Unsent messages to EDDIE

You were like an older sibling to me man, I miss you

I still kinda like u and ur freckles

i just wanted to heal you.. you chose her

i hope i ruined frank ocean for u

i wish we were still friends

I just hope you’re happy.

I miss you

hi so im gonna type all my feelings away and never think about you again. over the past year ive thought about you a lot and i have no idea why. the thing is i know you havent even thought about me in years, and if you saw me now you probably wouldnt even recognise me. i just felt like we had something, maybe i was imagining it because i was so immature but we got on so well and i was always happy around you, you could effortlessly make me laugh and i loved that. anyway, i guess i realised that we have completely different lives and it was stupid of me to think we were somehow meant to be. i feel pretty stupid honestly, knowing that you have probably already found someone new and if you ever were to read this, you would think that a thousand other people had written it before you thought of me, cause im like a little sister to you right? god okay well at least ive said it all now, and honestly, i think a little part of me will always want us to be together, even when i find someone new and im scared of that because i need to move on but i really cant. and now when i next see you, whenever that may be, ill shut you off because i dont want to become attached again when secretly all i want is to spend every minute of my day with you. ive deleted and rewritten this so many times because i dont want to stop thinking about you but this is it, i love you goodbye

how come i was never good enough for you we were friends for 5 years but still ended up leaving what did i do wrong?

you broke me when you decided to walk out of my life when nothing was my fault. its been three months and i am still completely broken and it gets worse everyday.

i wish that the pains of your past weren’t affecting what we could have been. i wish i was worth the risk.

Do you remember Dear day? Do you remember the way you used to hold my hand? Do you remember the days where we just joked around with eachother? I miss them.

Sometimes it’s really unfair. You say you know & that you understand, but I don’t think you really know.

u hurt me. i forgave u. u left. i waited, u came back. and hurt me again. but unfortunately for me i still love u.

We have known each other since we were little and I have always felt such a strong connection with you. You made me laugh until I wanted to cry and made me smile until my cheeks were burning. You were kind and caring. People would ask you out a couple times u said yes and I sat there watching. I could never tell u how I feel. Now we drifted we don't talk just a streak on snap with a wall. I have to move on because I can't stay stuck. See ya..

Eddie I hope you’re okay. Even though you are far away I still miss you bro. I’m glad we still talk though, that makes me happy. Also if you ever come back I will be taking ur ankles :) lol Thank you for being my friend.

orange reminds me of you. sometimes i think about texting you. i know i hurt you, i was in a bad place and it wasn’t fair of me to stay so i had to leave.

i wonder if you ever liked me i think you did and when you asked me out apart of me wishes i said yes but i’ll what i want but sometimes i feel like we could be together

merry Christmas. I hope you and your family had a great day. im sorry for being so hot and cold. im just so nervous that you're talking to other girls or don't want me back. please reach out and let me know how you feel, good or bad. I just want to understand. I loved you since the day I met you, I hope you know that.

i loved you. as my friend, and more than a friend, you played on my emotions to use me just for your own enjoyment m. you destroyed me but i miss u.

you keep coming back to me which is why I know you still want me. please just tell me you love me already. I love you too and I would take you back in a heartbeat. I just want you to understand that.

It’s not fair that people had someone as perfect as you. I look at your innocent green eyes and I just want to fall deep into them. It’s a shame for whoever let go of that pretty face because that face is the closest thing anyone will ever get to an angel. It’s always a struggle not to lose my self control around you, because I wouldn’t hesitate to ask you if we weren’t the same gender. God, you don’t know how much this sucks. I wanna be yours.

u dumb bitch i loved u. and now ur going with that other chic bc shes more popular please i was going to give u my whole world and u ditched me bc i had one fight with ur two gf's. now ur ghosting me LMAO chile bye.

something tells me we have something different this time and this time, you're going to stay...for a long long time

you've really changed and matured since the last time we've spoken. im proud of you. even if we aren't together, I am still happy to call you my friend. maybe, in another life, we'll be right for each other

I love you. I love you so much and I thought I was over you. I try my best every day not to romanticize about us being together. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm not her. I'm sorry that I'm not pretty enough or that I'm not funny enough. I just want to hug you, a long ass hug. Your hugs, make me feel so loved. But I know you don't love me. Not in the slightest.

I miss u sooo much. & we r not even official. pls write to me. I want to talk to u. don't give up on me

I miss our love and when you used to care and when you'd post me without asking me, and I miss holding your hand there's so much I miss about you, your voice you meant the most to me. I wish you were still that way, you helped me out through so much you were always there for me, those late night calls even though you left me, you cared I wish you were to stay that way..I miss our love the most, what we had was something I never had, with anybody else. we'd always talk about how you'd want me to come over and even though I have strict parents you'd say you would be patient with me. I appreciated that alot. I miss you alot, and I love you I wish you the best you deserve it, im slowly loosing myself but that's fine, I hate being strangers once again with you. But it's always been this way. You'll always have a special place in my heart I love you

i loved you so much, and i still do. it hurts to know that you're doing fine without me, and that you've found someone new. was it really just bad timing, or was i just a joke to you? i wish i could give up on you, but its so hard. i hate you so much for leaving me, but i love you and i hope you're happy. thank you for the wonderful memories

We have no classes never talk, but somehow I am in love with you. No matter how hard I try I can't get over you.

i just want u to know i never meant to hurt u and im sorry. i dont regret any of our relationship and i will forever and always love you.

I feel like you ruined my life but I miss you more than anything, But I cannot believe you did those things with multiple females, making me feel horrible. I thought what we did was special and sacred, but every time I see something it reminds me of you in a way. I’m sorry for being toxic but you ruined me and now I can’t believe you’re gone, as if our relationship never happened. You were the love of my life and now I hate you so much but miss you. I can’t deal with this anymore.

you were seriously so perfect for me. I miss you everyday. I sit here waiting for you to come back. you always do.

I don’t know if I loved you or if I loved the idea of you. I don’t know which one I’d rather either, but the you I knew was the best thing that’s happened to me. Text me first.

you made me feel like I wasn't good enough for you but at the same time i just wanted to be around you because you made me so happy

i think about you way too often for my own good. you make me feel so warm and it's weird and i hate it but i love you. i tell you that i love you so much and yet i don't think you could ever understand just how true it is

Why me? Why prey on me out of every female in the world. I was 13! 13! And scared for my life now ill never get my life back

Im sorry for ever hurting you and how we broke up, you will always be my first love even when I hate to admit it

i miss you but not this you, the you that wasn’t such an asshole. i hope whoever you’re with breaks you the way you broke me and that you try and win me back. i thought it was gonna be us till the end but i guess not. i hate that i still love you and i always wait for a text from you saying you made a mistake. i hate you kiddo.

i miss you bro. i miss our memories that we had even if there little. i wish i could of got a hug one more time.. i just don’t wanna hurt again that’s all, you have showed me so much but hurt me a lot and u don’t even know.. i just want us back but i don’t wanna risk me losing myself again.

i miss you every time you’re not around. i fall in love with every smile, every text, every ride in your old truck. i’m sorry if i doubt you sometimes, but you always make sure i’m okay. and i love you for that.

i just realized you never once apologized for what you did to me. the words “i’m sorry” never came out of your mouth, and i think it’s because you never were. i loved you, asshole. you knew that, took advantage of that because you felt shitty about yourself, and then broke me. i hate you for that.

i let you string me along for so long because i thought someone as nice as you would never hurt me. i was so wrong, and i was the one that suffered. nice is different than good. i wish i’d seen it then, and spared myself all of that pain. you’re not a good person.