Unsent Messages

i know you probably hate me, many do. but i slightly miss you. By that i mean i miss u alot but im afraid to tell you lol. i miss the way u always made sure i had eaten, made sure i was okay and if i wasnt you made me okay. i do understand why you ended it but i also believe i was partly the reason you ended it. because i dont message much or dont reply much, thats because im scared, scared to annoy u, scared to lose u, scared you think im too clingy. you make me happy and i wish id replied to just one of those texts differently to see the difference. i know i dont use the words 'i lvoe you' very often and im sorry, i used to use them as if they meant nothing but now ive noticed everytime i love someone, i lose them, which is what happened to you. the worst part about it is i also lost you as a friend too, we dont talk anymore. maybe im just harder to love and easier to leave lol :). its weird seeing ur notifs on my phone as i dont get them often but i know its going to be a simple 'replied to your story' not a 'i miss u' like im quietly hoping for. you had me looking stupid for being in love with u after u made me fall in love over the phone without meetin u. you gave me an emotional connection and thats all i ever wanted. i put you first or atleast i tried to. i know i might be hard to love, i dont even love myself so i dont blame u for not loving me either. id rather do anything, anything at all is that means id get you back instead of seeing you with her, instead of me. when you said goodnight along with '