Unsent messages to LEVI

"I'm a loser baby just like you."
it still hurts to listen to the songs i listened to when i had you.

I’m writing shit here because I could never write this to you. I’m still in love with you. We haven’t talked in 6 fucking months but I can’t let go of you. I don’t think you were ever in love with me, but you brought me the greatest comfort. I still don’t understand why you didn’t want me anymore. The last time we hung out you took my ring and gave me your T-shirt because then I had to meet you again you said. What changed after that? I think the reason I’m still hung up on you is because I never got that closure, because I honestly don’t know what changed.

Hey, i know u dont think about me anymore. But your all i think of still... wish we would’ve met now instead of april

I miss you so much. and I know how I have no right to say this but just know that I do. but know that I did this for you. It sucks that I know no matter what you do or how you treat me I can't stop caring about you. I just wish we were okay, I wish you didn't hate me, or maybe I wish that I could hate you. but I can't, I just want the pain to go away.
I do love you, you know.

I just wish our friendship could have lasted longer; It’s not over yet but I can feel you slipping away

i know you love her and i know you always did.
and
thats okay. i hope that now you are happy. but just know i would drop everything for you.
and thats not healthy and thats not good but i cant help it.

i cant help the fact i still care for you. but every time i see you i feel an emptiness and i think

fuck

why wasnt i good enough?
why am i not good enough?
i just want to feel what its like to get a text from you again. or to hear your voice or see your face. i miss you levi. not even romantically anymore.

i miss you as a friend. you were always my friend. and to me you always will be.

Forgotten what I used to be but I think I'm happier now, somehow
Though I'm still far from home, I'm making a new one just on my own and think I've been thinking too much, about what I miss and the things I've lost but know if I'm down on my luck, it's only a phone call to get back up but maybe I'm better this way. i've never replaced all the things you'd say but sometimes I'm feeling the same
I wish I could see someone else's face so when you're just stuck on my mind I'd picture you once and then move on and smile but
Lately, it's harder to find. Will this ever be alright?
I still get butterflies when you're inside my mind. And I only wonder if you get the same or if it's only mine but I think it's alright
cause you love butterflies, right?
I wish you'd fly to me

You're really my close friend.
You made me happy, but at the same point you made me felt love, I never felt this feelings until now.

I wish we were still friends. and after everything that's happened I know I shouldn't want that but I do. and I know you hate me and want nothing to do with me and that's fine. but I hope you know I will never hate you. I wish I didn't care about you anymore but I do. I just miss it. miss you, hope you're doing well.

no sé cómo me enamoraste en pocos días, sin embargo siento que me puedes lastimar, por favor no trates de mentir sólo para llamar la atención, soy sólo una chica que quiere enamorarse, odio todo y quiero todo de ti, no me lo hagas difícil y escríbeme

I wish I was smarter back then to tell you how I felt, but Im glad it never worked. You turned out to be a jerk. But you were so handsome and I wish I had the confidence I had now to tell you that I like you

I am glad that you're doing better now that you lost me. I know you blame me for your pain, even though it is you that has caused yourself suffering. but glad you are happier I guess.

I wish you were mine. These feelings I have for you are so hard to put into words. There are so many unsaid things between us, if I could I would tell you I loved you, but I don't think you feel the same anymore. I want you more than anything, but I guess some things just aren't meant to be. You'll forever have a piece of my heart.

I turned a blind eye toward what was right in front of me. hoping that it wasn't true, but it was. and it is.

look i know youre not real but i really cant hold it in anymore, i love you... i know you wont be able to meet me but atleast give me a chance.
Love, Jazzymin

i miss you so much. i wished you knew the dreams i had about you and how i talked to you to my friends

i hope you realize how much i loved you ,but i will no longer hurt myself trying to make you love me.

I don't hate you and I never will. but you make it so hard for me to not be angry with you. you have treated me poorly and you can tell me off and say that I hurt you more and that I was cancerous, or a bad friend, or just another girl that tried to use you, stop. we both know that's not the truth. but if you find it easier to hate and blame me then I can't change that. I want you in my life but there are things that you need to grow from. I don't think you want to do that though, and I honestly know that you probably want nothing to do with me ever again, but all I want to say is I love you. I will always have that love for you it's true, even when you break my heart into a million pieces and make me feel like shit. I will never lose that care, even when you think I don't. I wish it was easy to let you go but, it's not, and I really don't want to. but it seems like you've decided and I will abide by your choice.

it's austin. i love you so much, and you'll never know. just talking about slashers with you makes my entire day, and your laugh is like music to my (borderline deaf) ears. best of luck on learning your sign language! you're doing so well, i can already tell. i just wish you felt the same way about me as i feel about you. you're such a lovely human being.

dude. fuck you. i loved you with everything i had in me and you betrayed my trust and made me feel so incredibly small and worthless. i’ll never forgive you for the pain and trust issues you’ve brought upon my life. i once would’ve said i love you but you don’t deserve that. fuck you.

dude. fuck you. i loved you with everything i had in me and you betrayed my trust and made me feel so incredibly small and worthless. i’ll never forgive you for the pain and trust issues you’ve brought upon my life. i once would’ve said i love you but you don’t deserve that. fuck you.

"To him a touch is a blow, a sound is a noise, a misfortune is a tragedy, a joy is an ecstasy, a friend is a lover, a lover is a god, and failure is death." I read this today. And I feel like it explains the way I
experience things perfectly, something you never understood about me. Hopefully this clears some things up.

Every moment with you has been a lifetime and every moment we aren't speaking feels like an eternity.

i love you. i know you don’t love me as much as i love you, and i can feel u fading, but i still love you. i’m glad we got forced into that gc together and i met you. you don’t know how much you actually mean to me. thank you.

we didn’t know each other for long, but you made such an impact on my life. it’s been months but i still think about you. for some reason i find myself missing you more than i should…

I hate you so much for leaving me.... why couldn’t you just tell me you found someone else.. Im such an idiot for believing you. I miss you so much. but at the same time I hate you for leaving me. I hate how you pretended to care about me. I hate the way you ended things. I hate you. I hope you never find someone. You were suppose to be mine.

I didn't want to feel so claustrophobic. I know you did your best. But you loved her more, you were my first love, but I wasn't your love at all. But it's all okay now

I regret leaving you and it will haunt me forever. I wish you never drove the car that day, you didn’t deserve any of this. I wish I could hug you one last time. I’ll love you forever

I’m not kidding when I say I was in love with you, when our eyes met it was like the whole world stopped. Why her you chose her barley knowing who she was just because she was “pretty”

Why couldn’t you be with me we were friends we laughed and had the best time with each other but you chose her a girl you barley knew just because she was “pretty”

I loved you so much. I would’ve given everything I had just to be with you. I waited for you for three years, two valentines days I got nothing back from you. You never did love me. But man did I love you. If you could ever give me so much as an explanation as to why you did the things you did, that would be great. Goodbye.

I miss you and I’m sorry for being mean to you in the past. I’m glad you’re happy but hmu if that doesn’t work out ;)

I still love you. Even after everything you did to me, I still love you. I hope you find your way back to me some day.

My first love, we’re better off apart. It’s been over a year now. I still think of you. I always will.

Everything is going to turn out okay. I hope you know how much you're loved. Pursue the things you love most in this world and you will continue to thrive.

I'm sorry it's been a month and I still haven't replied. I hope you're well. It's ok if this love is unrequited, I want you to be happy.