i’ll never understand how easy it was for you to move on. i always thought you loved me as much as i did you, but i guess i’ll never know. i wish you would just talk to me. by the way zoie seems like the kindest soul. i’m happy for you but it hurts to see.

the worst part is i really tried with you. i believed you wanted me. i told you things i’ve never told anyone i hate you now .

Ten people between us and you still came back to me and I was happy to have you back. That must have meant something. An entire year between us, now I know it did. I'm pretty sure I'm in love with you, no matter what happens I keep thinking back to you. But I can't tell you because I'm afraid you don't feel the same. I mean you did tell me I wasn't anything more than sex to you right? Guess it is a disaster.

you destroyed me over and over again, but i let you. wanna know why? i let you ruin me because i thought that is what it meant to be loved by you.

ik u r with that red hair girl rn . but I really miss you . I'll blame it on me it's all my fault. :(

i enjoyed the nine months we spent and i’m sorry we weren’t meant to be. all i want is for you to be happy. maybe in another life we could’ve worked but i’m glad i met you. it just sucks that we’ve gone back to being stranger but i’ll never forget you. i’ll always love you christian.

Te extraño tanto,no quiero molestarte por eso no has recibido una llamada mía, quiero escuchar tu voz de nuevo y reír como en los viejos tiempos

I don't know what I want more... to find myself in one of these from you, or you to find all the ones I've written to you.

Do you think it's possible to fall in love with a stranger you once made out with? That'd be crazy right? Wish you did like me, because then maybe I could admit to myself that maybe I was always a little bit in love with you.

Hey Christian, I miss you. I can never get that one stupid quote out of my head where you said you would let me draw on your arm if I ever got bored because you know how much I liked to doodle. I feel dumb now. Such a simple saying yet it's one of the reasons I fell in love with you. You noticed the little things and used them to put a smile on my face. I remember the first time I knew I loved you though, I remember the way I was laying down on the phone with you and I remember the conversation too. You were talking about how you used to chase this girl that you liked on the playground and I know it's such a dumb conversation but you had so much passion when you talked. Like nothing could get you because you were so here for the world. I interrupted you and I said I loved you, and you said it back with no hesitation. That's another thing I love about you, you made things so simple. I knew you loved me when you said it and I felt safe, safe in your arms, in your presence and when we had conversations for hours and hours at night it seemed to only be a couple minutes. I know that you're with her now and I hope you're happy because I know and I know you know that you love her more then you loved me. You found the one and I'm proud of you, I really am Christian. Goodbye my love, I love you more then anything, you are my everything.

even though you pit me through so much and so much trauma i still wonder if you will ever come back so we can do it the right way.

Your one of the best people I have ever met! You make extremely happy, we're so alike yet so different

i had my flaws, yet you refused to admit to yours. you're so emotionally toxic, and i'm so happy i escaped you. yet, i'm thankful for you too – you were in my life as a transition, and i'm grateful for that. i pray that you recover from the traumas that have made you so cold.

I keep submitting these and I don’t know if it’s to clear my head or cause of the smallest chance they’ll find their way to you.

We should have just been friends. I don't know why, but I miss you. As if we're supposed to be one another's life.

left me bc i wouldnt fuck u. little do you know, your the reason i think im not good enough to just date. thank you for making me miss so many oppertunities because you a dick christian. your. a. dick.

i know i annoy you, but u know i have good intentions. just lmk and i'll stop, but i just wanna play guitar with you bitch

You were the one that I loved the most, the one that broke me the most, the one that made me fall out of love with everyone else, and the sad thing is even though you cheated, I don't know what hurt most, that you broke my trust in everything or that I actually thought you loved me.

thanks for everything you did for me. Even though half the time you didn’t even know you where doing something. Thanks anyway dummy.

Going back i realized you had a plan all along. i really thought you were special. turns out you weren't. you could've told me how you were feeling and how i could've helped. i wanted to know you better. you just wanted to know my body better.

i know you don’t think about me anymore. but sometimes i wish you still did. i wish i didn’t just become another one of your memories.

i wish i know how in love with me you were. it pains me that i didnt understand your feelings. i hurt you and i never wanted to do that. i loved you, truly. and do think it would have happened in time. i guess you didnt have any more left for us.

Ummmm it's been me writing to you...idk if you miss me but let me know..imy...it's almost been a year..

I wish I had done better. You deserved better. But despite it all, months later and I can’t help but crave a future with you. I’m still in love with you. I wish you felt the same.

i still remember your favorite color. was this a lie too? you went as far as lying to me everyday, as you claim. i loved you

You have destroyed me but you’ve also made me realize I am strong. Thank you for that. Thank you for letting me be your “distraction”

i know we never talked, and had nothing in common except both being the leaders of our groups in preschool, but i had a crush on you and i thought you should know

despite only being together for such a short amount of time. i love you. thanks for caring for me. i could really use some love from you right now but you’re not mine anymore. i hope you’re happy and i hope that whoever is with you next would feel just as important as now you made me feel, maybe even more important :)

i miss you and our facetimes. i don’t really know why we stopped talking but i wish i could still call and talk circles around each other. there still hasnt been someone that makes me laugh like you used to. i hope that youre okay and happy.

i wish u would know how much you meant to me even though we only dated for a short period. you treated me better than anyone else and now we just dont talk anymore. i wish you would've responded about the haunted house :(

hey. it’s been awhile. i miss you. i know you said you loved her more. but i still love you. you don’t love me anymore and you feel better without me, but i do miss your company and i still love you. always.

everytime you've take one look at me and hit me back with a peace sign or a smile, it makes me happy.

i never got to tell you that i loved you because i was too busy dealing with you being heart broken over a girl you got back with.

not a day goes by when i do not think of you. I am glad she makes you happy though, but when i go to sleep i wish she was me

How could you move on so quick? you didn't give me time to breathe and think about a life without you

it sometimes seems like i take you for granted but you mean everything to me. i don't show affection like I'm supposed to because I don't want to get hurt. i don't tell you how I'm feeling because I don't want you to worry. I'm hurting but I don't want you to be the one picking up after me. these are the strongest feelings I've ever had and they scare me. I'm scared to fall in love and get hurt again.

do you ever think about what you did? i will never actually tell you this but it hurt me more than you'll ever know. i loved you so so much that i let you break me and stayed friends with you after just so i could keep you in my life. now i question if i meant as much to you as i thought. because i would have never ever even thought about putting you through what i had to go through. i still wish you the best though, and unfortunately still love you

Hi, I've liked you for a while now. But, I feel like you don't take me seriously. Maybe one day you will.

im sorry i wasnt there for you, im sorry you had to fight your battle alone. most importantly, im sorry you lost your battle. know i still think about you everyday, i cant see myself raisign a family without you. i love you. im sorry.

u hurt me sm and i was always there for you. somehow i always find myself coming back to you tho. it sucks bc i know you're toxic and you aren't a good person but i associate being cared for and love with you

I'm so deeply in love with you, it physically hurts. I think about you 24/7, because I miss you so much. I don't know if I believed in soulmates before I met you, but now I know we will be together one day. you light up every room and every person in it. You are funny, outgoing, and the most amazing boy I have ever known. I wish I could say this to you for real. I love you Christian.

I'm so deeply in love with you, it physically hurts. I think about you 24/7, because I miss you so much. I don't know if I believed in soulmates before I met you, but now I know we will be together one day. you light up every room and every person in it. You are funny, outgoing, and the most amazing boy I have ever known. I wish I could say this to you for real. I love you Christian.

i adore you! thanks for being the best :)

we both destroyed eachother but i still miss u w my whole heart

I still think of you and wonder if you’ll call me…

i wish we would’ve had the chance to love each other before everything was messed up

can we meet at our spot? i need to feel something again, to see you one last time /:

i think about you every day still, no matter who i'm with or what i'm doing my mind goes back to you

I love you and you will always be my first love. For 7 years, i had always looked for you.

If you like me, please tell me. I love you so much it’s driving me nuts.