Unsent messages to MAE

hey, i know it’s been a minute since we’ve talked but i just wanted to let you know how much you impacted me throughout the year and helped me through a lot. i know my actions have hurt you and my response wasn’t the best but i really do miss our friendship and have learned from my mistakes. thank you for absolutely everything you’ve done for me and for being my very best friend for the time being. i hope that someday you’ll forgive me, i’ll always be here whenever you need. happy new year! ??

hey. i miss you so much. i’m sorry for whatever happened between us. you were my best friend and i still believe that you are my soulmate. i want nothing more than to have you back in my life. thank you for helping me find myself and giving me the confidence that i needed. you saved me, but i just wish you hadn’t left. i love you so much. you will always have a special place in my heart. my twin flame, my sister, my soulmate.

I didn’t write the last text but we have the same name & it was so beautiful. Ty for reminding me to love myself ?

sometimes i start to think about what i don´t like about you. but then i try to stop, because you don´t deserve that.
you´re so insanely pure. you have a heart made out of gold, an angelic aura and eyes i´d want to get lost in, if i could. your hair is always perfect and you somehow manage to always look so soft. you´re like a fairy, a ballerina.
you care so deeply for those around you, you love the world so intensely, that sometimes, you forget yourself. and that´s why i´m reminding u, that you deserve the whole universe.
sincerely,
yourself

I loved you back then.
You know, more than in a friend way.
Maybe you already knew that or maybe this is a shocker but it is what it is.
I always wonder what could have happened if I stayed.
I still have the necklace you gave me.

I now know you’re my first love because i’ve never been in love before but i know i love you so you’re my first and i hope my last

I miss u bruh we had so much fun together. I hope ur doing well n i hope school is all g. maybe one day we can b friends again.

hi mae. i know you’ll never see this but that’s ok. it’s just nice writing to you. i know we’re taking a break from our friendship but it feels like it’s the end of it all. i’m going to be honest. i have bad attachment issues. and i know i’ve never told you this, but uh, with the whole bpd thing with me, you were one of my favorite people. im sorry that i hurt you. i never meant that. i miss you more every day and i cry so much, i know i’m so sucky at showing emotions and stuff but it just hurts so bad. i literally just want to drink to forget all of this and keep hurting myself over and over and over. i feel like you’ve forgotten about me. i feel like you and them are already best friends, the duo i expected you both to be yet you both reassured me that would never happen. i got attached to you. i really did. i was always afraid to show affection because that’s why me and my ex best friend stopped being friends. are you done with me? i know it’s only been a week and two days, they said they would text me in a week or something. i don’t know. i just want the pain to go away. just want to be able to text you and all the long phone calls we would have. i miss you, dammit. i miss you. i told you to message me when you were ready to talk again, but i haven’t heard anything. i know you need space and everything, please don’t feel bad for it, but my abandonment issues are kicking in and thinking you’re done with me forever. i feel like you’re done with me. i just miss you. i miss you. i’m so sorry for everything. i’m sorry i suck at trusting people, i’m sorry i suck at showing i care. but i do care. i really do. please. just come back. i would text you, but i don’t want to upset you. you promised you wouldn’t leave me. you said this wasn’t the end of our friendship. please don’t forget about me. please don’t replace me. i’m scared. i’m scared shitless, okay? please. i miss you. i know i sound desperate and im sorry injust cant take this

i wish u would actually listen 2 me , maybe pay me some attention . i do love you , more than u love me.

You make me feel down about myself you always forget me and so dry to me but when we are together you only need me when you want to get away you never care about my feelings it’s just you but I can’t get away cuz ik you and ik what you would do