Unsent messages to DANNY

For what it's worth... I can never hate Noah. I will forever remember him in a positive light, for he did not do anything but love. I can not blame him for that.
What a lovely friend he was- helping me through my troubles, dealing with my rough spots. It's hard to play games without him, but I remember him every time I pull up dbd and I smile.
Noah's only crime was loving, and I would be a terrible person for hating him over that. Why do you think I still consider purple my color, the horizon my identity?
- "K"

i just want to scream at you until i can’t any more. you didn’t deserve what i gave you, and i hate that i miss you.

you really are an asshole. looking back now i dont know how i stayed with you. there were some good parts but the rest were fights, so why do i miss you sometimes..?

i miss you. if you and her broke up and you forgave me i’d leave anyone and everything for you. it’s you.

We were toxic. I couldn’t pinpoint it at first but after two years I now can. I was toxic and you were toxic. After speaking out about my experience with you to my friends, I realized how much I put myself down in our relationship, how much potential I lost. You showed me who I could become, but you stripped that of me saying I can’t be that because it’s not good. You pushed me into things I didn’t want to do. Regardless of all that, I’m past it and it’s whatever at this point, I’m glad we went out separate ways because now I can wholeheartedly say I’ve grown. Thanks for everything though and I hope you are doing well.

i wonder what we could be now if i didn't push you away... it was an accident. come back to me, i'm ready now

I love you more than you’ll ever know and I hope we’re always in each other’s lives and I will love you forever

I thought we were gonna be forever the way you planned our lives just for you to cheat on me and never talk to me again

You don’t love me in any way. Your a stranger and have never talked to me. How could you love a monster like me?

maybe someday our paths will cross again and the timing will be right. do you ache for me like i ache for you?

“Thank you for talking and shit I’m glad we are friends” then why did u leave when I need you most. I know what I did was fucked up but I was always there for u, every time u got drunk, every time u needed a friend I always stuck by u. No matter what I didn’t leave u, even when u made me cry continually everyday I still stayed because I loved you, and I still do.

If you ever see these yes I did just make 3 in a row.. in all blue, and yes I am reading through all of mine connecting them to you and convincing myself you made one too. You know me too well danny :/ blue was your favourite colour.

I had a really bad nightmare a couple days ago and I listened to your voice and that is what calmed me down. I wish I could call you whenever I have a bad dream like I used to, I wish I still had you here to comfort me. You made me feel safe. You are the first person I have ever been able to be completely open with you, you understood everything about me. I love you and I miss you and I wish I could get you back, but I hate you for giving me these sleeping problems. Zzz

I don't wish harm upon you. But I know that nothing about you was genuine- at least nothing you shared with me was. I did realize why people never stuck around in your life though. Tell me, do you create a fake identity to everyone you talk to, or was I special in that regard?
No matter. I'm sorry I ever loved you. And for the record, darling, I didn't fall in love with anyone recently.
- "K"

hi mom :) u have helped me thru so much of my life and idk how ill ever ever repay you for all of that. even though you can be a dick sometimes i love you a whole bunch and i will never forget ab u. u were more of a mother figure than my real mother ever was. thank you

I didn’t always tell you when I was sad or what I was aching about because it didn’t matter, you made it better. You being there and listening to you made it better. The knowledge that you loved me and had faith in me made it better, and now I’m alone again. Being alone isn’t something I’m scared of or not used to, it’s just something I forgot how to do when I was with you. When I knew you loved me I felt like I could never be alone, even if I felt it the most. I don't understand why you told me you loved all of me when all you wanted was her, I'll never understand why I couldn't have been enough, but I do know that as long as you're happy I'll be okay. I wish you loved me the way I love you, but as much as I may want that, you can't love somebody into loving you. Maybe someday, at the right time in the right place, you'll be mine forever. If that never happens tho, I'll be okay without you I think. I just have to learn how to be alone again. Signed yours truly, Bunny.

I’m not quite sure why I like you. But I do. You don’t like me back and I’m trying to work through these emotions right now, you are the first boy I’ve been able to catch feelings for since my ex. Thankyou for reminding me that he is not the only boy in the world

I hope it works out for us. If it doesn’t, just know that I love you forever and always bubs. Never doubt that for a second

i miss you more than i can admit and it’s been years but i still think about you and hope you are doing well. you’ve probably forgotten about me and the time we spent together but i still cherish them and wish we were still friends

Yk I truly do wish nothing but the best for you. I still love you even if I say I don’t. I deserve so much better but I wanted you to be better. I never really got why you had to lie. I really have to let you go now. I’ll keep praying for your happiness dummy. Thank you for the memories my love

do you remember the day we met? it all seems so grey now between us. i love you, i wish i could stop.

know about the shit at this time on the morning when you started to think and talk with yourself abut how much you like or wish stay far away from this place and can change your empty and lonely fate but you're only a sad soul passing away on this mad world

I wish you knew how much you meant to me, and when you hurt me how hard i found it having to see you everyday and act like nothing happened between us

I know you just talked to me cause you were bored even though you told me you liked me. I still think about you and miss you even though it’s be 3 months. I wish we never talked to be honest. Hearing you talk about other girls broke me a little. I still have love for you though :) wishing you the best

i want to tell u to look at ur name on this website so you'd see all of the things i've said but im scared you'll know it was me lol

my heart wants us to last forever, but my brain tells me we're too young to last that long. why did we have to meet when we're both under 25 lol. i feel like our lil age difference makes u weary about how much u want to get attached to me. and i feel like it makes me want to hold on even tighter out of fear.

I’ve watched you become someone you said you never wanted to become. I just hope that you still care about me, even though you tell everyone else that you don’t

No se por donde empezar, solo quiero decirte que me destruiste, me hiciste creer que me amabas cuando en realidad me utilizaste para olvidarte de ella... Joder, dolió, pero algun momento debe dejar de doler no es asi. Pues dejo de doler, dejo de dolerme que me cambiaras por ella, dejo de dolerme que nunca me dijiste nada acerca de la carte, dejo de dolerme el corazon al escuchar esa maldita cancion, porque quite lo de maldita y que solo una cancion con sonrisas y muchos recuerdos, recuerdos que ya no duele.
Que te vaya bien, ahora por fin puedo soltarte.

I love you so much but it hurts to know I can’t have you because you don’t love me anymore and you’re happy with someone new.... I miss you I wish I would’ve just took you back wall I still could.

I hate you so much for what you did to me and the others. I fucking hate how you used me like I was fucking nothing and forced me to be with you and then denied it in the end. All you did was treat me like I was some form of entertainment. I hope you suffer from here on out because I know now that you deserved those things you vented to me about.

we were always more than friends, let’s not deny it anymore. there’s always been something between us that everyone saw, but we were both too scared to admit. i asked you to wait because i was too scared of the risk, but you got tired of waiting. you got tired of me so you started dating her. are you happy with your choice? you made a choice, and i wasn’t it. so you don’t have the right to pick up where we left off and start acting like my friend again. you don’t get to look at me like that. you don’t get to touch me like that. you don’t get to text or call me anymore. you don’t get to act like my best friend again, especially after all the hurt you put me through. you don’t get to decide that you didn’t hurt me, because you did, and it fucking hurts.

I hate you for pressuring me I fucking hate you and now I have to pretend because otherwise I look bad you prick, xx

I think I'm starting to catch feelings but I'm scared to risk it and tell you since you might only see me as a friend:/

I love you. I love your hair, your smile, all of your problems. Your interest, your humor, you. I'm in love with you and it's so so stupid. You are getting over yet another heartbreak and I can see you're still in pain because of it. It's so incredibly stupid of me to fall for someone like you but how can one not. But honestly I'm also very scared. I'm scared of getting hurt again so I'll just stay silent until the time is right. Until then, we shall remain great friends. There's still so much I need to learn about you. There's still so much I need to learn about myself. You're truly amazing. I love you.

you filled the void and gave me something to look forward to, and yet it was gone just like that. you slipped away from my grasp and I never knew why.

I still remember our song (seigfried by frank ocean) you were one of the best things that ever happened to me, i wish you well but at the end of the day...i still love and miss you.

you really left me thinking that you wanted me but in reality you just wanted to get with my best friend.

how do I put this. you were my first love. love. that's a strong word. what does love mean. love means you. I thought love meant us. not only were you bad for me but you were bad to me. you weren't nice. you were harmful, yet I loved you like you gave me everything, yet, you gave me nothing. I loved you like there was no tomorrow. I cried over you day and night for the fear of losing you cause I grew so attached to the hip for you. I created a false reality in which you would love me the same way and tell me how you feel. under the stars to be exact. for the whole world to see just hold my hands and tell me the three words I would kill to hear you speak. You came back a few weeks ago, and you changed. You aren't that immature boy you use to be, but with that comes more challenges. you're still crazy about her, but you pretend not to be cause it hurts you and your pride. You talk about her a lot. you still care so much about her. Yeah you were my first love, but I wasn't yours. You show no emotions. You lost that beautiful smile you always had. were did it go? Did it leave the same way you did months back? Did it tell you they weren't ready to commit forget you like it was nothing. You say it just went away over time. I hope you've changed. I loved you so much I learned to live without you cause i saw that you were happy, but now that you're back, I pray I'm the one who will make you happy. I can't be your first love anymore cause god knows one of the other girls took that place, but I sitll hold on to my false realities like their memories. I hold on to them because they don't change like you did. They don't leave you like you did. You hurt me more than you'll ever know yet I still let you back. Last night was amazing. I couldn't stop smiling. Seeing you actually smile for once was something I wouldn't trade for the world. I wish the best for us, but you've hurt me before, and I'm terrified you'll do the same thing again. You told her no before, but theres only so much you can do when your heart wants something that your head knows will hurt you. You can only say no a number of times before you give in and let them come back. I would know, the same thing happened to me. I love you danny, and even though it tough right now, I still love talking to you. I love being the one you open up to. Now make me the one you love.

you hurt me so much. but i'll always have a place for you in my heart and you should know that. i'll never ever forget you although i wish i could. i wish i could tell you how much you hurt me. so here it is.

we never dated but you were my best friend. i miss you. please come back. i promise i wont lie this time.

You broke me to the point where I'll never love myself again. you ruined me. used me. broke my heart & you come back like nothing happened.

i fucking hate you. i hate you so fucking much. you were such a fucking asshole. you were so rude to everyone of my male friends. you lied, so fucking much. i dont think i really loved you. fuck you

no. i’m not still in love with you. i miss the person i fell deeply in love with. i miss the person who would do anything for anyone. the caring person. man what hit you. it’s been about 6 months and shiii i still love you fool. but you’ve got a new girl. the girl you told me not to worry about. while i’m stuck missing you. honestly though. if you wanted me back right now i’d say no. the person you have become is not someone i want to associate myself with. i miss the old you. the you who loved everyone. yes i know i broke up with you. but you know how much you impacted me. you saved my life and you know it. and when i broke up with you and you shut me out. that hurt. i get it that’s how you cope but you haven’t said a word to me in 6 months. you were such a big part of me. i mean 3 years. we dated for 3 years and now look at us. i still wanted to be friends and i know that takes time but you still won’t talk to me. i’m blocked on everything. i just miss how much you were there for me. i could tell you everything. even the stuff i can’t even tell myself. but lol long story short. i miss the old you but the new you is kinda a two timing dirtbag ??

i’ve liked you for a while and i can’t hold it in anymore. you might not be the cutest but your personality is amazing. i guess you could say i love you :)

please. give me a chance. i wont hurt you. with you, everything feels right. with you, i feel so safe.

i should’ve told you i liked you. i miss that we don’t talk now. ever since i met you it was the best and i smiled everyday. now i just think about you.

thanks for showing me that i am enough by making me feel like i'm not. you made me realize that there's more to life then "adventures", which aren't even adventures you just like trouble, and that's all you were.

I drove past your house today. I felt sick to my stomach because I miss you so much. My heart aches for you. T x

i think about you a lot. you changed me for the best, i wish you cared ab me as deeply as i care about you, i hope your happy df

Ik u think this is easy for me. It isn’t. n ik u think I just chose to walk away but I know one day u will see I did what’s best for the both of us