Unsent Messages

Hey, ik this is weird for me to text you but how have u been. I hope you're doing well. I miss you. I know this is fucking weird but I do. I miss telling you about my day and our little inside jokes we had. How's Alex. I miss him. I know you love her and that's why I didn't want to text you because you finally found someone who makes you happy. This might be crazy for you but you were my first love. The first person I really fell in love with. And Ik we didn't date for that long but I really appreciated you can loved you. Even when you were with Esme I still loved you. When we ended thing the first time and we didn't talk I still loved you. Fucking hell its been 2 years later and I still fucking love you. You've done be dirty so many times but at the end of the day I was always there for you and loved you. And the thing that hurts the most is that YOU were my first love but I wasn't YOURS. That's what hurts the most. Because I really loved you but you were never there for me . You were the first person I trusted with my FUCKING body and my deep darkest secrets and still you decided to treat me like absolute shit. I miss you. I will remember the day we started talking and the first moment we became friends. It was a Monday.When we first talked in person it was so awkward. I didn't care who knew we were together. Bro I even fucking told my mom about you. You met my fucking nephew! Did you ever cheat on me? Ik you had a lot of girl bsf when we dated and you would go to their soccer games and I trusted you that's why I never said anything. But did you ever cheat on me?Well I miss and love you a lot. I wish we had never ended things and I wish we were still friends or at least talked. I'm Sorry Erik. I forgive you for all the pain that you've cost me