My chest aches every time I think about you because I still love you with my whole heart even though you’ve moved on and we don’t talk anymore.

i do miss our friendship. i have since the moment it ended and i’d give anything to have it back. i miss you.

i know i never got to meet you. i know you never got the chance to meet yourself. but i miss you somehow. i wish you were here to help me through all this shit, to go through it first. i know its selfish but i needed you. i'm sorry

It's unfair how you've made me feel at times, like I'm the bad guy. When in reality I care too much and I'm scared it's gonna be what gets me hurt.

wtf is ur problem. and ur family is fucked up and your parents need a fucking divorce already. ur extremely selfish and make everything abt yourself when i sat there in front of you crying you continued to laugh and dance like nothing was wrong. theres something wrong with you.

i don't know if i'm actually in love with you. i would give anything in the world to feel the same as you but as much as i try i just come up blank. you make me so jealous. you have a good life. why do you waste it on being mad?

u caused pain to me making that change my life and how i see u. but u were there for me, thanks for being the best but most hurting friend i’ve had.

ava ur really annoying and idk why im friends with you so im going to kindly ask you to jump off a bridge and i hope you hit your head on a rock when you fall and i hope it gets split open

I just wanted to let you know that I love you and that you are the person I think of every time I walk somewhere

hey ava. i thought i was over you but then every once in a while a random memory will come up, and i'm sad again. she said i needed closure, so here i am typing a message to u on this strange website, a message i'll forget about eventually, a message you'll probably never see. we met in 8th grade. i knew who you were in 7th, and u knew who i was, but we didn't become friends until we had science together. the ease in which you started conversations, your complete lack of care for what people thought of you, and your infectious laugh immediately drew me in. i guess after years and years of fake friends, it was refreshing to have someone so genuine and real. we became close so fast, we just clicked right away?? i think things got a little rocky when i dated that guy. you two met and became close because of that, and i constantly got jealous with how close u two were. i know realize it's because i liked u, not him. i hated that u guys were number one best friends on snap, i hated that you would text him while u and i hung out, i hated that he made u laugh. i broke up with him, and came out. you know, you were the third person i ever told i was gay. funny how the first people i told are people i don't talk to anymore. it's weird how fast things can change isn't it? after we broke up, you two became so so so close. you would bring him food, skip class to hang out, and just be with each other 24/7. god, i was so pissed about that. honestly i still think that was really fucked up of u, but of course i now know i was mad for other reasons than i thought. school ended, and summer began. we got so close. we texted everyday, from the moment i woke up to the moment i went to bed. you just understood me better than anyone else i had ever met. i could be weird and honest with u. i often wonder how much u remember. we would always joke about dating, about u being gay, about us kissing to find out once and for all. little did i know that would end up actually happening. you slept over, and we cuddled while watching a movie and i just felt so safe in your arms. i didn't even realize i liked u until u kissed me. u were my first ever kiss and it was so surprising and exciting and i was just so happy existing in that moment. we fell asleep spooning, and u fell asleep. honestly i don't know how u did. i stayed uo most of the night in shock, trying to figure out what happened and what this meant for me, for u, for us. in the morning, we acted like nothing even happened, although we both knew. i texted u about it after u left, and that was the moment everything went downhill. how do u cope with the fact that ur best friend, the girl u like and who took ur first kiss, just told u that she was straight and didn't even like u. i cried. like a lot. u cried too, and got so stressed u threw up. we were both a mess. i didn't wanna lose u as a friend, but u broke my heart. things eventually got back to us texting a lot, but they were never the same. there was no playful flirting, no off handed gay jokes. we went to the mall together that one time in an attempt to make things normal. it was so fucking awkward. when i went in the dressig room with u, when we saw the gay pride stuff at hot topic, i literally wanted to die. after that, i kept getting jealous with how much u hung out with abby, and u kept lying about hanging out with that guy. i knew what we had was over, but i kept pushing. we slowly stopped talking, we got in fights, made up, got in another fight, until eventually we just stopped talking. i haven't texted u in over a year at this point, and the last i heard from u was when he texted me to say u called me a fag (that's cute but weren't u the one who kissed me?) anyways sometimes i still think about u. you've changed, like so much. u bleached ur hair, u wear mascara now, u care so much about looks and ur image, i never thought this was how things would end between us, or that you'd turn out this way. i guess i sorta miss what we had? i definetley want nothing to do with how u are now, but sometimes i watch our vlogs, or read our text messages and get sad. u were a huge part of my life, and i don't think i ever got the closure i needed. i think i'll smash ur snowglobe and that'll help haha. i used to wish bad things on u, but honestly now i'm like 90% over it. i really do want the best for u. i hope u find someone that makes u happy, and i hope u learn how to be nice to urself and others. bye ava, maybe we'll meet again in another life, although i believe your part in my life has ended.

I keep thinking about the night our friend ship ended. I know it’s for the better but I feel like a fucking ass hole. and I want to bring you a fucking pink drink and those stupid cheap sugar cookies with the frosting from cub cause they’re your favorite and I wanna hear everything you have been up to but I can’t even bring myself to text you. I know I apologized but it kills me when I find a snap memory of us. we were such good friends. I would say mutually it ended for the most part. but god I miss you. I miss ur crazy strict mom. I miss having to bike you home in 9th grade even when u lived like 5 mins away from the clay hole and I lived 40. I miss volleyball. I miss fucking chicken girls. I don’t even think u know what this website is but if u are reading this I miss u :( I miss our friendship :( and I hope ur doing okay. I miss u. it’s okay if u don’t feel the same way. I deadass won’t be offended. but if any part of u misses me please just text me. I love u boo and i hope your doing good love :)

We were bff's in because I had no friends. But then there was Ella and she talks about you also your my friend but you are kinda annoying so ummmm yea

Ava you are so fucking annoying!!!!!! I hate you sometimes. I want to know why your mom wont let you have social media. And your mom is super fucking ugly!!! Also me and my friends mom dont care about covid so we have sleepovers. While you aren't allowed in anyone's house, have sleepover, or even go in the fucking backyard. Your mom is the worst!!!!!! SUCKS TO BE YOU!!!!!!!! HAHA

you might have never loved me but I loved you with everything in me. that's why I'm letting you go; don't come back. you don't deserve me.

ava, since taylor swift i loved you. i'm so sorry. things are for the better now though. i hope ur happy.

We still talk but I'm not your closest best friend anymore and you seem much happier with your new friends and i'm glad you've found your people, it just makes me feel like not enough when you don't reach out anymore

hello jandice I am so excited to see you at thanksgiving this year. I hope you mix the flour all the way.

i never meant to hurt you. but what you said hurt too. it wasn't your place to act like that, and i hope you realize that now. i forgive you, but i hope you've learned not to do it again, because no one else deserves to feel the way i did.

you could have any guy you want. but u want the only one that shows some type of interest in me. why?

its time for you to move on. really. its been years. i understand if you're still upset, but move on. its not good for you. we're not gonna speak to each other ever again, so stop thinking about it.

Right person, wrong time? We both know I should have treated you better, so I thought it was time to let you go. I hope we talk again soon, because I miss being your friend.

You are truly magical and I could never repay you for the gift of kindness and adventure you’ve given me. Miss u

i know its selfish but i wish things were the way they used to be when it was just me and you . i really am in love with you

I know it’s hard right now but I promise it will get better. I’m 52 days clean and I haven’t had thoughts in a week. :)) i love you

That night felt like magic and I would give anything to relive it. The pictures, the way we laughed, when you told me you hadn't laughed that much in along time, wearing your shirt, everything

i hate you, you ruined my life and haven’t apologize yet you stupid bitch. i hope you get what’s coming your way

Idek what to say to you. You made my life a living hell and I hate you for it! Because of you I had to call the fucking police and when people at school found out, you said it was all a lie and that I was just looking for attention. Well guess what bitch, I have friends now that ACTUALLY care about me and aren’t two faced bitches

in another universe i think our souls were made for each other; my blind optimism took the best of me. you were never going to change and you convinced both of us every time that you did.

hi aaaavaaaaa. i really miss you. i wish i hadn't been such a bitch to you and i regret it more than anything. i would tell you this right to your face but i dont think you would wanna talk to me anymore. i miss doing almost everything with you. we really drifted over quarantine and i wish i had called u more. you're such a great person and i took you for granted and it's the dumbest thing i've ever done. i love and miss u so so so so so much and i hope you're doing okay because you absolutely deserve the world. IMYSM AAAAAA

I've excepted the fact that we will never be as close as we used to be, I just wish you had chosen a different group to leave me for, but atleast you're still my 'bff'

i miss you bub. we fucked each other up a lot but i'm different now and i think you are too. text me xx

you make me so happy. i know you aren't used to being appreciated and validated but you deserve all of the love in the world. you make me in a better mood. i love your smile. the way your eyes light up when you laugh. you make things better. along with your loveable personality.

All those times you wanted me to reach out first, but I never did. I wanted you to fight for us like I've been fighting for the past 2 years. To fight for us. To fight for me. You don't care enough and I'm slowly learning to accept that.

i wish you weren't like this. i wish you didn't feel like this all the time. i wish you were like your old self again. i miss her

We don’t talk anymore. Just mindless snaps back and forth. Unless u need something then u always ask me cause u know I can’t say no.

i didnt want what everyone said abt u to be true.

I'm sorry, really. I just don't love you anymore. Sorry.

i wonder if you actually liked girls.

I wish you knew what you wanted.
I wish i knew that was me

I wish you knew how much I loved you

I don’t know what it is about you that is so mesmerising

i really need a friend rn, i wish u kept ur promise

i love you but i’m too scared to tell you

maybe in another universe you like me as much as i like you

I don’t look at you bc you’ll see it in my eyes and I can’t have you

honestly i’m just scared you’re still mad, i miss u so much i rlly am sorry

i’d come back if you just called pretty girl

using ur sis’s name cuz Ull know its me. I wish i was more considerate but you need to grow up

i love u we should date and kiss ur so hot and i wanna kiss u ❤️

please tell me i'm not as forgettable as your silence is making me feel