Unsent messages to TY

I think I loved you, but you just loved the idea of me and support I gave you. I just needed someone and you were there for me, but eventually you left like everyone else.

i wish there was a way i could turn back time, i wish there was a way to make you love me again. i tried so hard to make you happy and all you did was mess around with girls, i know we could’ve been more mature about things and i wish we were older so maybe things would’ve lasted. i’m sorry for how i treated you after the end and how i said bad things about you, i only did that to make myself feel better about the fact you were over me and did want me anymore. knowing you were on to another girl broke my heart, every little thing that you did broke me heart. you took my heart that i gave you and broke it into a million pieces then stepped all over it. i wish i had the courage to tell you this myself but i don’t. we don’t have a connection anymore and it kills me everyday thinking about it, you were my safe place. but you broke that when you slept over at her house and left me thinking i wasn’t enough. maybe in the future we can try this again.

i wish we still talked, i see you at school and all i think is i can’t look at you, and i can’t hug you. you don’t understand the pain you never will. it kills me that you don’t know.

you were my first love and you know that.so far u have been the only guy i ever loved and the only guy to ever really love me,i know i broke up with u months ago and any normal person would move on but i cant no matter how hard i try i still think about you when im going to bed at night,i still look for you in every person i talk to but no one is like u. and i hate that. when i say i still like u i dont think i mean u now tho. i mean its different ur different now and ya things happen and people change but its not the same.i think abt the old u the one who i feel asleep on the phone with every night,the one that kissed me in the hallway and told me he loved me and meant it. i miss that and u. u meant everything to me and i did u wrong which is something i look back on and think that what if i didnt do things to u would we still be together? idk.and i never will.but ya maybe next semester ill see u or well have class together and maybeee we can at least be close friends again.id give anything to be close to u again,u changed me and made me the person i am and u were there when i needed u the most and im forever grateful for that. okay i think thats it.

you had the best smile :) i wake up every morning hope to see a missed ft call but remember it’s over.

i miss you. i know youll never give me chance to make you happy and it tears me apart. i always compare others to you and think about how you could be the one.

i can't take the same road home that i used to because when i drive past your house, i always check if your bedroom light is on. i miss you so much.

we were friends for such a long time before these feelings came up. i hope i mean even half as much as you mean to me.

Sometimes when the trauma of you cheating gets to be alot, I imagine breaking up with you.ily.im sorry.

Who knew that this was going to end the way it did.
I love you and miss you, please come fix things with me xo

i’ll never stop loving you. i don’t care if i’m not supposed to, you’re the only person i’ll ever love with my entire heart. forever.

I hated cats and the color orange before i met you and you changed that about me. If this is the end- i love you forever and i hope we meet again in another life. I’m going to miss you Ty

I Hope you are doing better and enjoying college. But a part of me wants to know if you still think of me ,did you think I was not happy?did you read my poems? because I never stopped .I just want to know and tell you,you will always be my first love but I have to let go

I finally built up the courage to unfollow you; one step closer to freedom and let me tell you, I’m almost there

u r one of the fastest crushes i've had. i met you and a couple days later i realized i liked you. when we first met u and t jokingly flirted with me and at first it was all fun and games but i got to know and idk what it was but then boom i realized i had feelings for u. i realized that though we aren't super close i can joke around with u like i've known u for awhile as well as have serious convos. the first time we texted was nothing special but god did it make me smile. i think ur singing intrigued me aswell, ur voice is amazing and i could listen to it all day and night. but after going live with u and ur friends i had this feeling that u liked another and she might've liked you back. i talked to a lot of ur friends and some were sure but m told me that u told him u didn't like her like that though u knew she liked u. it gave me a bit of relief and that soudns selfish but god i rlly want to be with u but then later ur friend texted me apologizing saying he lied but it was because u lied to him, u actually do rlly like her. i also know for a fact she likes u back, but who wouldn't ur an amazing guy and she's perfect who wouldn't want her, she's literally heather. anyways i was kinda heartbroken when i found put u liked her but i tried to act as normal as possible so it wouldn't have affected the mood. later it was j the two of us on live and i felt so happy, though i new u liked someone else it j made me happy talking to u. u at first denied to liking her but eventually admitted it saying u weren't sure if she liked u back and even if she did u weren't sure if it would work out bcuz she lived far. i didn't say much bcuz i was kinda hurt and i regret it but it was fine we ended up changing the topic and continued to joke around. idk if u noticed that i liked u, i feel like i may have been a bit obvious at times but u never said anything. i'm feeling a bit better now and im j happy that we can be friends and talk but i j feel a little hurt when u ygs talk to each other, it's so obvious u both like each other and ig im just jealous and miss that. ur friends are rlly nice and im getting to know u all better so i don't regret meeting u and them. i'll get over u, maybe not rn but soon. ur an amzing guy ty and i wish u happiness. ily stupid

i still look for pieces of you in everyone i meet. i meant what i said, my feelings for you were real. i think we might have had a real chance at love, i'm sorry i left.

i miss you a lot and wish so badly things were different.. but if i could go back in time i wouldve ended it earlier.

I love you, I miss you. I would give everything to get you back, what we had was unforgettable and amazing. You were more than enough at all times and I wish you knew that my love bug. I'll always love you more and I'll be here whenever you think you're ready

i might be wrong but i think we both feel the same. i just wish you’d be honest so
i don’t make a fool of myself :,)

everytime i see that you snapped me all i think is "aw shit here we go again" the only reason i dont leave you on open is bc youre 6'4 lol

I wish it wasn’t so difficult, I wish the distance wasn’t there. If I had it my way, I would never have to leave.

What does she have and i don't?
Your attention? Your heart? I guess both. And i guess i have neither.

you mean alot and I'm sorry that I'm silly and annoying, I just want to make you happy but sometimes I get too giddy- please dont leave me, you make life so much more fun and even though I don't say it you're kind of the only person I'm living for right now