Unsent messages to HUNTER

I wish I told you how I felt before you left because you thought I didn’t like you. It wasn’t that I didn’t like you it was because I wasn’t ready.

i love you and i miss you. i know you don’t want to talk to me. i don’t even know what happened. you asked me out and just disappeared. it hurt

you never gave me proper closure. you always just came back. to that i say fuck you. i love you so much tho.

i know i hurt you and i am very truly sorry. i get why you would choose her instead, she’s perfect. she’s everything i wish i could be i just wish you could’ve given me a chance to learn from my mistakes. you mean the absolute world to me, i don’t want to start over with someone new. i want you hunter. you are the love of my life i can’t let go. we have so many plans we never got to do, i just want to forget everything and start over but the world doesn’t work like that. i’m sorry baby

i still remember all the details on your face, all your freckles and birth marks. i don’t want to start over with someone new, i only want you. it doesn’t feel right to try and love someone else

i’ve been here for you for the past two years, watching you go for girls that will never care for you the way i do.

you weren’t my first love but goddamn did i fall for you hard, and it wasn’t even intentional either. not as much as id like to admit. i know i would never be good enough for you and you’d lose feelings but i didn’t even care in that moment. i’m glad it didn’t mess anything up between us and that were still friends though. i hate seeing you so fucking sad all the time and i wanna help and be there for you but i know i wouldn’t be able to help, i hope you find happiness soon.

I love you and I know the way you treat isn’t good but I can’t stop thinking about you and my heart aches that you don’t care about me

i still sleep in your t-shirts and listen to your favorite songs in hopes of feeling your presence again.

We still see each other, but recently i've wondered where your life has gone. You moved away and then ran away. I wish we could still play Frost and Lilac like when we were younger. Last time i saw you, you had run away and hurt your foot. Then you left again. Im with someone else now, but i think about you often. You inspired me to make my own stories and characters, to write and draw. I still draw your character from the game we played, you know.

Why do I even like you? Probably because you hot but I know the feeling isn't mutual. Would you give me chance if asked for it?

I failed school trying to take care of both of us when you quit your job. I never cheated, I was just tired and dying like my plants in that lifeless apartment. I hope you are happier too, but please never call.

Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you. Don’t ever say anything was my fault ever again if you’re just going to keep coming back and being fucking rude to me. You literally make me wanna cut my hair off and scream sometimes. Then other times you make me wanna just curl into a ball and hide from the world. Fuck you.

i loved you. i don’t trust but i trusted you. when i said i would go anywhere with you, i meant it. you made me feel like an idiot for feeling the way i did. you broke my heart. and still i’d do it all again just to feel the butterflies i got when you kissed me.

I wish you could find happiness. It's kind of sad how desperate and lonely you are. Please learn to love yourself. I genuinely don't want you in my life, the thought of you actually makes me to throw up. You're not wanted so please stop humiliating yourself.

I should have known we weren't meant to be when you said you didn't want to dance in the rain with me.

I was there for you through literally everything. You knew my deepest pains. And you still chose her over me.

im literally still in love with you but i dont know how to tell you. i literally hate myself but whenever i talk to you it makes me feel so special, you make me happy. i know you dont love me back, and wont ever again but i like to think you do. i like to think you still love me like you used to. its too bad, because i would sacrifice all that i have for you. i would give my all to make you happy. youre happier with her though, and i respect that. which is why i cant tell you, because i dont want you to leave again. i cant handle it. i cant handle the thought of you hating me or seeing me differently. i just wish you were with me, beside me. im no good for you. which makes me so upset and hurt. ive learned to lose you, and i dont think i can ever afford to again. i would do anything to make you the happiest man. all i can do is drop subtle hints and pretend that i dont love you, but its so hard. this is too much for me already. i can only ever hurt you, and i dont want to.

you will always have a piece of me. i know i hurt you but i don’t think i could ever love someone else this much.

you said you loved me. you lied. but you couldn’t tell me because it was my birthday. you kissed my forehead :(

You were the worst person I have ever met. Even if I met Hitler you would still remain the worst person ever

i thought i’d never love anyone the way i loved you- and i was right. and that’s a good thing.
p.s. i hope you’re okay. maybe one day, we can be friends again. until then, stay safe.

I talked shit about you all the time. I still do. But I always end up regretting it. It'll probably keep us from ever being together again.

i'm only writing this because you'll never see it. i always liked you. for some reason i still dream about you. i think you might always be my 'what if'. i wish i had been brave enough to talk to you.

i still love you, after every single thing that you did to tear me apart, i still love you. your the reason why i’m still alive so please just love me again i promise i’ll be better.

my first REAL love. hi bubs, i know we broke up but i'm still head over heels in love with you, i didn't realise how dependent i am on you until we broke up and i feel so empty but i did it to help you, you needed this. if you ever see this and you think it's me, i love you. remember - right person, wrong timing.

you used me. you gave me hope and made me feel something. i never knew if you actually liked me or if you were using me for my body. turns out it was the latter. please stop sending false hope to girls who just want to be loved.

i love you, i don’t know what’s to come but i’m happy i met you. my first love will always be your name.

I’d date you if you didn’t snap and talk to so many girls. ik if we ever dated you’d get bored just like with sum-

you were such a good boy. you were so good. you barely barked or bit things and you loved the beach. i loved walking with you because youd always lag behind. i miss you. such a good doggie.

i dont know what i did but you changed. i wish you didnt lead me on. i wish you would just tell me you love me.

words hurt, not me but you. whenever you tear me down I build myself back up better stronger but you're still stuck on what doesnt matter
thank you for 8th grade

You’re truly something else . Sometimes I don’t know if you like me or just like the idea of having a girlfriend

i loved you for a long time after we broke up even though it was shitty but now I'm getting myself back.

i picked black because you once told me that it's your favorite color. are you falling out of love with me? im sorry im too hard to love. im really trying for you but sometimes its so hard. please be patient. i love you infinity.

how can you go from saying you like me one day to friend zoning me the next? did i do something wrong?

hey hunter. sometimes i debate whether or not i should text you. i know you were so toxic but you give me a sense of comfort sometimes. i miss facetiming you over any guy i’ve ever facetimed

Ugh I don't like him, I like you! And I kind of hate talking about my crushes with you but I do it anyway to seem normal. I almost sent this to you because I'm stoned but stopped myself.

God I fucking hate you. I hate you for leaving me and never saying anything. I miss you, you stupid bastard

i wish i could just tell you how i feel! i dont even care if you feel the same or not. i just need to get it off my chest.

i miss our saturday morning waffle house dates. i hope love has been kind to you since i’ve been gone

Even though it’s been over a year, I still think about you every day. I miss you now and it feels weird not having you, Chack

It hurts so fucking much that you used me in every way and threw me out for another girl. You will never understand the love I had in my heart 4 you...

you were better to the one that was worse for you and worse to the one that was better for you. so how do you feel?

I trusted you like no one ever before. I was there for you when no one was. I did things for you that I wouldn’t to anyone else. I loved you... but you still love her

I knew you never had feelings for me during our relationship but it really hurt to hear them say it. I’m still always gonna be here for you and love you no matter what. I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough and I’m not her, I tried my best, I’m sorry I didn’t make you laugh as much as she does. I’m hurting so much right now and all I want is to talk to you. I wish you understood how important you were to me but I never told you and now it’s too late to. Please remember me and all of our late night facetimes. I know your feelings weren’t real but I still loved you. Remember me always. ❤️

you broke up with me right before my dad died, you said i hope ur dad doesn’t hate me, but u didn’t know that my dad didn’t even know who i was

I honestly wish you would be different, you made my life just as confusing as it was before but I hate you because i love you

i want to hate you so bad, but at the same time you taught me to never hate anyone even if they hurt you.

ive left you so many of these, even though I know that you will never see them. I miss you so much. I don't think I will ever get over you. it hurts so much to see you happy without me, while I know ill never be happy if I don't have you. I love you, and I always will