Unsent messages to CHASE

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My little chili pepper, it has been too long without you. My little sister has been asking where you are. She doesn't quite understand that she won't see you ever again. She's 8 and never had a father figure in her life until you came along. She thought of you as the man that would watch her grow up into a beautiful young woman. She doesn't actually think that exactly, of course. But I saw in her eyes when she looked at you. Her eyes sparkled when she looked up at you. I haven't seen that glimmer in a while. I miss it. She is my little baby. I know you loved her. I miss you so much every day. This has been the worst year of my life. I hope you and my mum are having fun. I know how close you guys were before she... you know... People say when you lose someone the pain never really goes away, it just gets easier to deal with. Well, it has been 4 months and nothing has changed. I still can't find a sewing needle to close the hole in my heart that went with you. You don't know how bad I want to just end it and join you. But we'll have to wait to meet again. Belly needs someone. I will never forgive myself if she ends up with my 'father'. I will never forgive myself for telling you to go to that party. I love you, Nick. I will see you one day. Until then, keep my mother company.

as much as i miss and love you... you’ve taught me how to live without you and that’s exactly what i’m doing

hey I haven’t talked to u in about 7 months and I really miss those dumb conversations we had I miss u

i’ll always be here waiting for the day you come back. my heart will always be yours no matter how much you hurt me no matter what you do. i can’t hate you. when i said i love you forever i meant it. i hope this isn’t the end of us because we were great. everyone saw it. i just want the energy you gave her the paragraphs the endless ft calls the love. i hate how soft you make me. i’m here. always. i miss you. i really miss you mi amor.

why would you leave me like this. am i not enough? did i do something wrong? did u get mad when i told you not to blackmail. u left me causing me to be unstable. what did i do for you do this. i swear i think of u every second of everyday. why don't you leave my mind? i always wonder if u are thinking of me? what makes me feel worse is that. all of the things you have done to me, i would never even have the THOUGHT to do it to you. i swear your the worst person to be walking on this planet but for some reason im still stuck to you. for some reason there is always a part of me telling me to stay and. wait. why? why would i ever feel like that to someone like you. and the fact i constantly give you so many chances. and every time u ruin it and i still let you back into my life knowing you aren't going to change. you never will change. you the worst. and i hate you so much that i love you so much. i've never felt this way towards someone. absolutely not a soul i have felt this way for. there are so many nice guys i should'e given a chance to. most the time i still stuck to you. WHYYY? everything reminds me about you. what hurts so badly is that you left me for the. girl you said you wouldn't ever go for. of course you break everything you tell me. seeing you on her causes so much pain. you are my distraction. you are where i feel safe. i forever only wish you the best. i love you... bye :C

i’ll always have a place for you in my heart but the fact that we could never work saddens me more than you’ll ever know

I don't think you will ever see this. Maybe by the time you will we might not be friends anymore. Either way I want to tell you that you got this. You matter so much to people and please don't ever give up. Life can get annoying and and painful but you can get through anything if you put your mind to it.

i originally tried to make you fall for me to get back at my ex (your best friend). but now i'm the one that's crushing

I'm terrified that you went on to make others feel even a fraction of the amount of fucked up you made me feel

our love fluctuates. i can never get a clear sign. i know its coming to an end but i just need a goodbye from you. that's all.

i feel like we keep getting dragged back together. like something about us is supposed to work. but another part of me thinks we’re not meant for each other. i want to be your best friend but i’m scared to catch feelings for u. thank you for always coming back.

You treated me so well for a whole YEAR but you left me for my best friend FIVE DAYS after u left me on our ONE YEAR. What did she have that I didn't? I never got closure from either one of you. It honestly kinda hurts still. I recently read some texts that were sent between us... we were on the same page about everything. I don't understand... Did u cheat on me? Were you guys flirting behind my back? Anyways I want you to know I met someone better and we have almost been together for a year. Chase our relationship makes me second guess everything. You really let me down. I tried to kms when you left... not just because of you but because everyone started leaving me because we had the same friends... I'm sorry whatever I did...if I even did anything...

you’re my everything. if you break my heart i don’t know what i’ll do please never leave me no matter what. i’ll be broken?

i miss you and i know the feeling isn’t mutual. things shouldn’t have gone the way they did and i’m sure you have the worst image of me now in your head but that’s okay. hope you’re doing well

Although we were only like 6 I still knew I loved you. Now years later when I think of love you always come to mind. Truth is I haven’t ever stopped liking you since we met?

you fucked me up so bad i dont think ill ever be the same again. I will always love you but you chose her and now i have to live with it...

I messed up. We both did. I wish I tried more because I know you need someone to show you how much they care for you, that person is me. I know there’s someone else now but I wish you would just take time to focus on yourself like I’m doing. I’m doing this because I have hope for us. I know I never told you but I love you.

I’m still blocked and you may never see this, but I’m not doing this for you, I’m doing it for me. I’ve come to realize that All I lost was a boy who used me for my body and who would touch anything that moved, while you lost a woman who is hard working, determined and would’ve given you the whole world. I tried so hard. I could’ve handled things better, but I can’t say that you didn’t deserve my outburst. I didn’t truly like you, I liked the idea of you and my addictive personality took over. So instead of feeling like I lost something that could’ve been great, I sat back and watched my care and interest fade and watched you lose me, the girl who would’ve done so much just to be with you. You didn’t and will never deserve me. And I deserve a real man, not a horny little boy. Thank you for showing me that I’m worth so much more.

You were my first love and you never get off of my mind even when I try getting over you . I hope you are doing well and I hope you find someone that will make you happy!!

you don’t love me. you never did. i just loved you enough for the both of us. i gave you everything i had and you still chose her.

I can literally feel you fading away from me, no matter how much we love each other , if we don't communicate we`re never going to make it and that breaks my heart.

I miss you. You don't want to talk anymore but I miss everything about you and us. I especially miss our deep conversations. I hope you give me another chance because I love you.

I really like you and wish I had the guts to say actual words to you and not just a ton of eye contact and awkwardly standing by eachother but I'm scared of rejection

maybe one day you’ll realize how hard i tried. i love you, and i think a part of me always will. if it’s meant to be, i guess i’ll see you soon

You ruined your best friend’s relationship with the girl he loved. Girl that he still thinks about every night.

I was in love with you. You broke up with me cause you were scared, we talked got back together. We later broke up and i don’t even know why. I lost my best friends because of you. you blocked me on everything and it hurts like hell. :(

torn- ava max
i wish so much i hadn't kissed you that night, you havent looked at me the same since. I miss our adventures and our late summer nights, I know i was too young, i wish i wasnt
rosie cloud

To some people you've been here for awhile but your new to me, I like how you style your hair and are pretty quiet. just something ticks about you. Although there's many others with your same name I hope you know who you are. Im tall but your just a slight taller then me.( to all the short and annoying chases I don't mean u)