Unsent messages to YUSUF

i know i’m better off without you but sometimes i feel like i’d rather be sad with you

i mindlessly look for you everywhere i go.

i mindlessly look for you everywhere i go.

i hope you open your eyes and realise what you’ve lost

i hope you realise how much i loved you.

See , you never understand me at all. I'm an introvert. And I'm not interested in filling your place with someone else. Few people truly welcome to never replace with another. You were one of them but you didn't understand. Leaving you behind didn't mean forgetting all , but remember. It was like cutting my own arm off my body. Think that. Think that why a person do it to himself. Just a tip, people cut arms or such places to save other parts of body. To keep alive person itself. You dumbass stupid thing

Anyways. You never remember what I said something good but only bad things that I told when I'm angry and want to hurt you.

ur a son of a bitch the spawn of satan u have no respect and are a horrible person i will never forget how misogynistic and racist u were kindly fuck off

idk if you'd know this is me, but you prob know the way i type by now. ik i acted nice and didn't sound mad last time we talked, but honestly i have no respect for you anymore. you literally just used me and threw me away once you were done. you're selfish asf and i wish i never did anything for you. you didn't deserve me at all. fuck you for wasting my time

idk if you go on this site or if you even know it exists. idk if you'd know this one is for you (along with a few more in the past). even if you did, idk if you'd care. i kept trying to get your attention the past few years just so you'd notice me and maybe like me back, but either you were completely oblivious or you just didn't give a fuck. either way, i'm a fool for being hung up on a guy i didn't even date. i started liking you and got attached when you gave me attention, but now i know it was just because you wanted to fuck me again. you made it clear that you don't want me anymore, and that was the closure i needed. i can't even blame you for anything, it's my fault for leading myself on and hoping that if i tried hard enough, you'd finally like me back. tbh now i'm hoping you never see this because i feel like you'd definitely know it's me by this point. i was so stupid for you, but now i can finally let go of this crush that went on for too long.

You can't get out of my mind. You are part of me now. And I don't live to forget. All my life like this. I carry everything with myself. I will carry you with me too , although you pretend that we have ever met.

I admire how you admired me. you could never remember anything other than the things I said. you taught me how I should be treated by a guy but unfortunately you also evened that out with how I shouldn't. I regret us ever being something ,worst mistake of my life

your the reason I feel bad about myself all the time but I can’t seem to hate you. I just want you to come back

Kanar gibi, yaramı dağlarım
Yanar içim, yine de saklarım
Geçmez sözün, bir bana geçmez, gücün yetmez
Koşar gibi, ölüme atlarım
Ezip geçer, yine de kalkarım
Yetmez gücün, bi' bana yetmez
Sözün geçmez, gücün yetmez


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You told me that you are the one who text first. You told me that you are the one who is always nice. But every bad moments of our friendship you didn't text first. Such things like this pushed me away. What can I do? Isn't a something meant to be happy place for eachother? Why did I felt sad? I just had to save myself. Now I'm sad but if I didn't do what i have done I would have no energy to do something but only thinking about you.

I will never forget you. I'm not living to forget.

What you done as last move made me think you finally removed me from your life. And also it's a counterattack to hurt me as I hurt you before. Yes. It hurts. It was good to see you even on internet. But that's ok. I will wait the time that you will text me. The time that you need someone who supports you as much as I am. The time that you might keep your words which you told to determine yourself. But i won't surprise that if you don't. Also I won't be waiting for it with expect.

I'm not the one who wrote to your name , please I'm not that meek who will think what has been written and won't say directly

I think about you a lot and I'm still trying to figure out where i went wrong. What i did or didn't do that made me lose you.

right person wrong time you broke my heart and there is nothing i can do about it i love tou and always will all my love x

my Yusuf would never even go on this site, but you know you really broke me. With all your games and stupid flirting. I can honestly say I hate you. Yet I still want you. Why does everything have to be so confusing with you?

Although it was not about who is right r wrong. It was all about could you understand me. Even though all this similarities between you and me , the way you feel things the way you poem them.. it's strange that you seeing everything is last thing that happened. It's sad. I'm sad , tho I felt you so close to me.
I was screaming. With all my behaviours and sayings , to try to make you feel good and wanted you to see my effort. But you , no , you see me as your enemy. Even though for example being side by you against your sister , you misunderstood me and thought I was against you. You never read properly while I was listening you with passion and patience. At the sister thing you said sorry. Your sorry is valuable as f. But things like this without sorry , besides saying sorry you said it's me, you need to accept me. This is the point. I was your friend but you ignore me,my hurting heart and saying it's me. I knew you, you taught me that you should be one the one who says a lot of love sentence and shows the value towards person. But you failed on me. By failing on me you failed on you. On yourself. My anger that you saw from the very beginning , is a resistance against you changing to another person. You hurt by someone and said I will play with boys , i got angry because it was not a action that you would do. You were fragile as I knew. Y still. But see , you talk bad behind people all time. And smiling their face. It's so sad. I always being tricked by the book's brief which is at the very behind. When I keep reading it appears different features , different personality.

You made me sad. It's not important what is good,right or whatever. You have never listened me. I felt terrible. Many times. Youve never look into. I needed you to disappear yet I can't forget. It's not about you being so good or such else,you are not a goddess in the end. I couldn't forget many things.