I thought changing who I was and being better would give me that fulfillment but it hasn’t.. I feel bad for the people in my life that have to deal with me. They shouldn’t have to at this time. It’s really sad, I’m aware.. and you were right, I’m not a man and I probably should end it.. I just want to know that you know that I do love you and I am very sorry.

You may be the best thing I ever experienced. I didn’t deserve anyone.. I still don’t. Not sure I ever will, but I’ll always love you.

I think I’ve lost a lot of my memory, but I’ll never forget the first time I heard your voice, my heart almost exploded in my chest.

I honestly wish I never found you on fb that night. Little did I know the damage it would bring. You and your family are all white trash.

Ciao bellezza!
Volevo solo dirti che mi piaci veramente tanto. Quando sto con te perdo la ragione ma purtroppo penso che per te non sia lo stesso. Non so se tu voglia conoscermi fino infondo, ma io si, penso che tu sia la persona più interessante del mondo. Uno dei miei tanti desideri è quello di stare per sempre insieme a te, ma, soprattutto, andare via, insieme, nel nostro sogno...l'America.

I just wanted what was best for both of us. I’ve found that I’m a lover not a fighter and I’m ok with that. I miss you and I wish we could start over.

My past is a lie and everything between us was wrong. I made the biggest error and have to live with that for the rest of my life. I’m the biggest fool.. I wish I never talked to you that day. In fact, I wish I never heard your name or even discovered who you were... I really hope I never see you again.

Well well well, we have one hell of a story dont we. Bestfriends for a year or 2, dates for a few months, and back to friends. Its been months since we broke up. Everyday I get more comfortable with the fact that you dont love me anymore. Im starting to wonder if you ever did..... You say you did but real love doesnt go away in 3 months. I mean you even admitted it yourself, it wasnt me you really wanted. You would have never dated me if you could choose again, ouch. You just wanted to have someone so you settled for me. That decision led me to some of the most painful times of my life. But dont worry, Im not holding that against you or anything. It would be unfair of me to hold a grudge because the person I love doesnt want me back. I just wish we were still as close as we used to be, you never tell me anything anymore :(. If you ever asked, I would come back to you and you know that but many times you still mess with me acting like you like me. It just blows my mind, how you can be on my mind 24/7 but i bet I dont cross yours, ever. you were the person who made me happiest, but youre also the cause of my lowest point. I wonder what it would have been like if you still loved, why wasnt I good enough for you, why wasn't I worth it. Thats a question I dont think ill ever have an answer to but thats okay. I can feel you distancing yourself from me and I feel like im losing you. I wish you luck with whoever you choose to be with next, you deserve the world, im sorry I couldn't give it to you. I chose this color because last time I asked what your favorite color was you said green(around the time of your neon phase lol), not sure if it changed

im sorry i've been such a mess. i cared a lot of you but it is hard to me to show feelings. i'll never forget about you, even tho our relationship was really toxic.

i would like you to love me as I love you...

you’re my first love, the guy i’ll always love no matter what. u truly mean the world to me

I miss sitting in parking lots with you the most

I really hope you’ll realize that I was there in front of you all the time.

There was a time when my heart was full of you. It still, but it's leaking since you shattered it.

there's so much i couldn't tell you, wished we could talk for the last time

I still check your horoscope

I unblocked you so I could forgive you. It always felt wrong.

Green, our color. Oh I miss you, so much more than words can say
I’m still loving you.

i Hope that all the things i noticed actually mean something and they're not just in my head