Unsent Messages

hi so im gonna type all my feelings away and never think about you again. over the past year ive thought about you a lot and i have no idea why. the thing is i know you havent even thought about me in years, and if you saw me now you probably wouldnt even recognise me. i just felt like we had something, maybe i was imagining it because i was so immature but we got on so well and i was always happy around you, you could effortlessly make me laugh and i loved that. anyway, i guess i realised that we have completely different lives and it was stupid of me to think we were somehow meant to be. i feel pretty stupid honestly, knowing that you have probably already found someone new and if you ever were to read this, you would think that a thousand other people had written it before you thought of me, cause im like a little sister to you right? god okay well at least ive said it all now, and honestly, i think a little part of me will always want us to be together, even when i find someone new and im scared of that because i need to move on but i really cant. and now when i next see you, whenever that may be, ill shut you off because i dont want to become attached again when secretly all i want is to spend every minute of my day with you. ive deleted and rewritten this so many times because i dont want to stop thinking about you but this is it, i love you goodbye