We were friends for a long-ass time and sometimes, I randomly get sad that it's over. But you were my past and not my future.The friendship was no longer benefiting either of us. We stayed friends for a lot longer then we probably should have because we were scared of the unknown and what it would be like without the "routine" of being with eachother, in a way. We passed the deadline of the universes plan so things started to become toxic for both of us. You know it too ,even if you don't want to admit to yourself. Or maybe you've already moved on and litterly burned all pictures of me by now. The point is, I'm sorry for the way I ended things. You will forever have a spot in my heart and I will forever charish the happiness that you gave me. I love you, I frequently think about you and I hope to god that you're doing okay.

You’re amazing and I’m just so lucky I have you, it’s obvious who this is from but I just wanna say, we may fall out sometimes but that doesn’t stop me from loving you, I have THE BIGGEST crush on you and I can’t even contain my love for you, I love you baby

I looked through our old messages and I just realised how you manipulated me. You told me about killing yourself and I was giving my soul crying, desperate. But you were actually fine. I forgive you for all that, but stay away.

my sister said we’re not really in love with each other. i don’t believe her, i really think that we are.

you’re all i can ever think about. i can’t move on from this. for almost a year i’ve been stuck in this situation, willing you to notice me, to feel the same way back. i want to give up so much but my heart isn’t letting me. there’s no way you’ll see this but i need to let it out. every time i see you, when i see you smile when i come by, it makes me so hopeful. but i know hope is a dangerous thing which only leads to destruction. and i’ve had enough of that to last a lifetime.

you said your favourite colour was rainbow so im gonna leave it white. you may not believe me and you may hate my guts but i still love you with everything i can and i want you to come back more than anything. i want to spend the rest of my life with you bro. that ain't gonna happen though is it. you're never coming back are you.. you promised dude. you lied..

i love the fact that i think about you and i no longer miss you! i’m no longer in love with you and i love that!

i miss u more than u could ever know. i always wonder what happened. i haven't stopped wondering. part of me genuinely hopes u see this and that u'd text or call. i've never really addressed or dealt with when u left. with anyone. and i get that u left for ur own personal reasons, but u were my best fucking friend. i stayed for u. i stayed here for u. and i didnt even get a goodbye or even a fucking explanation. i dont know whether or not i'm mad. my perception of u goes from perfection and idolization to evil in a matter of minutes. it's been 5 months since u left. not a day goes by i don't think of u. i still love u. i think. i dont want to make this long winded so ultimately, i hope u've recovered.

I know I shouldn’t but I’m growing to like you. But I have no faith that you’ll stay, you’ve got to prove that to me. There’s just something about you that I can’t seem to replace. I just want to meet you

I’ve read our old messages after so many months, I kinda miss you but fuck you.
I miss having someone, I don’t think I necessarily miss having you:)

youre not mine and i know youll never be, but i still care about you so much. It hurts to see you hurting from a distance, full well knowing i cant do anything because you wont let me in. I just want you to stay permanently, not come and go like you always do. I want to be able to be there for you, if youd let me

my dearest gabriela,

you are smarticle particle and talented shmalented and you are going to n** next year WOW super fun and i love you and my best friend and hopefully we will be in n** together maybe not if i get into ****** university tho but we will see. uh you’re pretty cool ig and i miss you alr but i have nothing else to say bc this was rly impromptu:)

sincerely,
you know who

Fuck you, you manipulative bitch. I can’t believe the way you made me feel. Please get some help and leave me the fuck along.

You made me believe my smile was beautiful, the thing I was most insecure about. Now I smile with my teeth in every picture. That’s the one good thing i’m left with after the breakup haha

oh how i’m so grateful for you. thank you for helping me through my hardest times and i’m glad i could help you through yours. you’re the bestest best friend i could ask for. and please gabs, for me, stay alive. stay alive, love. it gets better, i promise.

And I loved you with my whole soul and every piece of me loved you and you left... with the worst excuses. I was ready to give everything to you but you didnt. You left and now you re happy with somebody else. I wish i could talk to you one more minute and to see your beautiful face for the last time and to enjoy every part of you.
PS I STILL LOVE YOU !

it's so hard to lose the only person who understood. it took so much to not call you. i know you dont care anymore. i know i cant talk to you anymore and its really hard.

I wish you would open up your eyes and see that pushing me away isnt helping. But maybe youre better off without me

I don’t think I’ll ever forget the pain you have caused me, but I forgive you. You didn’t deserve me, boy.

friend breakups hurt worse, especially when you took all my other friends with you. i hope your happy

“ghost” that’s what i called you my friends started calling me that and it made me think of you i hope your well take care of brownie

i hope you're doing well. things ended kinda awkwardly and we both turned into ghost. hope all is good

I should have known that you weren’t in it for the long haul so I don’t know why I lied to myself and thought you might stay

Eres la primer apersona en la que confié, fuiste mi primer amor y el que nunca olvidare, te amo a pesar de que las cosas hayan cambiado.

I almost lost you today, properly. When i got the text my heart sunk, and ive never called or texted so much in my life. I didnt realise until then how much i actually loved you. You cant leave me yet, i dont know how id cope. please be okay.

Fuck you. You are a racist, manipulative, bitch. I can't believe I was ever friends with you. Honestly, in the end, I think I was just scared to be alone.

i appriciate u a lot
and u r rlly attractive to me from a chemical reaction type of way im scared that if i were to tell u, ud reject me cuz ik u dont like me like that, but if ull ever see this u prolly wont say shit so its fine bahaha

you destroyed me and broke my heart but I promised that I will always love you no matter what, I just miss the idea of you

Why? What was the point of messing with me when I didn’t even know who you were? Do you enjoy the pain of others? I trusted you

I wish I could go back in time and enjoy the year we had over and over again. I miss you so much every day.

thank you for giving me a reason to stay alive. i dont know how long i would have made it if it wasnt for you. i love you, i really do even if you dont love me the same amount back. you are perfect in my eyes, you are more than enough for me. just your presence in my life is enough, i couldnt ask for more. you understand me so well, more than anyone else i have ever met. im still working on getting to understand you though, its hard but im trying, i just want to make you happy. i really hope you can find happiness soon, thats all i wish for you and i know that, that is all you want to, and you deserve it. you have been through a lot. you are one of the strongest people i know and i cannot say enough for how proud i am of you. you pushed through so much and you're almost done with it i promise. you will find yourself again. i need to see you right now. hold you close so i can feel your heartbeat, so close that i can smell your hair. i need to hear your voice. its so soothing i wish you would never stop talking. i could fall asleep to the sound of your voice. i love you a lot gab.

Hey gabi. I've been feeling crooked for a while now. My head is going crazy. I'm not used to feeling the same way. I clearly didn't think it was going to hit me the same way what happened and since you told me to tell you about it, well that's what I'm doing. It's been a long time since I've experienced direct rejection (don't feel bad, it's okay, that's life, you don't decide that). I guess I'm the one who has to do my part to think about it but it's hard.

hey girlie! you ruined my life haha! mistreat my friends ever again and i might fuck around and ruin yours

i did absolutely nothing wrong. i wasted so much time and effort making your life fucking amazing and fucking bearable. you treated me like shit. i never treated you like shit once. i gave you love and you gave me pain. you are and forever will be the shittiest person ive ever met.

you’re so pathetic. all your lies and manipulation. you only do it to feel better about yourself. you really once said that everything you do is to please others. can’t believe i ever believed that.

Those letters that are below this arent meant for you. i promise. dont take it personally. it could be any gabi in the world. its not you.

i hope you can find happiness. i know that's all you ever wanted. i hope you can find yourself and try and be a good person from now on. i hope we can both just forget about each other. i think that's best.

Thank you for everything that you've done for me. Seriously. You did help a lot at one point; as much as I don't want to admit it but you did. We should have just stayed mutuals though. I'm sorry even though I shouldn't be. We just weren't right for each other. Maybe another time in a different life. But for now I hope you continue to go on with your life and that life will not include me in it anymore. Goodbye.

you make me so confused... what do u want with me?

I love you more than all the stars in the sky, more than the earth needs the sun and the moon.

I’m so sorry, I still miss you. I’d sacrifice all the world for another hour with you. I love you.

..hey!

Even though we aren't friends, I still think about you all the time and wish you the best <3

It’s been such a long time but I still think about you
and feel like one day you’ll come back

I just want you to feel loved, and i want to be the one to give that to you

Teehee!! When people ask about you I start giggling!<3

I was smiling all day because my hoodie smelled like you

it could’ve been different

Hi my love. Its been 4 months since we broke up. But im still here waiting.

its hard knowing you’re so close, yet out of reach now