Unsent messages to ERIK
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: September 11, 2023, 5:52 am UTC
you made me feel so bad about myself and there are 1,234 reasons i shouldn’t miss you but i still do
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: August 30, 2023, 4:10 am UTC
you absolutely destroyed me and how i feel about myself
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: August 27, 2023, 5:32 pm UTC
I can't even remember your face anymore
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: August 17, 2023, 9:39 pm UTC
I will never forget you. Please don’t forget me either.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: July 23, 2023, 7:29 pm UTC
i wish you didn't ruin everything we had.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: July 18, 2023, 8:29 pm UTC
I hope you get the mental help you deserve.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: July 18, 2023, 1:46 am UTC
I miss the boy I dated but we both know that’s not u anymore.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: July 16, 2023, 10:08 pm UTC
it feels different now but i still love u
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: July 12, 2023, 10:46 pm UTC
I should have believed your ex’s and not you.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: July 12, 2023, 9:01 pm UTC
I see you in everybody. Please come back to me
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 13, 2021, 7:30 am UTC
i loved u so much, i loved u. why did u leave? why did u cheat? did i do something wrong? so many questions for u. waiting for u to text me again and hoping we can figure this out, u left with no explanation. nothing at all, u just blocked me, u were the only thing keeping me alive, and u knew that, u made me feel good when u would kiss my scars and tell me they were beautiful. sorry i’m not her. sorry erik i’ll be better. i miss u, i miss u so much. i love u still but u don’t, it’s been hard without u, i started self harm again, i still read back our texts and cry, i still look at our photos and wonder why u did this. i’m sorry erik
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 12, 2021, 5:43 pm UTC
i thought that maybe staying friends would hurt you less, but it didn’t. i’m so sorry. i wasn’t ready
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 12, 2021, 6:32 am UTC
i've liked you since 2nd grade lol i wish i could tell you, whether you feel the same or not. pretending that i feel indifferent towards you is really hard but its the right thing for me to do.
p.s.: rose golden
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 11, 2021, 6:29 pm UTC
I hate the way that sometimes when I lay in bed I think of what we could’ve been if you weren’t such a gigantic cactus fucking shithead
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 8, 2021, 5:05 am UTC
I wish I told you the truth two years ago. That I have no idea what I want and no idea if I’m even ready to be with somebody but I know I want to figure it out with you.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 7, 2021, 11:26 pm UTC
I loved you so much, and I thought you did too. but you went out trying to look for someone saying I was just your friend from 5th grade. and even if you sexually assaulted me I forgave you I tried making things work I tried my best and it hurt me when you said you tried because you never did. did you even like me? or were you just bored? you hurt me more than ill ever let you know
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 4, 2021, 11:48 pm UTC
Never thought I would submit this to a website instead of sending this to you. Back then I missed you. Now I don’t ever want to see you or your stupid face again.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 3, 2021, 1:21 am UTC
i wish you realized how much you affected me and I may have hid things from you, but I wanted to talk about them to you on that day. i loved you.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 2, 2021, 2:50 am UTC
everyone has a crush they never really get over, you’re mine. i liked you for a couple months in 2019. i gave up on it and convinced myself i didn’t have an attraction towards you anymore. since we barely had classes together and we stopped speaking it was pretty easy, but you were always in the back of my mind. once we came back to school this year and i saw you in my class, i knew what was going to happen. even now we don’t really speak but when we do, it means something to me. last year i was a rude and horrible person and i destroyed a ton of relationships with people i cared a lot about. ive apologized numerous times and i still do but no one looks at me the same anymore, but you’re the exact same as when we used talk. you’re still polite, you’re still a goof, you’re still cordial, and i don’t know how you do it. we don’t really speak but when we do you make it feel so important. i’m never going to get to tell you this because i know it would end like it did in our first year of school together, but if you’re reading this, hey
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 1, 2021, 12:17 pm UTC
i miss every phone call , every conversation. You made me feel so special and loved . I’ve never felt like that before . You’re the most special person in my life and i mean it . Maybe if i was there for u more or something things would’ve ended up different but now ur with her . now all i feel is emptiness . i’m so sorry
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 1, 2021, 7:51 am UTC
i always want the best for u but u being with her hurts me more than anything , everyday i wish i never left
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: January 1, 2021, 12:26 am UTC
I’ve liked you for what seems like forever (well practically my whole life so) and I really wish I could tell you but I can’t. Sometimes I think you might feel the same way about me but other times I’m not so sure. Also that girl was right, you do have really nice hair. I’d say more but you’ll probably never even see this so there is no point.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 31, 2020, 6:48 pm UTC
My self respect is too much to handle someone who only cares about my body. Maybe in another life after we are both done growing. Much love, I really hope we can be friends?
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 31, 2020, 8:08 am UTC
you make me incredibly happy, you’re my person, my rock. I’m just always scared of losing you to someone else and I just want you and you only. I hope you want to be with me 100% and feel the same way towards me.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 30, 2020, 9:55 pm UTC
you taught me how to detach from things. how to not care about anyone or anything. how to not react or feel feelings towards people. now i’m able to do this with anyone else, except you. sometimes i still wish you could’ve made an exception. i wonder if you still cry in 3 minute intervals.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 28, 2020, 2:15 am UTC
i know you like me. i don't want to make the first move because i am afraid, not of you but the fact you may not like the way my lips press into yours, the way i would lose myself in you. i am afraid if i give you my all i wont get your all in return. oh how i want to lay under the stars with you, talking about the world like it is new to us. i feel as if i give to you, you may not enjoy my pain that comes with my love. i am afraid.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 21, 2020, 8:59 am UTC
I always find myself writing letters to u or messages but I would never actually tell u it in person but I think im in love with you even if you don't feel the same way, you'll always have a special place in my heart.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 16, 2020, 6:30 am UTC
Hey, ik this is weird for me to text you but how have u been. I hope you're doing well. I miss you. I know this is fucking weird but I do. I miss telling you about my day and our little inside jokes we had. How's Alex. I miss him. I know you love her and that's why I didn't want to text you because you finally found someone who makes you happy. This might be crazy for you but you were my first love. The first person I really fell in love with. And Ik we didn't date for that long but I really appreciated you can loved you. Even when you were with Esme I still loved you. When we ended thing the first time and we didn't talk I still loved you. Fucking hell its been 2 years later and I still fucking love you. You've done be dirty so many times but at the end of the day I was always there for you and loved you. And the thing that hurts the most is that YOU were my first love but I wasn't YOURS. That's what hurts the most. Because I really loved you but you were never there for me . You were the first person I trusted with my FUCKING body and my deep darkest secrets and still you decided to treat me like absolute shit. I miss you. I will remember the day we started talking and the first moment we became friends. It was a Monday.When we first talked in person it was so awkward. I didn't care who knew we were together. Bro I even fucking told my mom about you. You met my fucking nephew! Did you ever cheat on me? Ik you had a lot of girl bsf when we dated and you would go to their soccer games and I trusted you that's why I never said anything. But did you ever cheat on me?Well I miss and love you a lot. I wish we had never ended things and I wish we were still friends or at least talked. I'm Sorry Erik. I forgive you for all the pain that you've cost me
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 12, 2020, 2:40 am UTC
jag vill verkligen kunna lita på dig vill 100% för jag älskar verkligen dig, men jag är bara så rädd för att du ska göra något med någon annan. du är hela min värld och du gör så jag faktiskt klarar av att vara kvar här på jorden. men jag har bara svårt och lita på dig, jag har bara en inre röst och en inre tanke som får mig att tänka att du inte älskar mig på samma sätt som jag älskar dig. Jag behöver dig mer än något annat hjärtat snälla lämna mig inte. du är den ända som får mig att gå upp på morgonen och får mig att gå igenom ännu en dag, vecka och månad. om du lämnar mig så vet jag inte vart jag ska ta vägen längre, du r allt för mig.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 8, 2020, 11:17 pm UTC
You manipulated me when I was at my lowest point but chose to blame it on me instead. say that being around me was uncomfortable to you. was it uncomfortable to be around the girl you absolutely shattered? being around the girl you manipulated for your own gain? did it feel good to get everyone on your side and leave me without anyone to lean on? the amount of time I spent crying over you is ridiculous. I hate you and for what you made me go through. It wasn't even that that made it so terrible. it was the fact that you came back into my life pretending like it was all alright and lying to my face about how you feel about me. and I will always hate you for that. I hope you experience the pain I had to go through. I hope you're happy you fucking home wrecker
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 8, 2020, 6:43 am UTC
I'm sorry I was such an asshole in high school. I think you could tell I was going through some shit and you were always so kind to me, but I always pushed you away. And I'm sorry for that. I wish I could tell you that, at least. I didn't want you or anyone else to find out how I really felt because I knew you didn't feel the same. You always said I hated you, and you were right in a way. I hate the fact that I can't get you out of my fucking head. Even though it's been a year since I talked to you or even see you, I still fucking think about you. I can literally see that stupid scar on your face when I close my eyes, and the dreams are even fucking worse. I wish I could have told you, but I know you and your girlfriend are happy now. I'm never going to get to tell you any of this in person, so I'll say it here. I hope you live that happy, normal life you always wanted. I wish I could have been a part of it.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 7, 2020, 11:04 pm UTC
i’m in love with you so bad you don’t even know but i’ll never know how you fully feel and that scares me so much
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 7, 2020, 7:48 pm UTC
Siempre te he querido y siempre te querré, se que tú no sientes lo mismo pero estaré una y mil vidas hasta que te enamores de mi
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 7, 2020, 7:30 pm UTC
i wish u could just be vulnerable and open with me for once :( it sucks to feel like i'm the only one trying here
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 7, 2020, 6:57 pm UTC
i love and miss you so much bub, i wish we worked out, hopefully we find a way back to eachother. thank you for everything
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: December 7, 2020, 3:56 am UTC
I'll never stop thinking about what we could've been if things had just been different. I'll love you forever.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 24, 2020, 8:57 am UTC
From the first time I saw you I knew I would love you. You’re the boy in the button down that took my heart.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 24, 2020, 8:51 am UTC
I’ve told everyone I’ve moved on, but I’m starting to think I haven’t. I haven’t loved anyone since you.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 24, 2020, 8:49 am UTC
I wrote a song about you today. I wish you could hear it. But I think you hate me now. I still miss you.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 22, 2020, 4:15 am UTC
well ur never gonna see this so here it goes, i love u so much. sometimes i just let my feelings get the best of me and i fuck up a whole lot, i just hope we work out and i dont fuck it up all over again cuz i rly think ur the one.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 22, 2020, 1:36 am UTC
i'm in love with you but don't seem to care. i try my best but its never enough. i've written you letters, asked how your day was every chance i get, i even ask if youve eaten because i care so much. but another girl, with a tiny waist, button nose, and gorgeous hazel eyes will catch your attention
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 21, 2020, 9:00 am UTC
You hate me, I know after all I’ve done to you. I have to pretend that I hate you too but the truth is I’m actually deeply in love with you
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:56 pm UTC
You’re seriously the worst friend to exist. All you think about is yourself. That’s how you lost your ex and all your “good” friends.
From: ABC
To: Erik
Date: November 20, 2020, 9:22 am UTC
Hola Erik, me pone muy triste saber que nunca te vas a fijar en mi. He intentado miles de veces abrir conversación contigo para poder conocernos mejor pero tu desinterés ya me lo dice todo. El otro dia te envié un ultimo mensaje al que nunca me respondisté. Solo decirte que me gustas mucho mucho mucho. He decir que me parece raro no soñar contigo porque me obligado a mi misma a olvidarte. Espero que te vaya muy bien la vida, te quiero
