Unsent Messages

here we go again. I thought this was funny, kinda petty, but funny. and i am never gonna say it to your face so here it is. i know you and V are a thing again and honestly i dont care. whatever she's prettier anyways and im happy for you i guess. but ya know V is going to college in a couple months, maybe you should just end it now y'know, cuz you guys will be at such different points in your life soon so what's the point of trying, right? or was that just your bullshit cop out excuse for me. it would've been a whole lot better if you just said we are better as friends. you could of saved me all the trouble of overthinking this. you could of done a lot of things but i think you have established you are way too emotionally immature to even say more than 2 words when you ended things with me. you know why i said i thought i might be a bad person? because i dont want you to be happy. i want you to be sad and lonely. i want you to be dumped. i want you to be emotionally damaged, i want you to feel that pain. but despite all that i still want to be friends. cuz losing you completely would crush me.
god i don't know what's wrong with me, you seemed to move on fast so why can't i. whatever, i'll get over all this soon.
Love,
my over dramatic ass
p.s. i thought it was quite distasteful that one of the songs on your new playlist for her was one that i painted on a cd for you. i hope you destroyed that cd.