Unsent messages to AYDEN

I hope you keep the bear I gave you forever, I’m sorry for hurting you.

I just want u to text first and give me attention u say u love me but it doesn’t seem it.

at the end of the day you weren’t even sorry, that’s what hurt the most

right person , wrong time .

I know you have your doubts about love but you mean so much to me and I never want to lose you.

i should be mad at u but i can't cos i understand why u did everything. i will always love you yk?

I know you reached out but you have a girlfriend, maybe it would’ve been different if you didn’t.

i am sorry someone out there made you distrust love but i will never finish falling in love with you

I miss you, us, I love you, I'll sit here and wait even though you don't know I'm waiting.

i wish i could still love you, but i can’t anymore. i miss u ml <3

I’m sorry we ended the way we did, I know you’re doing better now with her and she makes you happy.

I wish you had picked me.

the sweetest boy, ever. i love you.

i was enchanted to meet you.

I miss you so much I hope we meet again in another life.

i’m so sorry

l loved you.

I still think about you

I hope you finally realize that I’m not coming back.

i still love you. i always will no matter what.

I wish you loved me back, the way i love you.

Did u ever like me

I forgive you.

i miss you

You hurt me a lot. Did you even like me or did you like to challenge of having me? Something I will always question... interesting...

i miss you. i wish i could have one last day to lay in your arms. i wish i could tell you i loved you still. now i can’t because you moved on faster than i could get that sentence out. i’m still waiting for you to finish my sentence after i say always...

i’m sorry i wasn’t ready to love you. i just needed to work and understand myself. i will always love you

I miss you I wish you missed me but you’re probably not even thinking of me, I wish I wasn’t thinking about you, but I can’t seem to get you off my mind, I wish I could move on from you I mean we weren’t even together, but I wish we were everyday I wish we were, but we aren’t

I hope I didn’t accidentally push you into anything you didn’t want to do. I hope you think of me fondly

i wish u loved me when i loved u. u ruined relationships for me but it’s okay because now i love myself

It took me ages to realise that you not being able to settle for one person didnt mean that I wasnt good enough.

do you ever think about me? not in a romantic or sexual way but do you remember staying up to talk to me

I told you how bad it hurt and you kept hurting me. Still, now that it’s over, you still don’t realize anything you did wrong.

every day i wake up and hope you texted me. just to say check in one last time. i miss you as a friend

i was the one who tried. i didn't give up on our friendship okay? it was your fault. but i still think about u

when I saw your name pop up on my phone I froze. It was the first time in a year. I thought I was over you

honestly thank u. if you had never broken my heart i wouldn't have learned to love myself like i do now. im thankful for u.

“I thought that I was dreaming when you said you love me” thank you for loving me so unexpectedly. i love you always

You know what I’ve been wanting to talk to you again not because of anything but I just miss having you as a friend I don’t know it’s just something I always wonder what it would be like if we would have still been friends would we have eventually stop talking or would we still be friends do you wonder this too I’m sure you don’t because we’ll I just think a lot like I have nothing against you and if that’s what’s stopping you from talking to me don’t let it stop you because you were so sweet to me and I was the jerk sometimes I dorm realize it but I slowly cut people out with out knowing

I had a dream about you and it the way I like to see you not the way that I actually see you you were perfect and so kind but I know I shouldn’t see you this way

hey ayden i miss you alot and hopefully we get close again, i really want to see you and hug you and just hang out with you. go on cute little dates with you and i cant wait for us to go back to school because i really want to see you. i am truly sorry for breaking up with you and yes i do love you,alot there isnt a day where i dont think about you. i really wish things could go back to the way they were.i still remember the paragraphs you wrote me and the day that i got butterflies when you texted me,everyday when ever i get a notification for some reason i always think its you. your secrets will always be safe with me no matter what. did you know i changed for you i tried to make my mental heath better so i could date you again i will never give up on us i still believe your my soulmate. no matter how far apart we are you will forever be my soulmate. i know we are really young and dont know much about love but for some reason you changed that for me. i never thought that some one could love me as much as i love you, i will never meet someone that will could ever love me the same. im sorry i honestly regret leaving you...i wish we were as close as we used to be. you have changed tho you became like all horny and stuff like that lol. btw thanks for getting me back into saying that again. i love you, elyse

Please notice me. I’m right here. I’ve been waiting on you, but you don’t even care about me, do you. you hurt me, so much.

hey. I don’t even know what I’d say to you if I seen you again. But you took a piece of me. Wether you believe it or not you did give me trust issues. You were my first love. And you constantly brought me down and I know you wouldn’t believe any of this if I told you but you did and it sucked. But I suppose we are broken I know she hurt you however that didn’t excuse it.

ayden i know this'll sound corny but i feel so lucky meeting you and i know u have ur imperfections but i just want u to know I do actually love you and i care about you whatever ur going thru im here ready to listen to ur problems if u want to tell me i love you

I was going to do this last night but I wanted to make sure that the card was your favorite color. I’ve noticed that you’ve gotten distant from me yesterday and I’m guessing today but let’s hope not. I really like you like a lot and it’s hard to see you distance yourself from me like you’re funny,smart,tall,cute, and just overall like the perfect person. It really breaks my heart when I know you’re available to talk to me and you still don’t. I honestly don’t even know if you have feelings for me or not but I can totally feel this turning into a Blake situation where I get way too attached and then you don’t even like me but then when you stop talking to me completely I just cry for days just thinking about you just the thought of your face and the sound of your voice. It will just kill me but hey I’ll get over you eventually and I’ll be happy for you with anything you do in life and I just want you to know that I’m super duper proud of you.

Thank you. You were a terrible person but Im stronger now thanks to you. I wish the very best for you, and I hope you dont do the things you did to me and my friends to the new people that enter your life.

I still love you, I pushed u out my life and it didn't faze u a bit it seems like, im the one going thru the pain. idk if I've ever loved anyone so im not even sure if I truly loved you, but when u told me you loved me, and you said you meant it I felt like nothing could stop that, and from what I think back on nothing did, it was just never there, I dont think u ever rlly loved me. and thats ok, it hurts, but its ok, I'll get over, I am over it. but I miss the way u talked to me, even if it was all fake, it was my guilty fantasy then.

I really fucking love you,, i'm not entirely sure you even like me as more than a friend but Kat makes me feel jealous, that's not something that i've ever felt before. i want to cuddle with you as something more than what we already are. i want to hold you tight as we gently drift off under the covers, our body's keeping each other warm while the cold air of the night blows outside. i want to kiss you, god you have no idea how much i just want to kiss that pretty face of yours. i want to go on hikes together, the leaves of fall crunching beneath our shoes, alerting all animals around us of our presence. it wont stop it from being any less fun, especially since i would still be with you. i want to be more than friends, i really want to date you. not as a joke, not for shits and giggles. i still don't know how long i've liked you for but i do know that it's been for awhile. it just wasn't in the way i thought it was. i don't like you platonically, it's romantically. i'm pretty sure that this won't ever meet anyone's eyes but my own but i just wanted to tell someone out there just how much i love you.

i’m sorry we didn’t work out. i will forgive care about you. i hope we figure a way out to be together

I cant believe I still think about you. I know it seemed like I didn't care but I was too scared to show you how much I really did maybe wanting to see you again is selfish but not having you with me hurts so bad and seeing you with him hurts that much more I hope you guys are happy i'm still doing my best to become a better person I started doing that for you originally but I was too late I cant express how sorry I am I hope he treats you way better than I ever did and that he doesn't take you for granted I cant see myself with anyone else and being around other people just makes me wish they were you I will never forget your smile or the way you made me feel or how for once you made me feel safe I always liked the idea of soulmates and now that you're gone it feels like I've lost mine but despite that I want you to be happy I want nothing more than to see that handsome smile again I want you to be happy with someone who is better than me and someone who deserves you and the light you bring