Did you make the right choice? Are you happy? is this still your favourite colour? do you still order cold brew, do you still pet every cat you see? do you still have my jacket? our badges? your bear with my voice? i miss you.

almost 8 years, 96 months, 417 weeks, 2922 days, 70128 hours,4207680 minutes, 252460800 seconds and I still love you. We went from love at first sight to completely hate each other, we then fell in love again to just become complete strangers. I still love you and I‘ll never stop loving you.

we walked pasted each other every single day without saying a word. still can’t believe i fell for a band kid

Everyday I think of the things you’ve said to me. U made me feel like someone was there even when i felt like there wasn’t.

Quiero que sepas que en solo pocos dias te volviste una persona especial en mi vida y me dolería mucho si nos dejamos hablar...
O.E.B.M

is it possible that we were meant to be but it's just the wrong time? remember when you said you'd wait for me? i can't even be hurt because i'm not surprised, you've always been the impatient kind

i'm scared that our relationship left you so hurt that it's caused you change as much as you have. i barely know who you are anymore. i don't even know what name you go by now. when we do finally talk it's not the same connection. i'm sorry. i'm sorry that i miss you. i want to let you go but i can't. i don't want to hurt you anymore but something keeps bringing me back to you.

i really thought you were the one. we were together for a year, we were fully content and we never had any bad days. what we had was the ideal dream relationship. we said i love you at least ten times an hour, we told each other everything. why such the bitter, sour end? you knew i trusted you and still you pushed me away and hurt me. i can't believe that i was stupid enough to believe your excuses for not replying to me. how lucky those random guys were for getting more attention than me. you cheated on me and blamed it on my lack of effort to see you. then you snapped at me for quickly getting over you. you gave me nothing for the last four months of our relationship. i bet we went on that break just so you wouldn't feel guilty about kissing someone else. fuck. you did all of this and still i love you i miss you i cry over you i answer your every call and text. next month will be a full year since you broke up with me. last month would have been our 2 yr anniv. i never got to kiss you. i never got to feel your skin against mine. you keep telling me that you have never felt the same love for anyone as you did for me, that i treated you so well and that you were so happy. yet, here we are. i wish i could spit out a simple fuck you towards you but i dont think i even feel that way but fuck i do despise you. yet...what if i booked a flight to you? what if we made up and rediscovered the spark we had? fuck i don't know maybe this is just the hopeless romantic part of me but i cant help but feel stupid about you. would kissing you be all that bad of an idea?

i hate what happened between us. the worst thing though is that i still miss u so fucking bad. it’s been months but i still think abt holding u , ur laugh, and how safe u made me feel- for the first time i had someone i thought genuinely cared for me, but you just... let me go. i don’t think i will ever stop loving u and i hate myself for that. i wish u knew how badly u hurt me and how much i need u right now- with all that has happened this year i just wish i had at least one person who could be here for me bc i’ve never felt more alone. i still check up on u and i still listen to our song.
you were the first person i have ever loved and the first person to break my heart and for that i can never forgive u but i some how still find myself pining over our memories, late nights, christmas lights, driving through our shitty town blasting the playlist i made for u. angel- you won’t ever see this but, thank u. thank you for those memories, they are all i have now and they keep me hanging on. i hope i can find someone to make new memories with, and i hope u can find someone who will love u as much as i do.

ok, mm bueno no se si lo leas, lo dudo, no se que harias en esta pagina xd pero bueno, la verdad es que pues lo siento, siento que no te valore cuando estabamos por lo menos en el mismo estado :v y siento que no fui la mejor amiga y persona,siento que ahora por alguna razon ya no hablamos y siento que me evitas asi que puedo deducir que hice algo malo, bueno no te lo mando por whats por que no quiero verme ridicula, pero por lo menos aqui me siento mas confiada, y bueno no solo te queria decir eso si no tambien que puessss si me gustabas xd,lo mas seguro es que ya lo sabias pero me sentia mal nunca haberte lo dicho, no se porque no lo dije pero x la verdad es que nunca me dejaste de gustar, hasta ahora me sigues gustando, pero que se le puede hacer, algo raro es que me caiste mal desde un inicio , tipo llegaste contando chiste a todos y yo con cara de ._. jajaja pero luego paso lo de la cachetada y te sere sincera, lo hice al proposito, pero fue por que queria de alguna manera aprovacion social , nunca habia tenido amigos y me sentia mal, se que no lo justifica y me senti horrible despues de eso,por eso quise ser tu amiga, pero cuando hicimos la obra pasamos mas tiempo juntos y cuando fue la obra , nos agarramos la mano y me di cuenta que me gustabas, despues paso todo lo demas y crei que seria algo temporal pero nada, nada cambio, y se que me arrepentire si lees esto, de hecho si me mandas mensaje preguntando si escribi esto, te dire que no,al chile si soy, pero si lo lees te pido no me escribas ni digas nada, solo ignoralo, la verdad es que tu marcaste mi vida,sabes mi situacion y sabes que no duro mucho con las personas,por eso me afectaste , siempre pienso en ti, pero se que no funcionara, asi de simple, creo que esa es la razon por laque nunca te dire que te amo, y es porque se que si tu llegases a sentir lo mismo no funcionaria, y lo hecharia a perder, y creeme que no me gustaria perder a alguien como tu, creeme, que nunca me lo perdonaria, siempre que me llega un mensaje tuyo me pongo nerviosa, me da un frio horrible, mis manos me tiemblan y si, siento algo llamado "mariposas", y odio eso, odio que me hagas sentir esas cosas, cosas que no quiero sentir, pero ahi estas tu, tan mmm como describirte, agh no se, he conocido muchas personas conozco muchas personalidades pero no se que tipo eres tu, he intentado hacer que respondas algo en especifico pero respondes con algo frio o bueno no frio pero agh no se, mira , se que cambiaste, yo igual lo hice, y mucho, supongo que tu igual, la verdad es que la que te escribe en los mensajes es una version mia que finje ser otra solo para que pienses que soy rara o algo asi, de una vez te digo, y si , no me pienso abrir contigo, como sea, siempre me pregunto que haces,como estas, que soñaste,que piensas, pero nunca responderas, inicio el 2021, y si no te respondo los mensajes es porque pues ya te lo dije xd se que me lastimo y que no sientes lo mismo, pero pues que se le va hacer, por ultimo, te dire que te quiero, y gracias por hacerme sentir bien cuando te dije que me cambiaban a Puebla, a las personas con las que intente abrirme me decian cosas que sabia que no entendian por lo que pasaba , pero tu, me hiciste sentir mejor, y gracias por resumirme nuestro chat, escogi el verde porque recuerdo que cuando estabamos chicos hice un dibujo de los 8 para pegarlo en el pizarron y les pregunte cual era su color favorito, tu me dijiste el verde , sip me acuerdo de eso y mas xd pero como sea, no te preocupes ni sientas lastima por mi, estoy bien, mejor tu no te sientas mal nunca, y cuando te sientas triste mmm has lo que te gusta,sal ve el cielo, y busca un arbol, luego hechale agua hacercate al arbol abrazalo, y recuerda la vez que vimos el video triste con Kris que en realidad nos dio risa, bueno no me recuerdes a mi, solo recuerda como lloraba kris xd bueno si quieres no recuerdes eso mejor solo abraza al arbol luego te sientas te hechas agua y vez el cielo buscas un buen meme y escuchas tu cancion favorita con un gorro raro, mm no se la verdad es lo que hago, jajajja pero olvidalo me sali del tema, creo que es todo lo que te tengo que decir y bueno ameno, jajajaj MUCHO TEXTO.merci for you atention people ;D

I lowkey missed talking to u my question is do u not feel the same? What have I done for u to stop having communication with me when I moved?

I fell hard for you, still seem to be falling at times. But you hurt me so much at times, I don't think you realize this. I love you, I truly do, but I'm not sure if I can stand by and do nothing about this. I need to leave and never look back.

Llevo tanto tiempo esperando por ti que me perdí...
Es momento de dejarte ir.
Siempre te amaré.
M.

i told God that if you weren't the one for me, that you would leave me by the end of Christmas break.

you acted like i was just a person in your life. you lost the spark that made me fall in love. why did you leave?

I miss u, I miss those late nights wit u, those walks wit u, that summer I was so broken, but u gave me the comfort, love I needed, I felt like I was flying, out of this world while talking to u, sometimes I've wonder if u still think about me, or If I come to ur mind while u listen to the songs that I showed u, what did I do wrong for u to change me? do u do and tell her the same things u, did/said to me ? U were the right person, but wrong timing, I know that one day we will encounter again, at the right time. Love U

You were the person I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Now I’m with someone else and it doesn’t feel the same w/ them it never will.

I don't love you anymore but I can't let you go either. I don't hate you for what you did I hate that you will never own up to it.

I wish you knew how much I want you to make me stay and make this work but something tells me it wont

Se que tienes problemas pero eso no hace que tenga que estar contigo no bonito que estén contigo por lástima

If you ever find this, Wednesday wasn’t supposed to end like that, I really wanted to see you just missed you, now it’s over, you’re gone, probably hate me to. I wish you would just come back, we can finally have our VD date, it would’ve been our first ya know? I miss you, and I’m sorry for what I said, I’m the one that broke this, I ruined it, but please, come back to me...

I just can tell you to wait like you said, I waited for you to show up again, but you never did. I bet you don't even remember me, after all we were just kids.

Uff, si supieras lo mucho que te amé y peor lo mucho que me hiciste sufrir cada vez que veía que alguien nuevo compartía contigo lo que yo tanto anhele que lograras, fuiste y eres a la única persona la cual he amado, pero también la que más me ha hecho daño, pero te amo y creo que eso nadie va a poder cambiar, pero gracias por haberte alejado de mí, creo que eso es lo mejor que nos pudo haber pasado, siempre serás el amor de mi vida pero no el amor que mi vida necesita, un abrazo y espero que todo lo que te propongas se te cumpla.

Im glad we are talking again...I just wish I could get a second chance on a relationship with you but I am glad that your girlfriend makes you happy

Ese día deseé que me dijeras que no, que aún querías intentarlo. Pero solo aceptaste y no me buscaste más.

I'm so done with you now. I can't believe that I stood by when you would forget about me for her. It was always for her. I don't get why I'm not the first choice anymore. Why bother talking to me and telling me how much you love me if you're going to pick her?

You rlly fucked up this time but seeing you with someone who you told me not to worry abt and tht you hate them n go date them call them queen after you called me princess man fuck you honestly

You piss me off and i wanna punch you sometimes but i still love your annoying ass and cant wait for the future

I wanna punch you, wife you, fuck you, kiss you, hold you, all at once you gorgeous annoying little cutie

I hate the way you treat me but I can’t stay mad at you because it’s my fault for believing all the words you tell me! And I know I’m supposed to move on but I can’t it’s like I have this feeling that you’re the one and I know you miss me and you’re stubborn and don’t want to admit it but I know... I keep wishing that you’d come back and I believe that one day you will and when you do I’ll be here waiting❤️

Even though we’re still young.. I never realized you actually liked me. You liked me for years, I pushed you away and you changed thinking I didn’t like you. If you’re reading this just know I’m sorry I pushed you away... I had to move and now I’ll probably never see you again :/ I’m sorry angel I always liked you and just couldn’t figure out why so that’s why i pushed you away. I miss you. I know you always wore either green or
orange :)
-*****

i love you so much. you helped me grow as a person and i dont know how i can thank you for it. ive been so happy ever since ive met you. without you i wouldnt be as strong as i am right now. you truly helped me become so much better. im not as depressed anymore thanks to you and i cant thank you enough. i know you arent here anymore, i miss you. its been almost three years without you and every time this year you always cross my mind. ive never forgotten about you, i will never forget about you. i always wonder how life wouldve been if you were still here, i wonder if i wouldve became someone different. i wonder if you passing away was a sign for me to become stronger. no you didnt die for me of course, but your death has changed my life completely. we moved from boston, i explored my sexuality (you were right, i am gay), i opened up and become true to myself. i always keep small things that remind me of you, today i bought a strawberry hat because you love strawberries. i got into kpop because you loved it so much and literally wouldnt shut the fuck up about it, and now i cant shut the fuck up about it. i still have chubby, she sleeps on my bed everyday, i hug her thinking of you. i left the sticker you put on her foot and look at it whenever i think of you. i miss you baby, i know you are doing so much better right now.

i'm never going to be over this, am i? it's been four years now and i still just want to go back to being kids together on the internet. i miss you more than is rational.

he loves me. i love him. but i’m scared there’s a part of me that will always miss you. i wish i never loved you.

i saw you that day in temple. your brother, your friend, you. my heart stopped. i couldn’t breathe. i don’t think you ever saw me

hola, angel la verdad te quiero mucho pero no de la forma en que tú me miras me gustaría algún día que me prestarás la atención que yo te pongo a ti, quizá algunas veces soy pesa, pero lo hago para llamar tu atención me gusta mucho cuando hacen llamadas en el grupo y esuccho tu voz no sabes lo que feliz que me pone me gustaría haber nacido cerca de tu país para poder abrazarte y pasar mucho tiempo contigo, lamentable soy de chile gracias por tu amistad y yo tampoco la quiero arruinar te amo ?

Creí que me querías, creí todo lo que me decías, creí que el destino nos uniría.
Solo me di cuenta que me hiciste mucho daño y ahora que tú eres feliz, yo solo cargo con el sufrimiento de tu ausencia :(

i wish i never associated with you. you took and took and still left . i hate you but i hate myself for not being able to let you go.

you said you were scared to lose me, but then you proceeded to let me go. you told me you didn't want to love anyone else that wasn't me. you gave me hope by saying there's a maybe for us again, but then you said you wish i find someone else. i have so many questions, unsaid words, and regrets. but i just want to remind you, i will be waiting for you because i know for a fact that no matter what i will always love you.

I remember how you whispered “you’re beautiful” as I sat next to you. and I think that was one of the few time I actually felt like it was the truth. you made me feel beautiful.

I still listen to the playlists that you made just for me. Your writings stay in my heart, while you are gone.

te extraño mucho, tal vez estamos mejor así, aunque eso no cambia el echo de que te extrañe todos los días .Espero que estes bien y te deseo lo mejor

Hola, ¿Cómo estás? Espero que te encuentres muy bien, creo que fuiste mi primer amor, no creo que lo llegues a saber nunca, me rompiste en una manera que todavía no logro armar todo de nuevo, pensé que me querías como yo te quería a ti, pero llegó alguien a tu vida, alguien nuevo y creo que a ella si la quieres como yo te quiero a ti, la miras de la forma que yo te veo a ti, y ahí entendí que nunca fui una persona que quisieras, perdón por ser un estorbo en tu vida.
Nunca sabrás todo lo que yo te quiero, te lo dije muchas veces, yo te quiero muchísimo más y creo que lo acabamos de comprobar, espero que todos esos sueños, esas metas, esos viajes, lo llegues hacer por ti mismo, nadie ve el potencial que tú tienes, eres alguien maravilloso que no lo ve, eres alguien que rompes a las personas sin notarlo, creo pero a pesar de que no te encuentres conmigo en estos momentos, quiero verte triunfar, y ser feliz. Aunque yo esté aquí todavía pensando en que hice mal para que me hicieras eso.
Yo nunca lo habría hecho, ni me hubiera pasado por la cabeza, pero las cosas pasan por algo, así que te deseo que estés con quién estés seas el hombre más feliz del mundo, lo prometiste así que hazlo.
Fue un placer coincidir contigo en esta vida.
Te ama, chapis.

God I wish you knew how much I loved you. but u continued to place me as the second option. When u were always my first. I wish u could have loved me as much as I loved u. but I guess all good things have to come to a end. I loved you.

i dont even know where to start with you. you make me so confused on how i feel and i don’t think i’ll ever be able to understand how i really feel or how you really feel. you’re so hard to understand, always sending mixed signals to me. i’ve tried so hard to give you up and move on but i just cant. i keep going back to you and i don’t wanna leave. you’re so familiar and i don’t wanna leave that familiarity behind. but all you do is hurt me and i just want the pain to stop. when i first met you it felt amazing. things clicked right away and we both knew what we wanted from each other , as soon as we were together things were on and off, there was always something going on between us and that was a known thing with a lot of people. eventually we finally broke off what we had completely and yet we still came back together but not officially. then you got a girlfriend even after leading me on. i finally thought we were gonna be able to rekindle the relationship we had. it hurt me so badly and you never knew that. i hid the hurt and the despair bc i just wanted you to be happy.but you didn’t care about how i felt or my happiness when you got with her, you just wanted a new toy. if only i had knew i wouldn’t have but in the effort to make you happy. it hurt me seeing you with someone else. then you guys broke up and you immediately came to me for comfort. of course i was gonna be there for you, but comfort soon turned into something else and we began where we had left off. i still was hurt from the previous times. when you had cheated on me, when you had lied to me, when you had manipulated me, the gaslighting. i left that all in the past and said i would forget about it. then you did it all over again. we weren’t dating but we had something and you said we had something yourself. and yet you still played with me like i didn’t have feelings. do you know how much that hurt me? you’ve absolutely ruined me completely and made me regret meeting you. but i still can’t seem to let you go. i want the pain to go away. why cant you just be better? why did you have to hurt me so much? why did you lie to me. i want you even though i know you’re not good for me. i know you probably don’t feel the same and you probably could care less about how i feel but why am i still here dwelling over you and wanting you to just care. why did i become like this. why cant you just tell me how you feel and change.

I became a better person after you decided to leave. It just took you years to realize I was good enough all along. I know my worth now.

After you said that we needed a break I cried instantly when I saw that message I cried for hours,days, i missed you and I know I acted like I didn’t love you but I try to hide the fact that I do still love you everyone hates the fact that you still love me and I love you, i love you but ángel you hurt me bad like so bad you know that you mean so much to me so why would you hurt me like that? I hate you at times but I really love you, you said I probably replaced you by now and I did I replaced you just so I can forget about the pain you put me through, but when you came back those feelings I have for you came out, You said “I love you” but you were scared I wasn’t gonna say it back and I did I said “I love you too” I’m not mad I’m just mad at the fact that I still love you after all this.. We will work things out Angel I promise but if we don’t I love you so much don’t forget that..

You freaking saved my life. You helped me find my sexuality and made me smile every single day even when I felt dead. I hope you'll not be disappointed in me

A los dos nos gustaba el verde, ya han pasado 2 meses desde que dejamos de hablar, perdón por apegarme tanto a ti y asfixiarte con mis palabras entiendo si hoy no quieres saber de mi, de hecho desearía que no supieras de mi, faltan 2 meses para tu cumpleaños y yo ya tengo anotado lo que te voy a decir, hoy ya no me siento mal, mis pasatiempos me volvieron a gustar y ya no veo la vida tan gris, me siento bien sin y ya no te extraño, aunque fuiste alguien muy importante para mi.

Angel is like my drug. I hate how he hurt me so much and I still am in love with him. He is so important to me because he was there for me when nobody else was. The truth is I fell in love with his smile, his laugh, his hair, his eyes, I fell in love with all the small details and I mostly fell in love with how he made me feel. He made me feel loved and he made me feel safe. He has always treated me like a queen and like I was his wife. What we had was so special because I have never and I don’t think I will ever find that kind of love with anyone else. He always asked how my mom was doing when I told him she’s not doing very well. And every time I was mean and moody to him he wouldn’t complain he would just remind me how much he loved me and when I overthink he would always make sure I knew that he would never leave my side. And now that he’s not by my side I feel so alone and I cry myself to sleep it sucks. I go through old photos and convos and I think to myself how much I’m in love with him. I even told my mom about him which is weird oh and I said I love you for the first time. I really don’t wanna loose him. I want him in my future and I want to see us grow happy together. I love him.-R.C.

Umm I came to update. I am no longer Inlove with him but I still love him. I found someone else there both different in there way and he’s not better or worse he’s the one I love and angel will always have a special place in my heart being honest I just think it’s right person wrong time yk.