Unsent messages to XANDER

using blue bc it’s your favorite color. i’m in love with you and it kills me to see you with her. but y’all belong together. i just want you to be happy. i know you’ll never wake up and realize i exist but i can dream right. you’re perfect. your music is amazing. all i want in life is you. but you wouldn’t choose me before any of those other girls. also btw. maybe stop unintentionally flirting w other girls if you have gf. anywho. yeah. i’m in love with you. have a wonderful day xan man.

using blue bc it’s your favorite color. i’m in love with you and it kills me to see you with her. but y’all belong together. i just want you to be happy. i know you’ll never wake up and realize i exist but i can dream right. you’re perfect. your music is amazing. all i want in life is you. but you wouldn’t choose me before any of those other girls. also btw. maybe stop unintentionally flirting w other girls if you have gf. anywho. yeah. i’m in love with you. have a wonderful day xan man.

im glad youre happy, thats all i ever wanted. i wish we still be friends and not be awkward around each other. i hide the fact that I miss you sometimes. ill always be here. i hope you're happy. i love you.

i really did love you more, but i will never forget how happy i was when you said you did even if it wasn’t true.

Xander you taught me to love myself no matter the insecurity and I'm grateful for that. I thankful for all the laughs,the smiles, the hugs, the cheezes. I wish I could stay that way instead of the endless tears you give me when I think of how you don't love me anymore. I'm grateful to have loved someone as amazing as you in my life time.

i know things are going to change eventually but i don’t want them too, and there’s nothing i can do about it

i still can’t get you out of my head. after years i still have butterflies and every time i see you i fall in love again. ever since the first time i looked into your eyes i knew you were special. maybe one day i’ll reach out to you and tell you the whole story. again, i’m sorry.

i wish i could talk to you again. after you told me about the girl you’d been in love with for 7 months, we practically became strangers. i loved you so much. i hoped you would be my soulmate. the guy that i would forever want to love. i miss you. you don’t respond to my messages anymore. but i miss you nonetheless. i hope one day you’ll finally message me again. until then, i love you.

I made one small mistake, before I knew how you felt and before i realized how I felt about you. why did that one mistake changed you entire viewpoint of me?

I made one small mistake, before I knew how you felt and before i realized how I felt about you. why did that one mistake changed you entire viewpoint of me?

You said I remind you of the color orange. I prefer a lavender. But before I go. Why do you want me to leave him so bad? you have a girlfriend yet you try to convince me to leave him. why?

ANYONE PLS READ !! eyoo so i looked up ur name and theres a lot of ppl who've written things that could hav been ab u, like they describe how u act so EVERYONE READING, IF U KNOW SOMEONE NAMED XANDER PLS COMMENT THE LAST NAME UNDER HERE

I hate that all these years later you still make me emotional. This time I want to put you away for good. You hurt me so much and I was too weak or in love to say so.

I thought you were my person, turns out you're just a piece of shit like all the other ones. Just an attention seeker

Ok one more...
I don't think there someone as purely beautiful and kind and complex as you in this world. I hope that one day it will make sense for us to be together again. I love you xan.

So in all honesty I don't really know you at all and you probably don't know who I am, but you caught my interest. It's kind of funny how I found out about you. My friend has a class with you and she found you cute so she told me about you and I looked you up in the yearbook and I did find you cute because you're exactly my type, but I didn't think too much about you until I saw you at church. It was kind of crazy cuz I had never seen you there till my friend told you about me. At first I didn't know if it were the same guy, but then I found out you were. Then one night at an event you sat by me and you're cologne smelled really good(hopefully this doesn't sound creepy). Then I realized I liked you which was interesting to me cuz recently every boy has bored me, but with you I caught feelings really fast and didn't lose them after just a week. So I texted you which was probably a bad decision cuz you probably think I'm weird now and you stopped responding and now I feel like if I ever do see u again I can't talk to you. But the last 2 times I went to church you weren't there and idk if you switched services or what, but I'll lowkey be disappointed if you did cuz then I won't be able to see you, but I'll get over it and maybe it's for the better if I lose feelings for you cuz you were just kind of like a fantasy and I knew nothing would ever happen, but it gave me a sense of normancy to have feelings for someone again, but normal is boring so it doesn't really matter anymore. Ik you'll probably never see this, but i just wanted to get this off my chest and if you ever did see this I would be very embarassed. One last thing you have very beautiful blue eyes and that's kind of what caught my interest cuz blue eyes are great

I wish you could stop drinking long enough to remember that you love me... But I enjoy the moments that you don't remember that you're hurting too and you joke and laugh and act normal.

Haha...we met over snap chat and I told you I loved you the day I added you back. Thanks for being my teacher:)

I miss you so much. you were literally my type & i wish we didn’t end. you were everything i wanted in life.

Sorry if i hurted you, i care so much abt you and you deserve the world! with or without me. i love you x A

Ily, more than a best friend should.
You're falling in love w someone else, it's okay. I will be fine :/

I’m sorry you have to be in that house right now I blame myself but I also know you can deal with it I just hope you can get out soon and meet a new and better girl than me and ya know do whatever you want to do. goddamn I trust you so much

i wish you cared about me as much as I cared for you. i know you're scared but I have all of the love in the world for you.

I wish you knew how much the small talks mean to me - even if ur being rude in them they make me feel so complete even tho ur being horrible

hey. I don’t really know how to tell you this because im scared if the outcome, but just so you know i like you, and it’s so hard keeping it a secret.

Sorry that i fucked up once again bro
I would die for you idk how to tell you how much i care for you, i wish i could...

I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me but I’m scared you won’t want to know me if I do, I’m sorry if I pushed you away

it still baffles me to this day why you thought i would take your side, after you and your partner not only lied, but also tried to sabotage something i've built from the ground up.

you broke me. i loved you, but you hurt me more then words could ever explain. i wish i could forget about us.

ik its crazy but u rlly are my drug. when im w you i feel a type of alive i never feel without you. i havent felt alive in a long time.

u were the first person to make me feel even just a little bit. the first person to introduce me to love.

i don't know if i miss you or the feeling of being in love with you. i wish i wasn't afraid to fall in love and fuck up again. we didnt even date. i should still be mad at you, but i dont think you knew you were hurting me... i wish you the best

you were my first kiss and I hate that you suck as a person. I wish I hadn’t held on to the idea that we could of meant anything.

i know you didn’t feel the same about me but i just wanted you to know that i look at you like how i look at the stars. thank you for being so kind to me