Unsent messages to ABBIE

i miss you so much. you were the best friend i’ve ever had thank you for everything i’m sorry it turned out like this

I'm sorry I lost touch with you. I'm a shitty friend, and that's no excuse. Y'know how in that Greek myth it says that the gods separated humans because they had four legs, and four arms? You are my missing parts. I hope I haven't changed too much for you.

god, where do i even start? should i start with the time you stole my first best friend for a good few months? then won me back after i gave you another chance? now that i think about it, how many second chances have i given you, Abigail? You copy me over everything I do. My hobbies, my interests, every fucking thing. I'm so goddamn sick of it and i wish you would just come to your senses and realize that taking after others just means your a fucking hypocrite with nothing better to do than ruin friendship that don't involve you at all. You took J, yes, then you took her. You took my better best friend. The best friend that if I'm truly honest, is better than you ever fucking were. Stop acting all buddy buddy and acting like me and you are friends. I tried my best to mend our friendship, you and i have been texting recently. but you know what? fuck you. it's not a coincidence you start texting me right when you get your greedy little claws on my best friend. leave me the hell alone. im so sick of your bullshit. I used to want you to grow and be better, but now, i highly doubt that's possble for you.
people make excuses, mostly the people giving me adive, like you are trying to find yourself and such.
but you know what? you've had three fucking years to make up for everything you've done, and you haven't done shit. "Oh yeah, ____ is X and mine best friend."
No. I do not assosiate with you, nor do I want to every again.
Let's hope you don't kick out your new little toy at your birthday party, bitch.

I gave up on love before I met you. You changed everything. Your presence is a warmth like I’ve never known before.

I may not be yours. But I’m content with it. So thank you, for absolutely everything.

You weren't my first love, nor have we ever been in love. We're best friends and I wouldn't change that, but you scare me sometimes. You can't blame your toxicity on a man who was never there and therefore has never affected you, and you can't take your anger out on us. Threatening to harm us isn't okay, and we feel unsafe. I know you like me or liked me, I mean you told me yourself. In that moment during the indoor caves when you tried to pull me onto your lap and whisper something in my ear, I was more scared than all the times you'd said something you couldn't take back, or had actually physically hurt me. The worst part is, I don't know if I was scared to lose you that day, or if I was scared of what would happen if the group we were in at the time left me alone with you after what you'd said to me. We never talked about it after that, and I never want to, because I don't like you that way, but I wish that you'd see things from your friend's perspectives sometimes.

im sorry but i think i like you and all i want is to spend time with you and be yours you’ll never see this nor will you know it’s me, i used to say stuff about moving in and living with my old friends all the time and of course they all drifted away from me but i think you’re different, i think you’ll actually stay with me.. i just want you to know how much brighter you make my life, kind of like the sun and earth... ilysm

thank you for being my best friend. you’re my favorite person and have always been there for me. i love you to the moon and back

You don’t know, but you honestly saved me. I hope you know how thankful I am to have you as a best friend.

you were the best person ive ever met. ill never find a friend who could make me as happy as you did. i dont even remember why we were fighting, it was something stupid and i wish it didnt cost us our friendship. i wish my pride wasnt so big that i couldnt make myself talk to you and apologize. your an amazing, funny, and smart person who gave me so much. thank you and im sorry for being a terrible friend. i always missed you.

our friendship means too much to me for me to tell you I love you, not a day goes by where I don't think of you.

You formed a relationship with my mum and still cheated on me so not only did you break my heart but my mums as well

yellow leaves on trees make my heart ache. yellow school busses yellow apples yellow flowers i cant escape you

i want to be with u. u make me feel less alone. i wish we could do everything on earth together.

love,
an anonymous girl

I'm happy to finally see you happy and yourself again welcome back to the land of the living its nice to see you.

You're the reason I'm still alive. You sat with me all those nights when I didn't know how to go on.
I don't know what I did to deserve you and I don't understand it, but thank you for always loving me.

We were really close friends. I wouldn't change that for the world. You've given me so many fun experiences I would never wanna take back. We've been drifting apart, and I understand. Growing up in this time and place can be hard, and I'm glad I've had you for as long as I had.

patiently waiting, cause yeah i still love you and idrc how long but yeah i’ll still be here but haha yeah