Unsent Messages

I'm sorry I was such an asshole in high school. I think you could tell I was going through some shit and you were always so kind to me, but I always pushed you away. And I'm sorry for that. I wish I could tell you that, at least. I didn't want you or anyone else to find out how I really felt because I knew you didn't feel the same. You always said I hated you, and you were right in a way. I hate the fact that I can't get you out of my fucking head. Even though it's been a year since I talked to you or even see you, I still fucking think about you. I can literally see that stupid scar on your face when I close my eyes, and the dreams are even fucking worse. I wish I could have told you, but I know you and your girlfriend are happy now. I'm never going to get to tell you any of this in person, so I'll say it here. I hope you live that happy, normal life you always wanted. I wish I could have been a part of it.