I should have stayed when you were at such a bad place. I still find myself missing being your dweeb. The guy im with now just isnt you and i know its wrong to want him to be but i still find myself doing it. I just wish i got to tell you about bed bugs just one last time

You made it into my families yearly picture book. I wish i could show you but i know that would just be cruel. Im sorry

The idea of us is more of a distant, beautiful and bittersweet memory now. Yet, I’d still let you love me and I’d allow myself to love you recklessly. But, I’ve become enough for myself as I reclaim and remold the spot in my heart that I designed for you.
Although it would never be the same.

i think i love you. i’ve never felt like this before. it’s way too early, but i hope you feel the same.

I see you nearly everyday and I think I love you.
What hurts the most is that I know you don’t love me back ...

Ik u went to that party I just didn’t say anything cuz I wanted u to have fun. I was never obsessed with you or my ex everyone knows it was the other way around. Fuck you it’ll be a cold day in hell before you find someone better than me and you know that.

you called me for the first time tonight, you have no idea how happy my heart grew at the sound of your voice. please don't leave again. -j (i forgot to change the color on the other one omg)

hi. i know. i know you still love her. i know you do. youve never looked at me the way you looked at her. i know you say you do actually like me alot. i want to believe you, but i feel like youre just saying it because youre too nice to let me down because i have loved you since we were 12. its okay. if youre happy so am i. ill be okay i promise. but i know you still love her and im just a way for you to try and feel the love she gave you again. i love you. truly i do. have for 4 years. but its time for me to let go. i really hope this might be a right person wrong time kind of thing. but i need you to be happy. i dont want what we have right now to be fake and just sex and cuddles. we have somehow ended up back in eachothers lives after each time we decided to just be friends again. so. ill see you next time love

god i miss you. I miss all our hikes and hangouts during quarantine. I know it'll never go back to that and it kills me. I'll never forget the day you texted me confessing your feelings. The first day we kissed. One part of me wishes we never did anything, but another part of me has never felt like that. Actually cutting you off after so many months of on and off was so hard. I had a bunch of distractions, but I still find myself thinking about you at least once a day and looking through our memories once a week. I wonder what we could have been if you truly liked me enough. The amount of love I had and still have for you is unmatched-

here we go again. I thought this was funny, kinda petty, but funny. and i am never gonna say it to your face so here it is. i know you and V are a thing again and honestly i dont care. whatever she's prettier anyways and im happy for you i guess. but ya know V is going to college in a couple months, maybe you should just end it now y'know, cuz you guys will be at such different points in your life soon so what's the point of trying, right? or was that just your bullshit cop out excuse for me. it would've been a whole lot better if you just said we are better as friends. you could of saved me all the trouble of overthinking this. you could of done a lot of things but i think you have established you are way too emotionally immature to even say more than 2 words when you ended things with me. you know why i said i thought i might be a bad person? because i dont want you to be happy. i want you to be sad and lonely. i want you to be dumped. i want you to be emotionally damaged, i want you to feel that pain. but despite all that i still want to be friends. cuz losing you completely would crush me.
god i don't know what's wrong with me, you seemed to move on fast so why can't i. whatever, i'll get over all this soon.
Love,
my over dramatic ass
p.s. i thought it was quite distasteful that one of the songs on your new playlist for her was one that i painted on a cd for you. i hope you destroyed that cd.

okay ignore everything, im being so overdramatic we weren't even really together so yeah ill get over it and this is stupid

does she know that I feel the same?
don't wanna cry I so I don't act that way.

oh, where is my love?
I'm searching high I'm searching low,
in the night.

did she run away? I don't know.
if she ran away
come back home



just come home.

hey uh you were kinda cool until we got toxic last week, ima take break from you and focus on myself then you, idrc if you spam me or not cus im muting you

you have the purest soul i have ever encountered. i’ll always have a spot in my heart for you, love ya

I'm sitting here right now listening to the playlist I made that reminds me of you my love and I didn't realize how much it made me want to tell you how I feel about you. I could. But I know that in one way or another I'm going to hurt. I will also put you in an awkward position as you really like someone else and are practically together now. I just need to let it go. I know you won't see this but I'm okay with that.

I miss the silly note exchanges in class, the flirty remarks, the teasing as if we didn't like each other.
I miss the conversations we had, knowing it could possibly lead to more.
I miss the way you looked at me.
I miss you calling me squish.
I miss that side of you.

I might sound stupid as this was back a while ago and we never even got together. If I'm honest I shouldn't even be writing this and should just get over myself. I should be over that stage as you have. But the truth is...I don't know how.

I sometimes wonder if those feelings flow back every now and again but then I have to bring myself back to the present day and realise that you will never feel that way about me again.
You won't exchange those silly notes. You won't talk to me like it will lead to more. You won't call me squish. You won't look at me in that way. I will never get that side again and that fucking hurts.

I wish I did something, anything to show you how much I liked you. I think you knew but it wasn't enough to keep you here.

Now I'm just your friend.
I hope this girl realises how special you are. Sure you have your flaws but so does everyone. I hope this girl gives you what I can't. I hope she makes you happy and by the looks of it, she seems like she does.
If you're happy, I'm happy.
Dying inside lmao but happy.

Damn, I'm cringy and emotional aha. But I needed to get this out somehow.
Maybe now I can start to get over it.

Thank you for making me laugh
Smile.
Awkward.
Cry.
Thank you, Loser.
I love you.
From Midget.

It’s getting easier. Not talking to you is getting easier. I don’t think there will ever be a day that goes by that I don’t think about you, but I know I’m ready to move on now. Goodbye forever

it's been so long but i still wonder about you way too much. i want to be your friend again one day. sorry

you are the only person whos ever actually bothered to remember things about me

there's so many things i want to tell you but words could never describe how much i appreciate you

Why do I still get the feeling it’s supposed to be us?

i miss you so much! i just wanna talk to you again :(

I made all the wrong decisions, but I know I made my bed. I’m sorry for doing it all so wrong.

i miss you more than anything my sweet boy. i love u forever and always.

these arms will always be waiting for you to return

I just miss you dude.

its so wrong to miss u . but i can’t help it .

there will always be something for you here :P

I love you…still…but I love me enough to finally let you go