Unsent messages to AVA

we both messed up

You push yourself too hard. Please take a break. You deserve it.

sometimes i find myself missing you but you’ve hurt me so much

please never change.

i wish we could go back to sixth grade

i just want you to want me like i want you

I love you so much, my beautiful princess <3

I miss what we had, now you don't never talk to me

I really love your smile:')

i dont know what to do

sometimes i miss what we had even tho it wasn’t really anything

i miss you. how close we were before you moved away. :(

I really like you. I don't know why I do. I have never had a crush on a girl or anyone online before. You were the one who made me bi and proud of myself :D I hope you like me too. I think about you and our future. I have never wanted to be in a relationship with a girl this much before. I hope one day we can meet eachother in real life

oh god. why do u make me feel like i’m nothing and everything at the same time? i would never leave you and i hate that

i love you. i’m sorry. you don’t deserve any of this, i’ll work to be better for you. i know you’re pulling away and it’s my fault. i’m so so sorry. i love you and i’ll be better for you.

what happened to us? we were doing so good. we finally met eachother, do you not miss that feeling? the feeling when we saw each other? the feeling in the photo booth. did you not see the way i looked at you?? do you really not miss me at all.

thank you for all the memories. but i think it’s time for me to go. i dont think i can do this much longer. i love you:) stay strong.

writing again bc i didnt get it all out the first time. i do miss you but i dont know what i miss more. i dont know if i miss you or the idea i had of you more. regardless i still miss you and i feel like i kind of ruined things, i shouldnt have said anything and just let things flow but i was so caught up by you. i wish you were clear w how you felt instead of leading me on and i think thats what fucked me up the most. the excitement you gave me and then one of the hardest falls. i know you said it had nothing to do with me but i cant help but overthink that i was just being stupid. we had such a good thing going and i feel like i ruined it,, we barely talk anymore. i used to get so excited to see your notifications. I dont regret anything bc at least then i knew and wasnt being lead on any longer. but then again when weve talked since youve made comments sending me mixed signals but ive learned to take them w a grain of salt. maybe im just over reacting to all of this and youd probably find it weird how much this affected me but i really thought i found something special w you. it was too good to be true. in a different world things are perfect. maybe one day or maybe not. what is meant to be will be. i do miss having you as a friend though. i really wish we could be closer again and im hoping things will change in the next year,, i hope we find each other again.
i really do miss you

i wish things wouldve worked out and circumstances were different,, i hope we can be close again one day

you were my best friend for so so long and one of us changed i don’t know if it’s me or you but lately you’ve been so toxic to me and i just can’t handle it, but i’ll never say anything to you because i cant lose you.

I wish we were still friends. I wish we still talked. But I know you want nothing to do with me. Whatever I did, I'm sorry.

hi aaaavaaaaa. i really miss you. i wish i hadn't been such a bitch to you and i regret it more than anything. i would tell you this right to your face but i dont think you would wanna talk to me anymore. i miss doing almost everything with you. we really drifted over quarantine and i wish i had called u more. you're such a great person and i took you for granted and it's the dumbest thing i've ever done. i love and miss u so so so so so much and i hope you're doing okay because you absolutely deserve the world. IMYSM AAAAAA

in another universe i think our souls were made for each other; my blind optimism took the best of me. you were never going to change and you convinced both of us every time that you did.

ava, since taylor swift i loved you. i'm so sorry. things are for the better now though. i hope ur happy.

ava ur really annoying and idk why im friends with you so im going to kindly ask you to jump off a bridge and i hope you hit your head on a rock when you fall and i hope it gets split open

i don’t know why i fell for you, i just did. i’m in love with everything about you. but you will never feel the same.

I'm so glad that we went our separate ways, you're so toxic and you know that yourself. I hope that you change yourself for the better in 2021.

The fact that you body-shame so many girls and they didn't do anything to you is so disrespectful, and yeah you know who this is. Learn to respect women properly and stop dating boys just to make your ex jealous.

You would never want someone like me. I made fun of you so you would notice me. I never meant for you to go away.

I love you dipshit
I also really miss you lol and sometimes I read through our old messages just to feel happy and it honestly works. I don't think you actually understand how much I love you and I'm honestly worried you might break up with me at any moment. I started liking you when we had that dumb argument over George pig lol but I tried to distract myself by saying I liked someone else you have the cutest smile that i love so much I can't describe it i just want you to know I love you so much

We showed each other the deepest parts of our hearts and you promised me you'd never leave. So why did you?

god, i know we ended on good terms but you might be the reason relationships scare me. they scare me so much i might never want to love again

I love you so much, you are everything that is keeping me here. If I go before you, just know if I have any choice in the matter I will be watching over you.

i held on to every bit of you that last day :( it felt like our last hug u mean so much to me thank you for everything u made me understand real love even though i couldn’t express my emotions at the time you are and will always forever be apart of me

some days pass by and i hate you, i hate that you can’t love me. i hate that you still love lily. when she was awful to you. and all i have ever been to you is what u need. i would do anything for you to just love me back. forget her. please. lily never cared about you. she didn’t love you. she used you. i would never do that. please give me a chance. and if u see this. u know who it’s from. i know u do. if u see this text me and tell me if you will ever be able to love me like u loved her. because i love you. forever and always.

we all know what’s going to happen. i need to in order to benefit my own future. i’m sorry to you. i miss you. hope one day you can see my perspective

you are the best thing to ever happen to me. all i want is to tell you how much i love you. everytime i see you i loose my breath. my heart thrums and my head swims with thoughts of u and i. please don’t ever go. i don’t care if we never become more, even if we just stay friends it’s enough. but do you think you could ever give me a chance? maybe just one. i promise i’ll love you until ur sick of me. i would never hurt you. i promise. just let me show you how i feel. because you have captured me, i am consumed by you, body and mind. i am overcome with love to give you. all i need is the chance to give it to you.

there are not days where i do not think of you. i loved you. what part of me was too little to give you the love you needed to stay? what makes me so different from him? what makes him worthy of your love and me not? i just want you to put into words where i went wrong and what i could’ve done to deserve your love. i was a better person around you. young. in love. clean. the scars that you drew butterflies around started bleeding again because i felt like i wasn’t enough for you to love over him. the days where you would tell me you loved me then text him the same. it hurts to love you but sometimes i think that’s all i will ever know.

u hate me for no reason, u slag me off days on end, threatening to hit me and I've never said a bad word abt you. all because brooke spread some shitty rumours like the bitch she is. all ive ever said abt u is how pretty u are and how lush ur figure is. i still dont understand why u have any reason to hate me, i may be annoying but ive never said a word to u, I've never even had a chance to show u who i am

you’ve changed me for the better. i really fucking wished you knew your worth. the amount of love i have for you, and how much you inspire me to be like you. i cant express you how much i love you.

If you read this I did love you but it destroyed me when you broke up with me I didn’t know what to do I was confused with what the problem was it made me question myself and I was so destroyed

I've excepted the fact that we will never be as close as we used to be, I just wish you had chosen a different group to leave me for, but atleast you're still my 'bff'

Idek what to say to you. You made my life a living hell and I hate you for it! Because of you I had to call the fucking police and when people at school found out, you said it was all a lie and that I was just looking for attention. Well guess what bitch, I have friends now that ACTUALLY care about me and aren’t two faced bitches

its time for you to move on. really. its been years. i understand if you're still upset, but move on. its not good for you. we're not gonna speak to each other ever again, so stop thinking about it.

u caused pain to me making that change my life and how i see u. but u were there for me, thanks for being the best but most hurting friend i’ve had.

i wish we could be friends again. everytime i think of you my throat starts to hurt and i start to cry. i rlly wish we could go farther in life together, thanks for everything.

fuck you! you left me for Diego and I can't forgive you for that. You're a horrible person but I love you shawty

i know its selfish but i wish things were the way they used to be when it was just me and you . i really am in love with you

You are truly magical and I could never repay you for the gift of kindness and adventure you’ve given me. Miss u

wtf is ur problem. and ur family is fucked up and your parents need a fucking divorce already. ur extremely selfish and make everything abt yourself when i sat there in front of you crying you continued to laugh and dance like nothing was wrong. theres something wrong with you.