Unsent messages to CARLOS

I love you so much but you hurt me so badly. I know you’ll never find this but I’m so in love with you it hurts.

Te extraño, espero poder verte de nuevo algún día, lamento arruinar lo nuestro, aún espero que estemos juntos.

we barely knew each other but it felt like i'd known you my whole life. you're the only person thats ever felt like home to me. i miss you, but i don't think you've thought about me much and that's okay. you're happy. you deserve that, but i think i'll always wonder about "you and i" hypotheticals. you're not a forgettable soul and a selfish part of me really wishes you were.

Im sorry.. I still love you more than you know. I can’t imagine moving on because of how amazing you are but i have no other choice.

I had to leave because I knew you wouldn’t. I knew I deserved better but fucking you was the only way I got to feel close to you. You’ll probably never see this but I hope you know how bad you fucked me up and how you telling you wanted me to lose weight still lives in me. I really did love you though you didn’t deserve it. I hope Cali treats you well.

why do you give me so many hints that you like me just to say you broke up with me because you'd rather be friend

why do you give me so many hints that you like me just to say you broke up with me because you'd rather be friend

i loved you, u were my world,u Took me out of a dark hole in my life now ur the reason im in that hole again,u never loved me,u only loved the fact that i loved you... and for that i hate you

i really like you kid, i just don’t know what to say at this point because of jaime, and i don’t know how you feel about me :(

everything changed when you came into my world, and just as fast it left. I'm finally moving on and you better not come back and ruin this for me.

i dont know why i keep coming back day after day to check if you wrote me anything, when chances of you knowing about this place are slim and chances of you writing and then posting anything are actually zero. i still just wish you were trying to speak to me. or write to me. but i know you would never open up like that even in a place of strangers

Why didn’t you told me how you felt about me? I can’t stop thinking about the people we could’ve become if we would have been together

I wish i had told you how much you mean to me. I love you with my whole heart and it belongs to you. I am hoping that you are coming back to me and im sorry that i hurt you. I never wanted to hurt you. If i could then i would go back in time and do things diffrently. I love you and i always will.

i was so worried for you all the time and trying to figure out how to find some kind of balance for us and for you and for me, all while you were cheating behind my back and causing your own problems. and blaming me

It's so hard not to reach out to you. I know you're hurting but you hurt me worse. I still love you too much.

I still think about you everyday eventhough I always knew I wasn't good for you and your better without me

youre pathetic and a coward, dont ever come near my life ever again. i hate you and i hope you never feel happy again.

I wish i had the guts to tell you how I really feel, whenever I see your photos you don't know how much it makes me happy. I wish we both knew each other better.

i think we tried and i guess that's what counts. i'm not going to lie and say i'm not angry because god knows i am. i'm angry that i kept trying. i'm angry that you let me even when you knew nothing would change. i'm angry that i can't unfollow you because i'd just regret it. i'm angry that despite how much you obviously don't care about me, i can't stop caring about you. so please, do something. walk away. say something. do something. because i clearly can't.

To my first love -
I'm sorry for always taking it too far. I'm sorry for fucking everything up. I'm sorry for all the mean shit I've said to you. You're the best and the worst thing to happen to me and I'll always love you for that

don't tell me not to feel sad or not to think of you anymore when you're the one who made me sad by fucking me over. all the things i don't want to think about circulate in my head, and i have nightmares of you and her and the other her and the other her when i try to block out the images of all the things you did. so stop acting like a bleeding hero, you are the villain in my story

Gracias por permitirme sentir el amor en su máxima expresión y perdón por no llegar antes a tu vida, eres la forma más linda en que la vida me pudo decir que no.

I think I've been waiting for you to love me back for so long that I don't think I know what it's like not to be waiting for the impossible.

I've loved you since the moment I saw you. I think I'm going to love you forever. Even if you don't love me.

I think I loved you. I miss you sometimes but I know you don't so I just keep on going because I know there isn't anything to do for you to love me. It was just a fake reality

it's been years.
we barely speak and yet when we do i still feel connected to you in a way i've yet to experience with anyone else.
do you feel that too?
you were always afraid to speak your emotions, are you still that same way or has nothing changed? i wonder if soulmates can exist even when they're oceans apart, in the back of my mind i've always pictured me with you.
i know the idea of us is unrealistic but i'm not sure i can accept it.
so many things i wish i would tell you and yet here i am typing those thoughts somewhere you'll never find.
i hope we find each other one day

Me enamoré de tu perseverancia, de tu lealtad y francamente de tus besos. No sé qué pasó, o nos pasó, pero un día se acabó la perseverancia y la lealtad y ahí dejamos de besarnos.

Hi, it's been a long time since you last let me see you, you know...the reason I stopped talking to you was because I saw you with a girl, you let her touch you and hug you, you never let me do that, then you went with me as if nothing happened, that's what hurt me the most, I'm just one more for you? when you knew my feelings towards you you went away a lot, you no longer answered me and you avoided me at school, so bad am I? I just want to know, I thought I would forget you as the years went by, but it was not like that, I wonder what would have happened if I had not told you what I felt, we would still be friends? it is something that I will never know. I hope you are well and that you do not regret the decision you made.
I hope we will meet again, I will keep waiting for you even if it is the rest of my life.
I love you.
Goodbye

Odio cuando estás conmigo.Necesito decírtelo pero no puedo.Quiero que algún día me abraces y me digas que no pasa nada, que a ti te pasa lo mismo.* Mi corazon late en tu pecho en busca de calor *.Te puto odio y te amo Carlos.

after 10 years i realized how much i loved you. but ik that while i look at u, u look at someone else the way i wish u looked at me. so i let you go. I’ll always love u Carlitos:’).

hey besty boo,

Te amo mucho y realmente me preocupo por ti y sé que es extraño decirlo, pero también eres muy bonita

im so in love with you. life without you is unimaginable. i wish you werent so far away. i miss you every second im not talking to you. ik i never say it but i love you. and always will.

I will love you no matter what through all the trials and tribulations of life i'll be here, waiting for you. Waiting for you to love me back, to want me again, for me to finally be enough, i will wait for you.

I love you so much and I will never tell you cuz it will never happen but I have never met someone that's more compatible with me and I'm sorry if I end up hurting you somehow

Eres un gran chico, nunca olvides que siempre estuve para ti... cuando ni siquiera existía en tu mundo.

I want to reread every single book I have ever read with you. Not only does green suit you but the color of my eyes loves you too - 3

I think you are the love of my life, I still remember the times we kissed, with so much emotion, in the hotel, where we almost had sex, I was sure of doing it, and you were the same, but you decided to stop, for me, I know you I failed, but you had failed me so many times, I only one, and with that enough for you to leave me. And no matter what you did to me, here I continue, loving you and waiting for you

La vida nunca quiso volver a juntarnos, y, aunque éramos unos críos, nunca olvidaré nuestro primer beso y lo tierno que fuiste siempre conmigo. Te buscaré en otra vida...

I invite you to think better of it the next time you want to damage someone's heart and betray their trust. You definitely became what you vowed to destroy.
Hope someday you will understand, meanwhile, I wish you a happy life.

Se que terminamos hace más de dos años y ambos estamos con alguien más, no quiero decir que te extraño, ya que adoro a mi pareja y se que tú a la tuya, pero por fin hoy te dejo ser totalmente libre, guardando todos tus recuerdos ambos sabemos que somos almas gemelas pero no debemos estar juntos, gracias por todo.

Sin darnos cuenta nos alejamos y ahora simplemente somos desconocidos. Pienso y rio cuando recuerdo la lista de cosas que nos propusimos hacer juntos. Te agradezco por ser paciente conmigo, pero nunca entenderé como cuando decias quererme te fuiste en el momento que yo más te necesitaba. No estaba mal contigo, estaba mal con todo el mundo y sentí que me perdía a mi misma. No te juzgo, pero en ese momento dolió. Ojalá te vaya bien en la vida y aprendas a que no eres el centro de la vida del resto de las personas. Suerte

I wish I could reciprocate your feelings, but knowing how I am, I knowthat if I reciprocate, I will end up hurting you... I'm sorry

siempre me hiciste a tu manera y estoy segura que lo sabías. Siempre volvías y me lastimabas y yo seguía cayendo una y otra vez, pero ya no, chinga tu madre Carlos.

Menti al decir que ya no me gustabas en realidad me sigues gustando y me encanta ser tu mejor amiga, pero es muy doloroso cuando hablas de ella y me pides consejos

Y puede que no eche de menos a la persona, sino a como siempre estaba ahí para mi, el tener a alguien al que ir a ver siempre que te pasa algo, ya fuese bueno o malo. Tener a alguien que corta una llamada porque tú le estás llamando. Echar de menos estar siempre juntos, que quedas con esa persona aunque sean cinco minutos. La misma que se da cuenta de que no estás bien, que algo no anda bien y aunque no te diga nada te viene a buscar a la parada del metro y te compra tus chocolates favoritos para animarte, porque sabe que muchas veces no necesitas hablar sobre lo que te pasa sino sentir que a alguien le importas y que está ahí para ti. A lo mejor solo echas de menos esos abrazos eternos que te hacían sentir segura. La misma persona que sabía exactamente que te pasaba por el ligero cambio que hacías al escribir. O cómo no podías parar de sonreír y de reír a su lado. Pero es que todo eso hacen a la persona como es y tal vez entonces sí que eches de menos a esa persona. Porque nadie te conocía como él y ahora ya nadie es capaz de ver lo que te pasa sin necesidad de tu decir nada. Y es que ahora ya nadie te conoce y eso es lo que te da miedo.

hey. i saw a something today that i thought would make you laugh. wish i couldve sent it to you but that cant happen anymore

Creo que una de las cosas mas bellas de este año, has sido tu, no sabes lo que siento cada vez que me hablas en el sentido de que nunca nadie me había apoyado tanto como tu, si, te dije que podía llegar a sentir cosas por ti, y no lo voy a negar, puede que pase, pero aun asi, estoy orgullosa de ti, de cada uno de tus logros y como te animas con cosas pequeñas aunque seas muy inseguro de algunas cosas que haces, si, a veces debo admitir que siento celos, no se si me entiendas...

Te agradezco por ser esa persona que cambió toda la ecuación, "el error en la matriz", pero en este caso, un error bello

pd: Escucha Heather, tu novia es Heather

I miss walking home with you. When your warm laughter filled the cold, dark, and empty streets. I wish I would have known that was our last walk together. I would've hugged you or told you I love you, but instead we gave each other a peace sign. That peace sign hasn't left my head.

I've tried to convince myself that I don't like you, but I do. I'm done denying it. I'm done worrying about you rejecting me, so I'm here saying I like you. I like you a lot. It's ok if you don't like me back, but I can't keep doing this back and forth in my head wondering if you like me.

I don't think I mean that much to you, but sometimes you look at me and I think you must love me too.