Unsent messages to BRYSON

You always have a spot in my heart.

i’m sorry for that night

it was only a month but i miss it. come back

i will never understand how you could do that to me

I apologize in advanced for ruining your life, I’m so so sorry

is it too soon to tell you i’m in love with you?

would i call what we had love? maybe not. even so, now that you are gone i couldn’t feel better. my life didn’t have enough room for yours. ❤️

you're fading out of my life. i can feel it, but i know there's nothing i can do. i miss you, but you don't miss me. we could've been something special....

why wasn't i enough dude? like i really believed u loved me. for so long i thought u felt something. everything that happened, how could u not feel one ounce of love for me. am i just that unlovable? was i just never enough? was i not good enough? was i too much of a drama magnet? why? why did u never love me? i loved u with everything i had. in fact i still love u and for some reason i can't let go of that love i felt so strongly. my heart just won't let me. maybe i still have hope that you're lying. i still have hope that u did love me and everything u said after our relationship was a lie. but i'm not that stupid. i wish i could give up on this hope. i wish i could delete every memory i have of u. i wish i could give up on u. but i can't. that isn't me. i don't know how u did it. how did u give up so easily? i hate that i'd go back to u in a heartbeat if u came back. i hate that u could do anything and hurt me so much and i'd still want u. i just don't know how to escape u.

this is my second one to you, but you will never know. i miss you so so much, i keep replaying our memories in my head. i keep replaying the moment when you said you were talking to a girl you used to talk to. you broke my heart, but you're still one of my best friends. i still wonder why i am not enough...

thank you for everything and i wish things could have worked out better but we just weren’t a good match.

I want the comfort you gave me back. And I only ever want to feel that way with your comfort. No one else. Is it gonna stop hurting anytime soon? I hope you don't feel the pain I do but if you are I think that would be comforting. Not bc I want you in pain but bc then I will know that I was right about you. I trust my own word and intuition but if it could be assured you do love me the way I love you...then well I guess the reasons I've been going insane won't all be for nothing.

If we met up to talk somehow, would you kiss me? Would you tell me you're still in love with me and think about me everyday? Would you smile because you're finally able to admire my face again? Would you tell me you're sorry you can't always control your anger so you say things you don't mean? Would you say you'd do better for me? Or have you forgotten all about this toxic connection we both braced onto for so long? Lmk if you can answer any of those questions. Or just kiss me bc that works too. Ok goodnight bryson I love you, I do miss the real you.

thank you for being there for me. i always felt better in your arms. i'm gonna miss you. you're still in my life, but i know you're gonna leave me. everyone always does. i love you

A lot of times when I look up at the stars now I think about that night that you told me you loved me. I wish I could erase every memory that I have of you. You're nothing more to me than a sting that I feel every now and then. I wish I had trusted my intuition, you're just like everyone else.

I’m not sure why you’re back but I’m certain it won’t be long until you leave again. I haven’t stopped loving you but I’ve stopped getting my hopes up that you’ll love me the same back.

Im so so sorry please forgive me idk what i was thinking i just took the pain and tried to replace it with that.

Sometimes I think you were just a bad dream. You left so quickly that I barely have an idea of who you are. But I remember everything you did. I wish I didn’t think about it

hey there. i miss you. i hope you’re doing okay. thank you for doing everything you did. thank you for trying to stay. you were amazing to me. i’d do anything to have a conversation without you ignoring me.

i swear you loved me back. i was never so sure about something. then you left and i dont know what to do.

today was the hardest one in a while that i've had since i've been without you. i miss you everyday. maybe a little more or maybe a little less. i just know i still do. you run through my mind constantly. i can't believe its been over a year and a half. it feels like just yesterday you told me you wish you'd met me sooner. but it's been so long. i miss you. please i need you back. even just for a month or 2. maybe longer if you remember the spark we had and you'd like too. i just want you here, with me. again. even though i know that won't happen i'd like to believe that one day maybe it will. i love you but you don't love me back. the only thing i can do is hope.