Unsent messages to ERICK

you said you love me, why cant i feel it?

I wish I’m the only girl. Do you really love and care about me?

i wish you cared enough

your words hurt a lot

i'm madly in love with you, can't you see it?

I wish,I could tell you I like you.

i wish you came back.

You make me feel like a fool waiting for you

The dark brown in your eyes makes me feel warm inside

i chew my lip around u to calm myself from wanting to kiss u

I wonder if you really loved me. I loved you.

i want to trace your features and kiss your head gently

are you even sorry?

sometimes i think about texting u ricky

I do not know what we have been for two years, selling us a story that only remains between the four walls of your house and the multiple exits, always in love with you while you look at someone else, I do not know what to think about this because I know you love me but no more than her right? because you give me things and sell me sweet lies if there is never a conclusion, don't you hear how I cry every fucking night thinking that I love you more than I probably should, what do you think about this, would you mind losing me? because you made me love you so much to the point where I could never not want to choose you, to the point where I know that I will always look for you in all the other kisses I have in this life to give, I love you so much that I hate never being able to hate you because that would certainly be easier.

Sé que no eres mi primer amor pero eres con él primero que me sentí de esta forma, siempre me trasmitías tranquilidad y seguridad contigo me atreví a hacer esas cosas a las que siempre les temí, eres "mi primera vez", seguimos juntos estoy consiente, pero porque siento que cada vez nos alejamos más y lo peor de todo es que a pesar de que sienta que ya no estoy en tus prioridades aunque me digas que sí, que ahora pase a ser tu segunda maldita puta opción, soy terca y creo que esos pequeños gestos de amor son verdaderos y lo siento así, te e llegado a amar demasiado pero me aterra la idea de que llegue a depender de ti, y llegar a ser tu obra de caridad, te extraño demasiado, entiendo que las relaciones cambian con el tiempo no todo siempre va a tener que ser color rosa, pero eso no quiere decir que las muestras de afecto, las llamadas, los días juntos, las cosas planeadas o las salidas vayan a tener que cambiar y eso es lo que me duele que a pesar de que yo a veces este más ocupada que tú siempre me de un tiempo para ti cada vez que me lo pidas, pero cuando yo lo hago solo metes cualquier tipo de excusa, excusas que solo las tienes para mí no sé si lo haces con el afán de cansarme o porque sabes que a pesar de todo yo estaré ahí si me lo pides, quisiera decirte esto, pero, tengo miedo de que lo tomes a mal y que las cosas se pongan peor, la verdad es que no te quiero perder, eres una de las mejores personas que e podido conocer y eso que estoy consiente de tus defectos y los reconozco, solo pido tenerte un poco más conmigo, sentir que aún me amas y me ves como los primeros meses, no sé, tal vez solo quiero una dosis de lo que solíamos ser junto con lo que logramos formar y consolidar hasta el momento...

Tu rechazo me quemó las entrañas, mi alma estaba calzinada, me dejaste arder en llamas, ahora dime cariño que se siente ahogarse en lágrimas?

you were someone that stopped the pain, erick. you made so much of it go away. all you did when you left was bring it back and i hate you for that.

ik we never dated, in fact you are one of my “almosts” but it hurt to watch you leave, even more when you left without a reason. the worst part is i think i’m actually losing you this time. and as much as i don’t want there to be an us after what you’ve put me through, i still don’t want to let go.

“one of the worst things you can do to someone that loves you is come into their life, make them believe you’re completely into them, and then leave. Do you realize the heartbreak you cause someone when you do that? And then if that isn’t enough, a few months down the line you send them “I miss you” texts or call them to tell them how much you miss them, so they won’t forget you. It’s as if you know when that person is about to move on but here you go again trying to mess things up.”

you noticed when i was okay, when the way i texted changed, did you notice how much pain i was in when you left?

bro tbh I saw a message and I thought it was from you to me, but then i realized you give no shits about me and I never got the closure I deserved. You’re the only person i truly opened up to after my ex and it hurt that you “moved on” so easily! I wish we established something or at least said what we were doing because I was left so confused and still am till this day. I blocked you on everything because it hurt seeing your name and till this day my heart stings a little. I wish I never attached myself to you but it is what it is. I appreciate all the memes u sent me because everyone says my memes are fire and I’m just like I know :) I broke my red bracelet, do you still have yours? ur face is always gonna be cuter & i love your dimples

You did things to me that after years I still can't understand and overcome.
It's sad that I still think of you with love.

you’re a fucking asshole and i hope u know that. you’re a fucking piece of shit but i can’t wish that anything bad happens to you. and yk what next time you have smthn to say don’t even post that shit on ur story just tell me straight up. i almost had a fucking scar on my arm because of you. you’ve caused me so much fucking pain and i hate you for it. YOU KNOW how easily i get attached and you still do all that shit to me. piece of shit and i hope all your hoes know that. you’re not worth their time

I’m officially retiring the name stink. I hope you find what you’re looking for. Thanks for making me spend New Years alone.

I really do miss you and sadly i am still in love with you. Sometimes when i am faced with a scent that reminds me of you and all the memories of us comes rolling back in. I hate it but I’ve grown accustomed to how happy those memories make me. We weren’t good for each other and I finally understand that but maybe you could’ve told me the truth since the beginning instead of letting me see day by day you falling out of love. All I wanted was honesty not you to betray my trust like that with someone who was once my best friend. And despite me knowing all this information I miss you and still love you. I understand we can’t get back together but sometimes I wish we could. Maybe I’m an idiot for wanting to try again but it’s just so hard to fully let you go

Todavia te amo y quisiera arreglar las cosas contigo,todo lo que sucedio no estaba a mi alcanse y era algo que desde luego he aprendido de ello.Espero que te valla super bien en todo.

it took a week for you to get over me no wonder your answer was “not long”. fuck you. fucking asshole.

No se la verdad siento que todo te lo puedo haber dicho, agradezco por que se que siempre vas a estar para mi, tengo que confesar que las veces que hemos hablado son los peores momentos en los que he estado, siento que a veces no te doy el lugar que te mereces. A veces me gustaria que yo fuera una de tus prioridades por que me haces sentir querida, pero otra veces no lo deseo por que me gusta lo mismo que a ti.. la libertad, te quiero y quiero que sepas que detras de todas las personas que me han roto el corazon tu has estado detras de mi con llamadas y solo no queria confesarlo, pero no lo digo por que siento que cada vez que hablamos no quiero cagarla por que me enamoro de vos jajajaja por que hablar contigo hace que me sienta diferente ya que me das la atencion que me merezco.

fuck you. from the bottom of my heart, fuck you. how could you possibly think leaving then coming back like nothing happened is okay? don’t you realize how much pain you left me in. i saw about 3 different girls in the span of 5 months and still, i’d hoped you genuinely cared. what the fuck did i even mean to you. and fuck yeah if you think this is about you, it fucking is. you saw this shit on my priv. get this into your head. you’re a piece of shit. you go around thinking you’re hot shit but you’re not. fuck you. i don’t even know why i still care. you’re not worth the pain.

I’ll never know if you feel the same way because i could never face you with it but i love you. that’s simply it. there will always be a part of me that will no matter how i may come across or how far we might grow in the future. you’ve changed me. thank you.

It hurt me when it was so easy for you to walk away. I’ve never recovered from the pain and I still think about you often. I hope ur well..

hi if u see this u know who it is. ur good person but i don’t think we were ever meant to be. maybe another time.

seeing you follow those girls make me insecure, you even called them attractive. that crushed my heart and I'll never forget that.

Nose si definirte como mi primer amor, pero si el niño con el que quise aprender a bailar y por mis miedos no lo pude hacer...BUENA SUERTE

I hope you see this. I hope someone pops into your head when you read this. Who would write this? If you think of someone... Text them. They'll be waiting.

Eres esa persona que mando Dios, el universo, el destino o lo que sea, a mi vida para enseñarme que no se puede tener todo. El encontrarte me enseño a no decirle al niño que realmente me gusta que lo hace, pensé en hacerlo pero de haberlo hecho sé que habría mandado lo que tenemos a la mierda y aunque mi propósito al querer conocerte no era el ser tu amiga, en serio que amo serlo, amo saber que tengo alguien que me comprende hasta en mi más estúpido pensamiento y que no me juzgaría jamás por nada. Se que eres alguien en quien puedo confiar, con quien puedo reír y llorar 24/7, si alguien me brinda apoyo incondicional, me anima a hacer lo que sea, eres tú. Eres increíble, mereces el mundo entero. Y dejo esto aquí porque de alguna manera tendría que sacarlo.

Then we had it all, but you let it go. We could have had all what we dream about. You're the only one I really like. I don't hate you, I still love u but not in the way it used to be.

you were my first kiss and I can't get rid of how you held me. I miss those times but sometimes I realize why the fuck do I want to fall in love with a drug dealer. You used me for sexual things and to get with my ex best friend.

Nunca te necesite. Anda, vete con ella. No me llames y no vengas a verme. Seguiré siendo feliz sin ti.

i've never wished for something before. and when i had, they were all unneeded things. but now... if i could have ONE wish- it would be for him to say he loved me again.

That was our last time saying I love you. I miss you already but I know it’s for the better. I’m hoping we can get back together in the future but I don’t know if that’s what you want. I don’t even know what’s going through your head right now. I just don’t want to lose you. I can write so much more but that’s all for now. I love you and miss us so much.

I never told you that I loved you. You were my best friend and it broke me whenever we stopped talking. I just wish you could've seen how much I cared for you. The sad thing is that I still care for you. You are always on my mind and I can't help it. I wish I could tell you how I felt about you but I am too scared.

thank you for still giving me the time of day and checking up on me. i really am glad you’re happy, just a little sad i’m not the reason. take care of yourself for me, please. :)

I met you at school and you were pretty chill I guess. just joking, you are cool and I liked you lots!

u meant a lot to me. te amo y te extrañare un chingo. no te olivdare my love. have a good life, I will always cheer you on. maybe in another life we are meant to be ... with love, S

Hey, B. Maybe if we can meet in another life, things will be different. For now, you deserve happiness.

Has cambiado y hay cosas que ya no pasan que extraño mucho. Te quiero muchísimo y en serio no quiero perderte de ninguna manera pero no te siento igual que antes.

No quiero seguir sintiendo que soy la única que se enamoró y cada vez que te escucho decirme "amiga" se me hace un nudo en el estómago y me entran ganas de llorar.

Hola, ya han pasado un tiempo? Ya te olvidaste de mí?... Supongo que sí, porque nunca te importo preguntar ni una sola vez por mí para ver si estaba bien o no... No la he pasado bien, y justo hoy cuando mas te necesitaba ya no estabas... Dijiste que siempre ibas a estar ahí, pero miranos... Ahora solo somos completos desconocidos... Te extraño kvrg
Pero sinceramente ya no quiero verte nunca mas en mi vida! Te amé te amé demasiado, que estaba dispuesta a ir contra todo el mundo... Pero quien salió perdiendo fuiste tú, no yo.