Unsent messages to Z
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 30, 2020, 6:52 pm UTC
You knew I hated the rain. The way it made my hair frizzy, made my bones ache, and my nose run. But you loved the rain. Your face would light up when those first few drops fell. The silent 3am cuddles with the only sound in the world being the gentle pattering of rain and our rhythmic breathing. The cool crisp air highlighting our breaths as we waited for your car to heat up. I started to fall in love with you and the rain. You made even the grey stormy days bright.
But then
you left me in the rain and never came back.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 26, 2020, 3:38 am UTC
unicorns. its stuck in my head. each time i drink iced coffee, i remember you. each time i listen to amr diab, i remember you. youre in the small things, and in the bigger things. youre everywhere.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 24, 2020, 9:31 pm UTC
i so badly wish i would've been enough. even though i tell everyone it was for the best i never told them i daydreamed about our future with our 2 daughters and golden retriever.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 24, 2020, 8:28 pm UTC
Some days I regret you. We were never meant for each other but thank you for the countless lessons and love. I don’t love you anymore.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 23, 2020, 9:41 am UTC
No matter where I’m at in life, or who I’m with.. my heart always comes back to you. I love you and I hate it.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 22, 2020, 4:33 pm UTC
why can’t you admit you care for me? why hurt me so many times? why do i always come back? you’ve hurt me so many times and i’m still here. stop taking me for granted.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 21, 2020, 7:44 pm UTC
I will always remember the moment I knew I was in love with you and the moment I knew I always will be.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 20, 2020, 6:34 am UTC
i honestly dont want to be friends with you, youve just become more selfish then when i first met you and whenever i try ask for help you turn it to about yourself and its annoying i cant handle it anymore, youve also told me that my best friend of 14 years hates me and doesnt want to be friends with me and i cant deal with it
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 20, 2020, 3:10 am UTC
even though i was madly inlove at the beginning, i felt myself drifting as time would pass. loving you was almost as hard as every fucking scenario that placed itself in my head. i love you forever and even though i never got to hug you, might i say that wherever you were, was my safe place. you are my safe place.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 20, 2020, 1:35 am UTC
Your the first that i like but i stop myself from getting to attached . And it was great at the start and i guess it still is, every day i get more attached seeing you which is contradictory to what i said but emotions are weird man. Also ive been trying to just fix stuff about my looks since i know if you saw me you would never like me. which is bad i guess but ive felt happier and my life has just been better as ive beenm taking care of myself cause i always think to myself, If you saw me right now would you like me? which is usally no but whatever its not that ill ever have you but its the idea of falling in love with a person like you ya know? anyways see ya
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 20, 2020, 12:50 am UTC
Just give me one chance, just one. A chance to hold your hand, a chance to love you, and a chance to call you mine.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:20 am UTC
There are nights where I wonder where it went wrong and why, then I remembered and I hate you so much for it.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:19 am UTC
I wanted to be loved by you the most, those lingering feelings after we broke is long gone, but I still look back and wished I was actually loved. Throughout our entire relationship I cried endless nights and waited for you to take care of me, but you didn't, so thank you. Although I can't hate you for the person you were, deep inside, we both knew that love wasn't ours to keep.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 11:13 am UTC
I hate that I couldn't be the person you wanted me to be and most importantly, I hate that I loved you so dearly.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:55 am UTC
i hope the next person you find treats you well and knows your humor. i’m proud to be your first & last love.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 9:44 am UTC
i wish we lived closer, it’s so unfair.
if only i could give you what you deserve, i’m falling deeper and deeper in love w you everyday
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 6:12 am UTC
hey i texted u today but u answered and I'm happy we were going to facetime but I had to do chores but I ask if u wanted to do our English project well bye
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 4:33 am UTC
Im ashamed to say that I still think about you, I don't think I even think of how you treated me like I was a dispenser for nudes. All we did was just send back and forth. I wanted more, but it wasn't mutual. Long distance wasn't for you, but I wasn't the only one in the picture. I miss you, but I don't.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 19, 2020, 2:50 am UTC
I hope you aren't disappointed in me. I hope you see how hard I try. I know you wanted more. I'm so sorry. The warm rug will always be there; I hope you'll look for it.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 18, 2020, 11:40 pm UTC
You made me feel loved in a time of need. But it wasn't real love it was artificial, but I couldn’t tell the difference
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 18, 2020, 8:34 am UTC
We could have been something. I just wanted to go on adventures with you in the city, go skating with you at 2 am, go on car rides and sing while you just look and smile at me. Now your gone and I feel like I fucked it up :(
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 17, 2020, 8:23 pm UTC
all i want is to forget about you but i can’t help but wonder if i live in your head like you live in mine
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 12, 2020, 9:10 pm UTC
I’m not surprised you did the things you did, maybe you never meant anything you said to me, but i meant everything i said and that’s the saddest part
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 12, 2020, 2:23 am UTC
you're me, but you're a version of me i can never be. i wish i could be everything you are inside my head. happy, comfortable, grown and strong. but im none of those. i wish i knew what to do
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 10, 2020, 1:41 pm UTC
Can you fucking stop only thinking about yourself? You are a selfish person you don’t even care about me you are toxic.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 9, 2020, 10:56 am UTC
You said you'd never even think about being with me, yet you get so jealous when I try to forget you?
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 8, 2020, 12:13 am UTC
Yo simplemente fuĂ mi mejor versiĂłn contigo, y ni siquiera eso fue suficiente.
PorquĂ© simplemente no me dijiste que no me querĂas?
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 5, 2020, 6:45 pm UTC
i think no matter how long we stay strangers, there will always be a part of me that will love you. i just hope you come back one day, ill be waiting.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 3, 2020, 2:49 am UTC
why do i feel like i lose you even more every time i open up? things were so good between us and just because of my anxiety, it's like i lost you in one blink of an eye. i wish i didn't open up instead. it hurts seeing you lose interest in me. i wanna go back.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 2, 2020, 8:29 pm UTC
I wrote nearly an entire poem book about you. But when I saw you with her, it only made me want to write a sequel. I wonder if you meant what you said when you told me you wanted to read them.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: November 1, 2020, 6:30 am UTC
i messed everything up. you gave me two tries and i couldn't get over my fear of commitment. i love you, but I'll never be able to tell you. im ready to commit now, but its much too late
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 30, 2020, 3:04 pm UTC
Over a year ago I wrote "I wonder if there will ever be a day that I don't think of you"...still wondering
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 27, 2020, 6:18 pm UTC
Hey, It's me. I still love you and I think I always will. I hope you think of me when you look into her eyes.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 26, 2020, 4:29 am UTC
Your “forever” meant 2 months. That’s okay, I just hope you didn’t hurt the next girl like you did me.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 26, 2020, 3:15 am UTC
I'm not the same bad person I was when I knew you, I was just hurting so bad. You helped more than you will ever know.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 20, 2020, 11:46 pm UTC
Ive found your last letter today... i wanted to write back and say, you broke me.
And yes, now i am better.
But i hope you would feel the pain, and think about me. ;)
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 20, 2020, 11:42 pm UTC
Ive found your last letter today... i wanted to write back and say, you broke me.
And yes, now i am better.
But i hope you would feel the pain, and think about me. ;)
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 20, 2020, 3:00 am UTC
I miss you. I know I shouldn't. I know I cut you off, but there are some things happening right now I wish I could tell you. I unblocked you and if you miss me too call me, please.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 19, 2020, 9:00 am UTC
today i love you for all of it. for your smell, for your smile, for your passion. for the way you love, quietly.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 16, 2020, 6:25 pm UTC
I teach the age we were when we met. As they hold hands I think... were we that young? that naive? that in love?
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 16, 2020, 6:09 pm UTC
I now teach the age we were when we met. As they hold hands I think... were we that young? that naive? that in love?
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 16, 2020, 11:34 am UTC
I'm so fucking sorry tuwing iniisip kita naguguilty ako kasi di ko sayo masabi na nagpadala ako sa trauma di ko na kasi kaya hirap na hirap na ako im so sorry u dont deserve someone who is so fucking broken im so sorry
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 14, 2020, 11:46 am UTC
I’ve burnt your letters, I’ve burnt your jumper - what do I need to do to get over you, burn my soul?
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 10, 2020, 2:00 pm UTC
I did everything for u and as soon as I stop texting first I get blocked, u said u said u where my best friend we planned to live next to each other and raise our kids as siblings but then u found someone better.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 9, 2020, 4:06 pm UTC
i used to love romance. now i can’t watch, read, or think about it without it leading me back to you. i hate that.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 8, 2020, 3:59 am UTC
i will wait. as long as it takes. because i truly believe there is nobody else. but i would never tell you that.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 7, 2020, 7:33 am UTC
This is the color of one of the sweatshirts you wore that made you look irresistibly handsome. After all those years I'm starting to think that maybe I fell in love with the version of you I had created in my head and not with you.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 6, 2020, 11:50 am UTC
it hurt when you pulled me along for 2 years for your own benefit after you lost feelings. you knew it hurt.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: October 6, 2020, 11:49 am UTC
it hurt when you pulled me along for 2 years for your own benefit after you lost feelings. you knew it hurt.
From: ABC
To: Z
Date: September 27, 2020, 8:40 pm UTC
I can’t watch monsters inc because that was your favorite movie i’ll never know the truth but i still miss you.
