Unsent messages to HENRY

i don't think our love was as great as we had thought anymore but i can't shake you until i know how you could move on so quickly

i’m so pissed at myself for liking you much. it’s been a month and you’re slowly drifting away and it’s killing me. i just need you by my side when i’m crying at night. i need you to tell me it’s going to be ok. i need you to call me every morning and every night. but you chose who you wanted and never looked at anyone else. but she’s not right for you. she’s toxic for you and you aren’t even similar to each other. i want to be your one. the one you boast about to your friends and the one you are so deeply in love with. but i know i can’t be held back by you. i need to move on and let you go. it’s going to be so hard and painful but you chose so i need to leave. i can’t stop thinking about you every night, imagining what life would be like if you were in love with me. but i have to stop. it’s only hurting me more and more. you’ve hurt so much but you don’t even know it and won’t even know. i’m going to miss you so much and i’m so sorry for loving you so much. if only you loved me back

I wish I could tell you how happy you make me, and how you light up the room everytime you come in, and how I wish I could have a chance with someone as amazing as you.

i always thought that you would come back and say you were sorry. that you missed me. that you missed us.

It killed me when you left but what made it worse was that you didn’t even have the decency to tell me why. I love you.

im starting to believe every word you tell me, please be patient with me, please dont break my heart, i promise ill make it worth it

i will always miss you. and i don't know if it was love. we knew each other for 2 months that was it so i don't think it was love. i wish i could talk to you but you left. you picked her and i hope she's great. i'm doing this blue because it is your favorite color, i remembered. i think i am moving on from you but to be completely honest it doesn't feel like it. you were my everything, my best friend and you made me feel something i had never felt. i miss you so much. please come back to me.

i’m waiting for you to come back, i know we had something real. i miss you so so much. please come back

I don't know that I've been in love yet. I'm not sure I know what love is. But if I have, It was with you.

i hate myself because i broke my yellow bracelet, the one you wore when i got distracted by its beads. it looked much better on you. everything did.

So I drown it out.. Like I always do.. Dancing through our house.. With the ghost of you.

And I chase it down.. with a shot of truth.. that my feet don't dance.. like they did with you.

I love you, Hens

I made a collection of all the lyrics that made me think of you. Even though you're gone now, I still think of you constantly. You completely changed my life.

When one has been whole once, how can they be expected to live on as a mere half?

to auras toujours mon couer.

You will always have my heart.

I love you, Hens.

I think I loved you. It's been a year and I haven't found anyone that makes me feel the way you did. Dude I think I might still love you?!

yk you didnt have to leave like cmon 7 years 7 fucking years it makes me sad thinking abt all are dumbass memories but then i remember what you did why you left...

listen it’s been very rough without you. it hurts to only get “kinda” or “ok” i know you don’t care about me. not one bit. i’m sorry. all i want is you but it would fuck me over again. if you somehow see this, text me please.

:)) i’ve liked you since fourth grade and i don’t know how but it’s never wavered, you feel like home so thank you (bell)

I wish you weren't such a cunt during our breakup. I clearly didn’t realise how manipulative you were but I never did anything wrong, I listened to you play guitar and looked into your eyes just loving every moment I spent with you until it was over. Now I have more hatred for you than I’ve ever had for anyone. Thank god I’m a better person and I hope you treat your next partner better than you treated me. Stop being soo selfish and egotistical, you’re not god and never will be

i hate you for making me fall so deeply in love with you. i hate you for making me believe i had a chance with you. i hate you for choosing her and never letting me get the chance to tell you how much i love you. i also hate myself for loving you so much and never doing anything. please just call me and tell me that you love me.

I’m sorry u chose her because i would have given u the world and more. I guess it’s too late now that you are “in love” with each other .

you’ve gone so distant these last couple days. idk what i did but pls
talk to me. its hurting im just not showing it

I can’t explain how much I like you. But you clearly like her and there’s no way I could ever be seen as better or prettier as her. I guess you’ll only ever know me as a friend.

i have this feeling we’re supposed to be together but you’re with her and she’s great. anyway enjoy you very much dude

i really wish you saw yourself the way i see you, because in my eyes you are the most beautiful human being ever. i feel like if you’d let me i could show you how worthy and amazing you truly are. even after everything we’ve been through, i still love you. i care about you so much, even though i don’t always act like it. i know you don’t like to talk about your feelings a lot, but i am always here for you if you need it. my heart will always beat for yours, i just wish yours beat for mine.

the second i can leave you, i will. i hate you. i plan to never see you again. i hope you regret everything you did.

It ended for good reason and the love is gone, but I still think of you often and get sad. It's that sweet, young, free love that I crave. It wasn't always perfect, but it was beautiful and sometimes I miss it. You healed me and broke me all at once.

one day i was upset and you asked me what was wrong and i told you that i was scared and you asked of what, i told you i was scared of losing you and you told me not to worry because i never would. you pinkie promised. and now when we walk past each other in the corridor it’s like we never met, like i don’t even exist to you. it hurts because i don’t even know what i did wrong. i dont miss dating you because i’m happier than ever right now but i miss having you in my life. i miss having my best friend.

No era mi intencion apartarme de ti pero me di cuenta que nuestro amor no seria posible y que nadie lo aceptaria, pero aun en el fondo extraño tus abrazos

i’m in love w the you from july- i miss him but knowing i’m free of his grasp is something close to relief

You were my reason to get out of bed in the morning, my reason to live. You leaving me is one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through

i don't know why i still like you. i try to tell myself i don't and that i've moved on but i keep going back to you. when you facetimed me alone again for the first time after those months i got that same feeling the first time i saw you at your house. i wanna have a relationship with you but at the same time i don't. i wanna move on.

hi, i want you back, i want u in my arms again. you're all i think about, you're all i need
- the girl u had before she came along

i think a lot about how in the future something will remind me of you and i’ll feel nostalgic, but i want to know you forever even if i means i never get to feel that

I still think about you sometimes...
even tho i don't love you anymore.
I know you're with her now but it still hurt sometimes.

there's no way it was just me. after all that? no way. but i loved you first as friends and i can't lose that.

your smile is contagious and sweet. thank you for brightening up my day, even though you dont ever realize.

Do you still remember my name? Or are we just a distant memory trapped in a cold bus, hurtling down a dark freeway?

I love your laugh so much. It fills me with such joy when I hear it. I wish I had to confidence to tell you in person or even at all.

i know you never told me you liked me but deep down i think we both knew that we wanted it to happen. but what made you choose her over me?

Hey bro I may not like you but you deserve one of these bc you always seem down and I hate that :( you’re one of my closest friends and I love the way you love cows and your music taste is just excellent, you’re such a great friend and an amazing person in general I’m so very lucky to have you :) I don’t even know if you’ll see this but if you do just know I’m always here for you ? I love you dude

i know you probably hate me, many do. but i slightly miss you. By that i mean i miss u alot but im afraid to tell you lol. i miss the way u always made sure i had eaten, made sure i was okay and if i wasnt you made me okay. i do understand why you ended it but i also believe i was partly the reason you ended it. because i dont message much or dont reply much, thats because im scared, scared to annoy u, scared to lose u, scared you think im too clingy. you make me happy and i wish id replied to just one of those texts differently to see the difference. i know i dont use the words 'i lvoe you' very often and im sorry, i used to use them as if they meant nothing but now ive noticed everytime i love someone, i lose them, which is what happened to you. the worst part about it is i also lost you as a friend too, we dont talk anymore. maybe im just harder to love and easier to leave lol :). its weird seeing ur notifs on my phone as i dont get them often but i know its going to be a simple 'replied to your story' not a 'i miss u' like im quietly hoping for. you had me looking stupid for being in love with u after u made me fall in love over the phone without meetin u. you gave me an emotional connection and thats all i ever wanted. i put you first or atleast i tried to. i know i might be hard to love, i dont even love myself so i dont blame u for not loving me either. id rather do anything, anything at all is that means id get you back instead of seeing you with her, instead of me. when you said goodnight along with '

i was so blinded by ur love that i didn’t even realise how stupid i was being. young love never works out

You’re not a good person. You’ve ruined people. Yet, you’re still on my mind. Please leave my brain alone.

I should of never continued to be friends with someone who broke me more than anyone else ever will. I’m so sad it took me so long to realise I deserved better but I’m even more sad that I still think about you.

i dont know if youre just using me or if you actually like me but istg boy if you break me I'm never going to believe in love again

did u even like me during the months we spent together? or was i just another one of ur monthly girls

i know you "love her", but the way we talk is more than friendship. and i feel crazy waiting for you to realize that. dump her so i can have my soulmate back. i love you more than all the love in your fucked up relationship with her. i'm still in love with you. always remember that. always and forever.

u told me that u loved me and right after that i saw a vid about when someone says ily theyre gettimg ready to leave u. i didnt want to believe it until i got the text from u. i miss you.

You were my first crush and we were so little but when I look at the moon I always wonder if you are seeing it too. hope we can meet again xoxo allison

you did everything right and i did everything wrong, i loved our time together and im so thankful i got to know you.

I've spent months wondering what I could have done, or said. I was so confused. I do care about you. I want to be more than friends, I miss you and should have let you know sooner. I was scared, it's hard for me to trust. There's a lot you don't know...