Unsent messages to CARLOS

You were my first love that's why it hurt so much when I finally had to let go. But I had to so I could be happy. :(

I’m sorry, I regret everything I said. Come back to me, text me, call me. I want you back.. we were almost a year.. how could u just let me go so easily. You seemed to stop wanting to love me towards the end, while I was still here in love with you.

i think about you still. i love you endlessly. i want you back so bad but i know you aren’t good for me but i want you to be.

i used to think about everything i missed about you, but i just missed the thought, and comfort that you brought me.

You were one of those guys who I got very attached to who I can tell everything to I even told you I was bi and all about my child hood trauma even tho I loved you from the inside out I never had the guts to tell you tho you have blocked me from your life I still have that soft spot for you.

Its only been a week. remember the night we danced and just had fun. take me back just to see you one more time please.

Me diste el fin de semana perfecto y sé que no debería pedir más, pero lo deseo, lo necesito, te anhelo.
Vuelve.

please be different. please be better. please don't hurt me. everyone i love and open up to stabs me in the back. please don't be like the rest. please.

I haven't washed the sweatshirt you gave me back the last time we saw each other bc it smells like you.

hey so i wrote one of these months ago when i was all "i'll never move on blah blah" except now i can finally say i'm over u. i realize we were both shitty but yknow thats ok. we're still friends, i don't get sad looking at u, or thinking about when we dated. i can finally dance to love songs without getting sad, i danced earlier to one actually. so thank you for everything :) i love you loser, not romantically anymore, but you still mean a lot to me. honestly kinda wish i could delete my old message but i can't even tho it's cringy as shit but OH WELL so ig this is my goodbye. not to u, but ig to the sappy wishing we could be together feelings. i've moved on, and i feel really happy now. and i hope u'll find someone who will make u happy too

Que sepas que lo que empezó como una tontería de niña pequeña 11 años después sigue siendo real, me sigues gustando a pesar de todo

Después de dejarnos, al inicio pensé que solo fuiste un capricho, pero me di cuenta que fuiste más que eso, y que te quise y que jamás te podré olvidar, porque el amor verdadero nunca es el primero, sino el que más te marca, gracias por tantos momentos y a pesar de todo fuiste lo más lindo que tuve en mi vida

sometimes i wish we could just get closer. i really like you and i wanna do these couple things together but idk if you want that. i wanna skate with you, go get food together, meet your family i just wanna love you. you have an amazing personality and i wanna see more of that. i wanna do these silly things with you. but you are doing that with someone else..

thank u for always giving me everything dad and I forgive u for all the things u said and did to me and don't worry I'll always love you dad. always.

Its time for me to move on from this stupid crush that has lasted for 2+ years. we will never become a thing, but im still glad of having you by my side. i love you, so so much,but i cant keep chasing after someone ill never have, after someone that will never love me back.
goodbye

You want me to forgive, to talk to you like if you don't do anything. But I can't, no when it still hurt, it's been two years remembering that day and I'm not able to forget everything. And I have to say thank you, 'cause you are the reason of why I'm like this

El primer nunca se olvida, aun me cuesta, cada persona que conozco te busco en ellos, o al menos eso hacia antes me pregunto si alguna vez te volveré a ver..

I’m sorry. I wish we could still be friends. Even when I ended things it still hurts to see you with her.

Oye, gracias por todo, pero lo lamento, en serio lo siento, lo arruiné todo al ilusionarme; se que solo éramos amigos, pero día a día te volviste más y más especial para mí, y eso fue un error ya que cree una dependencia hacía ti, te puse una carga que no te correspondía y simplemente creí que todo estaría bien, pero no... lo arruiné todo; pero ¿sabés? No me arrepiento de haberte dicho el cómo me sentía ya que fue gracias a todo lo que sucedió después que comprendí que no eras tan perfecto como creía, tuve que caerme de la nuve de ilusión que tenía acerca de tí, pero gracias por haberme fallado, ahora entiendo que realmente nunca te importé ni como amiga y eso está bien, todo era un producto de mi imaginación y de una forma u otra debía de ver la realidad, y ¿sabes qué? estoy mejor, luego de estos mese de pensarlo todo solo puedo decir gracias por haber soportado a alguien como yo y solo quería pedirte perdón si en alguna ocasión mi compañía no fue de lo mejor.
Gracias por todo y por hacerme caer en cuenta que realmente no eras tan importante como yo creía.
Espero que tu vida esté llena de prosperidad y alegrías.

Con cariño L...

hey, i’m in love with you silly but don’t know how to say it so i’ll say it here till i can say it to you. i wish to keep you in my life forever because you make me feel happy and important even when i think i’m incapable of feeling such thing. thank you forever and always.

eramos tan jovenes ,con tanto sentimientos al borde del corazón;no tengo idea si todo eso fue real,pero vaya que fue emocionante

si tan solo tuviera la oportunidad de volver a sentir que te tengo te juro que esta vez no te fallaría

Te quiero demasiado. Ojala algun dia seas una realidad y no solo un sueño que dejo bonitos recuerdos?

Ive come to terms with what you did and I will never forgive you for it. But I still love you. Always.

i'm really scared to tell you but i like you. i don't usually get stuck on people or actually like them so i'm not sure what to do. or what i want. i know you're different and i just want you to know that i meant it when i said you deserved a lot.

you hurt me really bad. we haven’t talked in what feels like forever. but i still miss you, the old you.

the days go by and the reality gets clearer and clearer, the reality that i really lost you. and since i lost you, somehow i lost myself too, as if you were still an essential part for my well being and that, without you, i would just go on aimlessly. you may even think that im just another melodramatic teenager, or that im still too young to feel this amount of emotions, but don't you dare, not even for a second, blame only me for still loving you so much. it was you who was increasingly feeding this love that i feel for you, making it impulsive, needy, wanting more and more of you. maybe it scared you, or maybe you weren't prepared to return as much love as the one you received. maybe this, maybe that, so many "maybes" that just demonstrate the amount of uncertainty that still goes through my veins, the number of questions that never found a precise answer, because you never got to clarify anything to me. you just... left. without explanations or goodbyes, because not even that you were able to give me. one last goodbye, one last "i love you", or even just one last of those kisses on the forehead that i loved so much, for the simple fact of transmitting me comfort and security. but here i am, blaming only you too, trying to make excuses that make me believe that i gave my best to make the "us" work. i ended up coming to the conclusion that i didn't, that i could have done so much more... just like you. it seems that, in the end, we were both condemned for the guilt of having planted a love that we thought it was forever, but we weren't patient enough to let it blossom. and so, in the depths of the past, there's a pale, withered love.

Eres la única persona que me hizo sentir mariposas en el estómago desde el primer momento en el que te vi, te quiero junto a mi toda mi vida

I am so angry at you and I cant even tell you. I hate you I hate you I hate you. go fuck yourself and suck a dick. fucking asshole shitty human being

You are a fucking piece of shit. Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you you are the worst thing that’s happened to me I wish I could just die I hate you so much

thank you for your time and memories but i hope she hurts you the same way you did to me :) , you never deserved me and i should have realized that sooner, you took advantage of my kindness and i hate you for that .

I love you more then anything in the world and I’d do anything for you. I’ll always love you no matter what, no matter how many times you’ve broke my heart

I really wanted things to go back to normal, but I just can't control my emotions. I hope you find someone better. I love you bebi.

I really wanted things to go back to normal, but I just can't control my emotions. I hope you find someone much better than me. I love you bebi

I regret not risking for u, I don't wanna lose you as a friend but I end up losing my bb. ilysm & sayonara for the last time

I regret not risking for u, I don't wanna lose you as a friend but I end up losing my bb. ilysm & sayonara for the last time

It’s been 9 months but still think about you everyday. I know we only lasted a month but you were the first boy I actually really liked almost love.

We were strangers. We found each other and I felt something. Why did you have to do what you did? It made me feel as though I’m not worthy of love. It hurt me and still does. I feel like in my heart we’ll meet again, but I don’t know that I will be able to handle it. I don’t know if I want to meet again, because maybe we’re better off being strangers.

i love you. i will never stop loving you, you gave me a purpose and im so alone without you. i saw a future with you..i wish things never ended the way they did. God i miss you so much.. but you're not mine anymore.

i love you. i will never stop loving you, you gave me a purpose and im so alone without you. i saw a future with you..i wish things never ended the way they did. God i miss you so much.. but you're not mine anymore.

I still love you. i always will, pls come back to me. you were the first boy who made me feel loved. i’m broken without you. it hurts bc ik you not even thinking abt me :(

I’m sorry I hurt you so badly. It was so dark where I was when I hurt you. I hope you will be able to forgive me someday.