Unsent messages to ERIC

you are very very very cute

you confuse me. i love you.

i hope our stories aren’t over.

To the moon and Saturn.

i genuinely want you in my future.

Papa. I’ve forgotten your voice and the memories are fading

i hope ur doing well and we can forget each other one day ml.

Why did you have to break up with me a day before my birthday.

i miss how carefree i was when you were around.

i missed how you loved me back then

i wish u would understand how much u have hurt me

i wish you’d stayed

Thank you for the happiest year of my life. I really miss you.

youll always be special to me

i love you so much, more than you could ever imagine

I just want to feel loved by you right now.

Hey, I love you to the moon and back. Hope you’re doing well.

your eyes are the kindest eyes I've ever seen

why were you so ashamed to know me

You really hurt me man. I don’t even know where to begin….

your brown eyes made me forget there were any other colors

i wish you felt how i felt that day.

I wish you’d realise i really did love you.

you destroyed my self esteem

“Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first.”

i love you. i just wish you wouldn’t lie to me.

i wish i knew you liked me sooner..

i love you, i always will but-

I’m sorry for everything I love you
But you love her

i don’t know why you made those promises to me

I felt absolute freedom whenever we drove around without a destination. You meant it when you said we'd do that again... Right?

I am nobody and you are everyone. I’m no one to you, but I see bits of you in every single person I meet. It hurts.

Whenever you were sad you used to try to hurt my feelings. But i saw through your masked attempts and listened to you. I don't know who made you feel difficult to love but it's not true. Because with every attempt you made to be hurtful, you were testing my limit to love you. You wanted to prove to be an asshole so you could justify it to yourself when i would walk away, or so you thought. I remember the first time i stayed and you cried. You finally realized there wasnt a thing you could do that would get me to walk away from you. You never wanted to prove yourself right, you wanted someone to prove you wrong. You wanted someone to choose you. You wanted someone who made you feel easy to love. Now that we're apart i hope that stays with you. If you need another lesson, I'll be around

I saw you broken and helped you pick up the pieces. You saw me whole and tore me apart. 8 years later and I am strong and free from your grasp at last, but every once and a while I still feel a tug on my soul wondering how you are.

We broke up on new year's and i remember when you called me to ask if i got my new years kiss. I laughed yes and you were quiet. You got a kiss too and told me you wish it had been me. Frankly i wished that too. I miss you terribly. Be safe in the army. I'm always thinking of you

i love you more than all the stars, the ones you can see and the ones you can’t. i love you for infinity

im sorry we ended the way we did and im sorry i couldnt hang out more but mainly im sorry i let you hurt me

Even if u never return, I’d rather wait for u vs search for u in everyone else I meet. Alone w/out u is better than settling for ‘not u’

i heard from a friend that you liked me last year, funny enough i liked you two years ago. sometimes i think about fucking you but with no romantic interest. it feels like a shitty thing to do.

i want to see you again, i miss you so much. i know it’s impossible for us to be together, but i want you

I love you so much. I like to sleep in your clothes to remember what it was like to sleep with you again. I'm sorry for hurting you

i loved and still love u so much. i'm learning to move on everyday – move on from old strings of resentment and hurt, even though we never dated. although i'm still healing, i want to let u know that i'll never forget quebec. thank you for making my heart happy and warm; u were my favorite first love. u made everyone that had come before u a mere infatuation. i hope u the best in ur current relationship. make her the happiest girl alive.

I cant tell whether you love me platonically or romantically anymore. But just know that I love you so much more than just a friend.

I know it's not your real name. I hate how you were right that forever friends don't exist. I wanted to prove you wrong, but I couldn't. If I knew we wouldn't be forever friends, I would have told you I liked you.

I wish you would have let me go instead of holding me tight in your arms, where only you could have me. I needed to be set free to truly grow. I know you loved me, but love is letting go sometimes.

I hope that 2021 is good to you. I hope you have so much success and find happiness bc you deserve it. I think about you sometimes, and I just wanted to say I’m sorry for all the shit we went thru and thank u for the good times too

Wish we didn’t have to be together under the situations we were. There’s something so different about you and I hate you for making me see that and then leaving.

I'm sorry for the things I did. I was young and dumb. You were nothing but good to me. I wish you nothing but the best.

I really need to let this go but I just don’t know how to. All I wanted was closure and you never gave it to me. Why did u send me those songs? Why’d u only text me when u were drunk? Was it because of your ego? I hate you so much.

10 years later & i still love you. green was your fav color. maybe in a different world we would be together. xo, a