can say it every day but I know you wont say it back so I never do :( but I'm like obsessed I've never been this happy in a friendship for a long time I feel like you're so much grown up so we wont have little childish fights like I love you so much I can't want and I hope to meet you I literally want to kiss you rn i cant

i wish i never fucking met you. why would you hurt me so much when you knew how i was hurt before. fuck you.

i think i loved you but i lied and told you i liked jacob and you ghosted me for her anyways. i miss being besties

Purple. Your favourite colour, everytime i look at that colour on my walls I picture you sitting there eating dino chicken nuggets with me. Please come back

I hope you know I still think about you, even if we don't talk anymore. I love you mase, forever and always. -lil's (literally just snap me)

How can I hate you when I know that now you're truly happy? I just wish it were me that made you happy.

Right person wrong time. I wish I had spent more time with you and I wish I would have kissed you when I had the chance. I’m glad you’re happy right now!!

You treated me so wrong. Honestly, we were so toxic together. I haven't to this day dated anyone or talked to anyone and no one makes me feel happy I feel so empty. You make me feel so bad about myself and I feel so ugly and honeslty im trying to get better at loving who I am and learning my self worth. Just know that I don't miss you anymore. And if I said I wished you the best I really don't at fucking all.

im sorry for breaking our promise. i didnt mean to. i tried everything i could to make you happy. i gave you everything. but you never realized it. you ignored me. even though we dont talk as much as we used to, i want you to know even if I dont make you happy, you make me very happy with just your own existence.

I wish you had told me you were falling outta love instead of making me look like an asshole trying to salvage what was left of us.

i think i love you but i know u would never love me back. i'm trying really hard to be happy but its just not working and that is not ur fault its mine. i love u i think.

isn't it funny how u acted like it was normal the stuff u said the things u did? I never thought it would actually hurt this bad lol I'm not over it its been 3 years u made me do it and got away u hurt me. bet I wasn't the only one. u left me cuz I didn't want to tell u why I was hurt when u where the reason. u made my walls higher u made my family hate me u made me lose my confidence u fucking hurt me but I won't tell.

lmaooo idk why i had a crush on u ,, thankfully i found out u have curlyhead in ur ig user and its thrown me off since :]]

Mason, where do I start. I loved you dude, I really fucking did, why did you cheat on me? Why did you dump me 3 times? Why dude, you can't tell me I wasn't good enough because I was. You can't say I didn't treat you right because I did. And you cannot CANNOT say I didn't love you because I did . But I'm happy for you. Have a good life fam :).

I am so incredibly sorry for everything. I know were friends but I still think about what I did to you, everyday. I'm sorry my love.

you’ll never know the real reason why i broke it off. i’m so sorry. i never really stopped loving you. but i get why you hate me now. thank you for everything dude.

hey. i miss talking to you. i wish your snaps weren’t just ur wall, or u didn’t take hours to respond but i really like you

you saved my life and promised me you would stay well you left but i hope you still know that i love and miss you everyday. i will always care

I AM TOO MUCH OF A LITTLE COWARD TO PERSONALLY SEND THIS TO U BUT I LOVE U SO MUCH OH MY GOD on the first day of school when i saw u in mikan cosplay i was like WHOAH!!! *imagines that we fall in love* “wait no stop don’t imagine that” AND KABOOM!!!!! HERE WE ARE AND YOU ARE SO GREAT AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I CANT PUT IT INTO WORDS WITHOUT IT SOUNDING WEIRD i am literally gonna fail school because i constantly think abt u instead of paying attention
here’s a fun keyboard smash or whatever that sums up how u make me feel BRRRR2528/)/7-&/$|€%|*!\!!!!!!!!

i love and care about you so much it physically hurts. please stop blaming me for your hurt. it tears me apart. i know i didn't do it.

One day I just wanna go ice skating with you and for me to fall into your arms and for you to catch me when I fall then we can watch the stars and listen to artic monkeys together and Harry styles

I saw something that reminded me of you today. It's weird because it feels like you weren't even real. You took up my whole mind for months, and then all of a sudden you were gone without a trace. I can't be mad though because I like to be kept busy and it was definitely entertaining. I wonder if I'll ever see or hear from you ever again. It's okay if not, I just hope that you're doing well and that all the dreams you told me about come true for you.

Thank you for supporting me through everything and being there to help me find my true self. i love you so much. i love you i love you.

I always want to be with you. I’m kind of scared of commitment. I’m afraid I might fuck up. I’ve lied to you about so much. I wish i could come clean. Start new with you, but that can never happen and so I must live with my lies. Sometimes I wonder if I’d be okay if you left and I think I might be but Id always still love you deep down. Sometimes when you tell me you love me it just hurts. Sometimes I hate it. Sometimes I hate you and I want to leave. But when I look at a picture of you I realize how much I love you. The real you is so much different than the digital you, the one I text all day. Knowing I love the real you is what keeps me pushing. Knowing one day I’ll be by your side, really, is what keeps me going. But I wonder why the tables have turned. Is the universe giving me an opportunity to hurt you back? I don’t want to. But sometimes part of me thinks I should. I know deep down I never want you to feel the way I felt. I need you to love me, I cant live without you. I’m sorry i’m so mean to you sometimes. I’m sorry I’m so horrible. I wish I could be the perfect you deserve.

our friendship traumatized me you made me think you were the only thing that could make me happy. you made me push all my other friends away because “nobody could be as good as you” then you left me. you used me to make you feel better about yourself. people aren’t disposable mason i fucking hate you, you fucking traumatized and emotionally scarred me and you’re the reason i’m scared to trust people again. i hope you’re happy that you ruined my life bitch ;)

u broke me. why didn't u just tell me how you felt? you gave me so much hope. i told you everything. now we don't speak.

I loved you more than anything. And I thought you loved me, but I realized that you don’t treat people you love the way you treated me.

you taught me what a toxic relationship is like. because of you i will never fall in love again. fuck you

Sorry for being annoying. You were the only thing that made me happy. And in the end you ignored me anyway.

I’m sorry for being annoying, you were the only thing making me happy, but in the end you ignored me anyway.

I was in love with you and I didn't even know it until now. I'm over you hopefully, but I can't help but wonder what we could've been if we stayed together.

hi if u know who this is, i love u alot. u prolly think im annoying but grey is ur among us colour :)

i never told you or anyone how i feel about you. i truly feel like if u were to notice me u would see how much i like you. i text you and send you small hints but i never will have the confidence. i really care about u and think you are the one. ily

You sent me one message and blocked me then it was over I hadn’t opened it and was about to send morninggg thank you so much for last night you are probably the reason I’m still here xx

I know it wasn’t that big of a deal to you or anyone on the outside, but you kept me floating until I could do it myself.

u said u would never hurt me. U said u weren't like them u said u cared. why would u lie to me about all that i told u i didn't want to get hurt again and here i am crying over someone who could care less.