Unsent messages to CHRISTOPHER

today wouldve been our 1 year anniversary. im glad i didnt stay. all you did was manipulate me to be youre perfect little fucking sex angel. and when i realized i have worth, all you would say was that "i changed". get a grip.

I still don’t know why you left. It hurt not knowing why you stopped loving me so suddenly. I’m okay now. I’ve forgotten about us. I miss your mom and your sister.

you were my best friend, the only one i had, the one person that made me feel like i wasn’t worthless. the last night that we spoke, when we were all out and i kissed you, i know i shouldn’t have but we were so close and everyone told me you liked me. we had the red heart, we were pinned on each other’s sc , i was the only one you had ur location on for and it’s all just gone. i miss u more than i can describe and i’m rlly sorry.

i really miss you and would give anything to be with you but i know that will never happen , bc all you see me is, is a way to pass time

I want to give you everything, because you deserve it, but I know that I'm not the only one for that, and we are so far away but I still love you.

You made me realize that it didn’t matter how much I loved you and thought we were soulmates, because you didn’t feel the same. I’ll always have a place in my heart for you, even if I don’t have feelings for you anymore, I have no regrets. The things you did, good and bad, helped me get over you and find that person that does actually love me, and I’m glad I found him

we still had so much left in our story. i'm sorry i couldn't be enough for you. i never thought i would lose you, but somehow i still did. don't forget about me c

Why would you ever tell me all those beautiful things? Why would you ever make those promises you weren't going to keep? Why would you ever make me feel like you were the one? Why would you just leave me like that? You have no idea how special you made me feel and to have that taken away in just a matter of seconds literally broke me. You have no idea how many times a day I think about what I could've done differently to keep you around a little longer. You have no idea how much I wonder what it is that she has that I don't. You have no idea how much it hurt me to find out that you were texting her behind my back. You have no idea how much it broke me finding out that you already moved on so fast. You have no idea how much I question if you actually loved me. You have no idea how many times a day I think about you in general. You have no idea how stupid I feel knowing that I still think about you. I know that I should obviously move on because you already did, but it's really hard to do that knowing you were and still are the only thing I want. Ahaha I probably should've listened to the ones that warned me about you, but like I've said before "I always try to see the good in people." And I finally understand why people would tell me not to do that, it wasn't to make me feel bad, it was to protect me from getting hurt and now I'm pretty sure I learned my lesson along with a couple other lessons.(Thanks for that Ig) I really don't want to say that my time was wasted because I enjoyed every second with you, but in all honesty it kinda was. I hope you know that I would've done anything for you, that I loved you more than anyone, and that I love you Dummy

I'm just tired of people leaving me , so when I made it clear to you, I didn't expect you to do the same thing

you are such a nice human being and i never took advantage of that. i love you so much gosh chris words can't begin to explain how much i love you. i miss you and i know i shouldn't because you don't miss me. probably or probably not. but either way i hope you do and i know that you have a girlfriend and you do right by her so i know you won't leave her just so we could be something again and that's fine, whenever you're ready i'll be here waiting

hey chris:) these past few days have been kind of hard to be honest, i'm not used to going on with my day without you being part of my life. It's weird in other words... i miss you so so much at this point i would do anything or give anything for you to be part of my life again. not you just following me and stuff i mean you texting me and making me smile so hard because of all the nice things you would say and do. i love you so much and maybe one day i can tell you that again day after day and maybe for the rest of my life.

It was vv hard to determine what we were. You never texted me, I always had to text first. I blocked you on all socials because I knew you didn't want anything to do with me.

I was blinded by my own pain when I hurt you. I didn't mean to. Sorry won't fix a thing but I hope it sets you free.

I'm sorry.

I love you, i really do. I know where I went wrong and I feel guilty because of it. I just hope your alright and happy.

hey chris, idk if you're reading this or not but it's jayneily or janell yk jayneily got old lol orrrr as you called me "jayjelly" lol. i'm not going to talk about how i miss you because i don't really, but i just want to say thank you for being the one person that listened to my problems the person that made me laugh when i didn't want to and always being there for me and sorry for blocking you that one day when you weren't. i just got so used to you being there whenever i needed you that i just acted out i don't know. i see you moved on to someone who actually deserves you so that's good:) i didn't deserve you because i wasn't all in and i don't know if you knew but i wasn't. i wanted to be with you so bad but i just couldn't and maybe you'll never read this but if you do i know you won't care because you have a girlfriend and i'll respect that for you. you mean so much to me christopher , i love you so much.

Ever since you lied and showed me who you really are, it's made me fall head over heels for you. You won't feel the same, unfortunately, but I still love you.

We agreed to stay as friends bc I knew long distance would suck. Yet, as much as you told me how much you loved me, you moved on within a week to someone that was so similar to me. Why? Why would you call me to tell me all of this, and to now treat me like trash? The more time we spend apart the more I realize how horrible you were to me. And I deserve better than your fake self.

I wonder if you still think of me, like I do you. It’s not often, but I cannot do some of the smallest things without thinking of you- I hate you for that.

I wish you hadn't left me. You chose to not see that I was head over heels and you HAD to date my friends even tho I was always there for you, EVERY DAY for 2 years.

just know you’ll always be a sweet angel in my eyes & that my love for you truly is unconditional

it’s been weeks since we last talked. i don’t have the courage to let you know i miss you one last time because i’m tired of waiting..it’s time to let go and move on.

Lo siento, realmente quiero quedarme toda la vida y estar con tigo, por que te amo pero tu no a mi asi que me fui por eso quisiera quedarme a tu lado por siempre y hacer todo lo que prometimos pero sinplemente me lastimas cada dia mas aun duele pero lo superare, espero saber que en un futuro brillaras mi valiente cazador

chris idk if you're seeing this but i think you know who it is. you were there for me in so many ways i lost count, you made me feel good about myself when i had just got out a break up and i wasn't over that boy and you knew that yet you still wanted to be with me. i'm so sorry for ruining things with us, pls forgive me

Um hey, I know we just texted a few minutes ago, but I really need to tell you how I feel for you. I love you okay, but somehow it get's harder and harder to tell you that I love you because sometimes I feel like your going to leave me. I'm scared that, that day will come soon. I really have never felt this way before and I never want to lose this feeling. I know I can get easily replaced by any girl out there but please don't leave me. Your the reason I look forward waking up every morning, the reason I want to become better... So please don't leave me. Yeah I know I can be very annoying, Iv'e been told that before, but it's because I love you. Sometimes you seem to not care about my feelings, and sometimes I feel like you might be cheating on me because I'm boring. I feel like you talk to all the girls that text you and that I mean nothing to you. But I'm putting all those things in the back of my head and just trying my hardest to make you happy. Your all I need in this world, you complete me. I'll always love you no matter what. But.. don't leave me alone again.

it seems like we could never get the timing right. but i know we both know it was supposed to work out. maybe someday, or in another life. my soul will find yours again

hi bby i miss you sm i see you've found someone new and i realized you didnt need me as much as you said so

When I think about you, I just remember how bad I didn't want it, and how I was only seven and you were my uncle.

See the problem is you were the right person for me, but I wasn’t the right person for you. It’s fine.
I love you, still.

I wish I had made different choices. It seems anyone who gets close to me always gets hurt. I wish I had the life in me to give you what you gave to me. Now you hate me and I understand why.

you were my first love. you were my best friend. no matter what, i will always love you. but it's time for me to move on.

Y r u so toxic. y couldn’t u just keep the same energy I met u with. y did u steal my heart and stomp on it over and over again.

you werent my first love, but i really hope your my last. you’ve gotten to my soft spot, and nobody has ever gotten to my soft spot. i really didnt wanna fall for you, but here i am head over heels for you.

hi gopher. i know you will probably never know how in love i am with you but that’s alright. waiting for the day you find someone so i at least have a reason to tell myself why you don’t like me.

Más allá de todo, estoy segura que fuiste mi primer amor. Me enamoré de tí, estuve dispuesta a esperarte 100 años si era necesario, pero simplemente no quisiste… ¿Acaso hice algo mal?, algunas veces te recuerdo con el cariño de siempre, pero sé que solo estoy enamorada de nuestros recuerdos. Que más quisiera que un abrazo tuyo. El día en el que todo acabo fue gris, y así lo recordaré siempre.

im in love with you. it's scary, we barley met. but, i'm in love with you. i know you don't feel the same but it's ok.

i’m in love with you. even if you live 1000 miles away, i fell in love through a screen. text me, i miss you.

why.. the question as to why you did what you did still lingers as much as i wanted to hate you i cannot because my love for you is to strong and never died out

i know i deserve better and you weren’t the best to me but part me doesn’t care part of me still wants you but i know i can’t have you.I’m moving on he treats me better then you did but i still want you. you said we would get married although i didn’t believe it because were both still in high school it felt nice to believe it although it’s still not for sure at end of the day i still hope it’s you i hope we do end up having that wedding after i turn 25 on november because it’s right after my birthday and right before yours just like you said i want to build our house on a piece of property where our kids can grow up and run around and ride the horses but i guess it’s all a dream just like you were

It hurts to look back on a relationship I valued so much and how much you meant to me for you to be able to drop me so easily

I don't know how to let you go. With you I was safe, with you I felt most myself. You were my light. You were home. I miss home. I know I lie, don't worry, I love you wasn't one.

Tell me please why I am never enough anymore. You used to treat me like I was everything to you, and now I feel like I mean nothing to you. God forbid you come and see me and god forbid you go out of your way to make me feel special. I bend over backward to make you happy and you can't even seem to give the slightest of a damn about how you have been making me feel.

you dont understand how those 3 words made me absolutely crumble. i looked up to you so much. i thought you could never do anything wrong. but that night when you said those things, it was like a wake up call. like i got slapped into reality realizing that im the only one that accepts me and it hurts. it hurts to see the ones you love be ashamed of you.

I miss you but I can’t let you back in, I can’t be the window that’s always open when things don’t go as planned. I just wish I didn’t waste a year of my life on someone who wasn’t sure how they felt about me. I need someone who wants me fully and knows my worth, I Just hope you understand that. The window is now padlocked shut but I’ll never forget you

i miss you so much. i know you’ll probably find someone else, but hopefully, somewhere in your heart you’ll remember how much i love you.

I’m hurting you I don’t want to leave you and I don’t want you to leave me but I feel like I’m losing you and I’m scared

i could be at the wedding of my 7 year relationship, and it would still only take one word from you for me to say no

If she hadn’t broke your heart before I met you, would I have been the one you looked at through rose-tinted glasses?